Dia

Missing my skinny feeling

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It's been almost two years since I quit adderall and I'm just feeling like a chub lately- During my 9-10 year abuse- I was always on the thinner side- I think I actually started being thinner before taking adderall from simply chasing around 2 kids under the age of 2, but then Adderall helped to keep me feeling skinny at all times.. I'm about 5'5 and at my lowest weighed 115lbs- (which is actally a little to thin for my bone structure).. Right now I am at 132 and I keep jumping on and off the workout/eating healthy band wagon.. I can't seem to get any lower..

I think quitting adderall and my occasional smoking all at one made me gain about 10lbs (I was about 122lbs- 2 years ago).. If I knew before quitting I was going to gain weight so quickly I would have been much more careful).. I know it's not a lot in the grand scheme of things and I do feel a heck of a LOT better not being completely out of my mind.. I just don't feel good about my body and need a quick solution.. These last few pounds are making me consider (after 2 years of sobriety) Just taking Adderall for even a few weeks to get my weight back down.) nothing I have tried seems to be helping.. any suggestions??

thanks in advance!!

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suggestion: don't take adderall.

what about a healthier attempt? maybe see a trainer at a gym? chart and catalog your calorie intake and try to burn calories doing low impact exercise for long periods of time? There's got to be a bunch of better alternatives to a quick fix, which you know won't last....

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Hi Dia,

Welcome to the forums and congrats on being clean for 2 years! You're an inspiration for us here. I'm only 4 months clean and I come here every day looking for stories of success like yours.

I did what you did - I took adderall for about 2.5 years, came off it for 6 months and gained 20lbs, and thought I'd go back on it "just to lose the weight", which led to a full-on, life-wrecking addiction and within 4 months although I was skinny, I was psychotic (literally) and lost everything (job, health, nearly my marriage). Just to remind you - the weight you lose on adderall you will ALWAYS gain back unless you establish healthy eating, sleeping and workout schedules which will need to ramp up once your metabolism stabilizes, so you will always be yo-yoing on and off adderall forever. Sorry, there are no short cuts.

You might find the attached helpful:

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Thanks so much for the response.. You are right and I know in my heart that's what it's about.. I wouldn't even be able to get my hands on it if I tried, so that's the good thing.. I'm sorry you lost so much as a result of the Adderall beast :( and I truly hope you begin to regain all that you deserve - I know I lost a lot of my about 9 years (on and off) and also almost destroyed my marriage. I think back now to how different I became- yikes - That in itself should be enough to keep me from ever even thinking about relapsing.

I'm a bit of a funk this week to begin with, hence why I have even given thought to taking adderall for a short time- funny because until I read your story above- I thought after being off the chance of becoming addicted would be less, knowing full well in my mind that this is not something that just goes away(addiction doesn't work like that) :) So thanks for reminding me! I just needed to hear it from someone else and your story did help me considerably!

:) Thanks for putting things back into perspective and saving me from myself.. Off to take a run now and get some sun shine, perhaps this will help too! THANK YOU!! :)

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@sky- thanks for your post also- didn't see it until now.. I have tried all of the above.. charting calories on myfitnesspal.. working out.. I just waiver with sticking w/it and just wanted a quick fix temporarily.. I feel like if I had been more aware of the my weight gain prior to quitting, I would have been much better eating and exercising to avoid the gain.. I think my energy level is also a bit on the low side lately and probably due to working ft, running around w/3 girls, etc.. I think my metabolism probably changed when I turned 40 last June and I'm noticing the changes of that too .. Was just really hoping for a natural energy/weight loss supplement and toyed w/the idea of taking adderall temporarily and know that is not a good idea.... :) Thanks

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OMG requiem for a dream straightens me the F up every time!

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Congrats on staying strong and for having the willpower to question yourself when temptation struck. Instant role model just joined the forums, everyone!

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OMG requiem for a dream straightens me the F up every time!

duuude no doubt... crazy powerful and disturbing movie....

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Holy c*** that clip is really disturbing and pinpoints exactly how I felt 2 years ago.. Wow.. Thank you!!

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Sky,

I think that got the point across very well...disturbing. Welcome Dia! 2 years adderall-free. What an accomplishment!

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Hi Dia,

Welcome to the forums and congrats on being clean for 2 years! You're an inspiration for us here. I'm only 4 months clean and I come here every day looking for stories of success like yours.

I did what you did - I took adderall for about 2.5 years, came off it for 6 months and gained 20lbs, and thought I'd go back on it "just to lose the weight", which led to a full-on, life-wrecking addiction and within 4 months although I

was skinny, I was psychotic (literally) and lost everything (job, health, nearly my marriage). Just to remind you - the weight you lose on adderall you will ALWAYS gain back unless you establish healthy eating, sleeping and workout schedules which will need to ramp up once your metabolism stabilizes, so you will always be yo-yoing on and off adderall forever. Sorry, there are no short cuts.

You might find the attached helpful: http://forum.quittin...__+weight +loss

I've never heard your story. Wow, so glad you found your way out! :)

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Ugh. I had an eating disorder for a very long time, and was, at one point, hospitalized. I had to go through a lot to get to the point where I was ok with my weight, but after starting a night job/turning 21, I started drinking almost every day, and gained way too much weight. 

 

I weigh your exact same weight. I'm 22, though, so I cant blame my metabolism, and feel really horrible about how I look now 

 

I knew I was getting fat, but this was a punch in the gut  

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