tessa0412 Posted July 29, 2013 Report Share Posted July 29, 2013 I want to quit I can quit I have great things and supportive people around me yet I still use for stupid no good reasons every clouple weeks . Even with therapy and deep feelings of wanting sobriety.. I must not want enough? Am I a fake? And Than negative talk starts again When wil my actions be with my words I find some adderall randomly I can't say no. I'm no longer searching But hey it's there I take it . Ugh' I'm so mad at myself I've been use in for 5 years and I find myself sober for 20 something days yet I have a dream or a thought and I go for it or I see it on someone and I ask for it or take it. Will ThaT ever go away? Like its in the room and I don't think twice about it? What am I missing out on when it comes to the postive effects of not use of after 30 days? Will the random thoughts and dreams and obsessive thoughts ever end I hate the adderall me Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted July 29, 2013 Report Share Posted July 29, 2013 Keep on keeping on . You are in the worst of it 20 days out. It gets easier but it takes time. You will have a moment of serenity soon that will make it all worth while. Get some exercise & make a delicious meal it will help. Write I love you on your bathroom mirror. FIght,fight, fight don't give up. You will feel amazing soon but when you least expect it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUqLGRMrFAg 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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