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  2. What are your experiences with rehab centers?

    Does the person have insurance? These places all charge a ton, but my insurance covered everything but the diagnostics, which came out to a few hundred dollars. I could never have afforded to go on my own. I don't have any personal experience with other locations, but if they have insurance, I would recommend finding a rehab placement service. These services work with several centers to match you with one that will accept your insurance at the lowest out of cost pocket. This was how I found Monarch shores. I checked and saw that the one I used is no longer in business, so I do not have any personal recommendations for that. Never alone recovery looks like they use a very similar process, though.
  3. Day 185 - I survived my first day of work yesterday. It’s a fast paced work environment. I can’t believe how physically tired I was after work. I was so tired today doing nothing, it was insane.
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  5. Hey everyone. Nearly a year off adderall at this point. I told my doctor about my abuse so that’s how I got off and I have, on my medical record, “amphetamine misuse” as a medical condition. I am getting a surgery this summer, one that my surgeon prescribes narcotics for. When I am trying to fill this medication, is it likely that I may not be able to fill it with my history? Wondering if anyone has had any issues with getting medication after disclosing to doctors. Thanks!
  6. Finally quitting after 4 years

    I got put on it at age 25, and at age 42 I’m about 4 months sober. Hardest thing I think I ever did. I had a slip a few days ago but I quickly got rid of the pills so back on track. I had a 5mg slip, thank god I didn’t keep going. I became so hooked and it really destroyed my life and relationships as I reflect. I’m a female.
  7. What are your experiences with rehab centers?

    Whoa that place is a ton of money. It looks nice, but do you know any others?
  8. I like your video. Adderall really is a dangerous road that eventually leads to hell.
  9. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    hang in there! to be honest, i think starting work is going to be a really positive thing - it will force you to have energy. external accountability was SO important to me during my recovery. i still take Wellbutrin. it definitely helps, though some people need a period to adjust to it. if you decide to try it again, make sure your dr does not start you at 300mg. frankly i've been at half that for years and it's more than enough. gl at your first day of work!!! (:
  10. Day 183 - I’m starting to think I need to try the WellButrin route again. I’m really struggling energy wise. I can barely get to the gym this week because I’m so fatigued. All I’ve been doing most days is laying in bed watching TV. Work starts tomorrow. God help me.
  11. One Word Status Update

    (pleasantly) surprised!
  12. What are your experiences with rehab centers?

    I had a wonderful experience going to rehab in California. The center I went to was called Monarch Shores and was essentially just a beautiful beach home with a bunch of roomies. It did not at all feel like an institution, and I was able to bring my cell phone and laptop as well. We had regular outings, yoga, etc. The kitchen was stocked so that we could cook for ourselves, and they would also make weekly trips to the store for special requests. They accepted my insurance and I had to only pay for diagnostics. If you would like any more info, don't hesitate to reach out.
  13. Stand with me and quit. It's toxic not only to you but to your family and friends. At first, it's an amazing drug but at the end it's hell. The road to hell is paved with good intentions. This story tells it all!!
  14. I feel stuck, I am in hell, and I hate this....

    For real. There has to be something that can be worked on every day to lead to some major goal, something that will make you feel REALLY GOOD about yourself as whole. I really do believe that focusing on the lack of Adderall makes the whole quitting process a ton harder than it needs to be. Something that I do, is that I ALWAYS keep my dream alive in my head. It makes foregoing Adderall a no-brainer. Like it's not even an option to consider. The cheap momentary thrills of speeding bear no weight when compared to feeling GOOD and ACHIEVED!!!!!! Imagine getting your dream body. Imagine exploring a new area of the world you never been in, and have the most craziest conversations with someone you just met for the first time, because your mind is calm and FREE from its own prison, and you can go out exploring and get new experiences. Imagine the emotional and mental resilience you will have once you accustom yourself to being strong. Adderall makes you weak, you cannot possibly achieve your potential with it destroying you from the inside out. As high the level of pain you can tolerate, the rewards will be at least of the same level. And you will forget ALL the pain you feel now!!! It doesn't last!! Fight for longlasting true pleasure. There is certain pain of quitting, this is very true. It's the price you have to pay. But you don't have to suffer. Accept the minimal amount of pain that comes with making the change you have no choice about that, and fill in the rest of the vacant space of your personal dream life coming true and the longlasting hope that will put the force of life back within you.
  15. I feel stuck, I am in hell, and I hate this....

    ^^^ this this this!!! i think i commented on this in another post, but for those of us struggling with "finding our energy again", perhaps we're looking for the wrong thing. maybe it's that big dream or goal that we need to be searching for that will jumpstart our lives. (:
  16. Day 182 - I am craving amphetamines badly today. I’m lucky I live in a place where they are regulated heavily, because if they were sold over the counter or like liquor, I’d have bought and taken them today. ):
  17. Hello. I am actually posting this on behalf of someone else in my life who has reached a really severe level of addiction. I need to know what are your recommendations and/or experiences with rehab centers? Are there any that are based in very tranquil, nature settings? Like in a beautiful nature reserve of sorts, with lots of healthy food and activities? Something that doesn't feel like an institution? If anybody here has helpful information, please pass it on to me here in the post (or PM if you feel it is too private to share publicly), I would really appreciate it. Thank you all!
  18. I feel stuck, I am in hell, and I hate this....

    I quit on April 8, relapsed on May 21. Back to day 2 now. I feel so much pain right now and I am disappointed in myself, but I am not going to make this mistake again. I understand you, my friend. This is not an easy journey. My best advice is to find within yourself a big dream or goal that will directly benefit from you NOT taking Adderall. For me, it is physical fitness - as Adderall destroys my conditioning. Nothing is going to fall in place by itself. Want proof? Okay, here it is: has it happened yet? Is today all that different than yesterday? How about the day before that? Or before that? Or before THAT? Will tomorrow (assuming nothing changes) be very different from today? If your answer is "probably not", then the bitter truth is that nothing will change. But YOU can make it change!!!!!! Just take the first step, one day at a time. Compartmentalize every day if you can. Focus on the benefits of quitting, not the pain, as much as you can.
  19. Some important observations I've made about Adderall

    I am happy that you were able to connect to my post. I hope so much for you that you will gather enough strength and willpower to make the decision that you truly need to make. Every day is precious. Days pass in an instant. Do not allow those pills in your drawer to rob you of your life. I support you, my friend!
  20. One Word Status Update

    (well) rested!
  21. One Word Status Update

    challenged.
  22. It's frightening! Hell I could sit down for 6-8 hours straight playing MW2 or zombies or really any video game. It seems as if after Adderall, I just can't anymore. It's awful as even things I love like video games and movies just seem like they'll take so much effort and that I am incapable of playing them, yet I had no problem doing that until this past year.
  23. You're so right! Whenever I'm backed against a wall with a deadline for anything, I'm able to get it done without an issue, even if I've procrastinated for weeks. I guess I really need to bite the bullet and harness the inner motivation I know that I have to apply it in a way that I don't need to be in those situations. I'm gonna stop being soft and push myself to go to the gym every single day, no matter how tired or unmotivated I am. I thank you for the words of motivation. Once I show myself that it's not impossible, I hope it'll put me on a much better track.
  24. That's what I really hope to be my man. I want to build up self-control and mindfulness to be able build myself a much better study/homework plan for next year so that I don't have to take meds at all. It started off fine, I've been on them for about four years and didn't really have a problem until I started seeing that I was taking my meds and telling myself I had all this work to do. In reality, the workload wasn't awful and I shouldn't have needed them, but I started to get to a point where my baseline mood and motivation was being on these pills and after that it just became the only thing that could push me to do anything.
  25. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    congrats!!!! something else to get you through the next six months - think about how you felt 6 months ago compared to now. i know its hard while you're going through time, with PAWS coming and going, but when you reach these milestones is a good time to reflect on the larger period of time. 6 months from now will be so much different (:
  26. Started off great, recovery now getting harder

    hey there @clifking you've already got some great advice above, the only thing i'll add is consider how powerful this statement is: i know this to be absolutely true, cause i didn't play videogames for like a year after i quit, and videogames were a BIG part of my life before adderall. isn't that scary as hell? stay far far away from stims.
  27. Day 180 - I’ve been looking forward to this day. Six months clean off of amphetamines... Never thought I’d make it this far. Now I’m in the limelight cause I rhyme tight. (Biggie, anyone?!) I can’t lie. These first six months have been hell on earth, but what is going to take me through the next six months are those little slivers of natural happiness and hope that I experienced a few times. Gotta stay positive....
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