JustinW Posted May 6, 2014 Report Share Posted May 6, 2014 You rock FW! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post Shambo Posted May 7, 2014 Popular Post Report Share Posted May 7, 2014 Day 12. Done. Today was rough. My husband flipped the psycho switch & I had his dad come and get him out of the house. As I was vacuuming broken glass my mind started scrambling to find ways to numb. I thought about the scripts at my pharmacy and whether it was the 18th and I daydreamed about eating meds and going back into my head so I wouldn't care about anything..... But it's not May 18th. And I'd rather be alone than married and medicated. It's scary how deep I went into that idea. But whatever. Life happened today. Shit hit the fan. I handled it without numbing. I'm not dead. My heart hurts but I'm not dying. I dealt with major shit tonight without adderall. And I'm ok. I had to vent. You guys are my sounding board. I really need to get out and reconnect with mankind. Or I could call my mom. I'm going to sleep. Hope you're all having a good week so far. Xoooo 7 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jon Posted May 7, 2014 Report Share Posted May 7, 2014 Sorry to learn how difficult day 12 was for you Amy, but you made it through without numbing. I'm proud of you. Keep putting your quit first. I hope things get better for you later this week. Today's test was hard enough. Good work on venting here. It's a safe place to do that. Tomorrow will be a better day. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigBeezy Posted May 7, 2014 Report Share Posted May 7, 2014 Day 10 check in. It has been rough. I've been completely spaced out feeling and have a lot of anxiety knowing that everything is up to me and me alone now vs that medication. It's intimidating. I told my doc no more so I eliminated my supply. I don't have desire to get back on the med 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigBeezy Posted May 7, 2014 Report Share Posted May 7, 2014 It literally feels like the last week has been a month 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 7, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 7, 2014 Day 19: Drug free! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted May 8, 2014 Report Share Posted May 8, 2014 Hang in there BB - you're a third of the way through the challenge!  Glad to see you kicking this thing FW!  How was day 13 Amy? I hope it was better. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted May 8, 2014 Report Share Posted May 8, 2014 Don't Quit Five Minutes Before the Miracle Happens 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 9, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 9, 2014 Day 20: 2/3 Down! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted May 9, 2014 Report Share Posted May 9, 2014 Awesome job Freedom's Wings! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigBeezy Posted May 9, 2014 Report Share Posted May 9, 2014 Day 12, good to go. Work getting easier. Taking 5-HTP at night to help sleep better and to help with anxiety. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shambo Posted May 9, 2014 Report Share Posted May 9, 2014 Day 13,14 & 15- good to go. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 10, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 10, 2014 Day 21: Owned! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigBeezy Posted May 10, 2014 Report Share Posted May 10, 2014 Day 13. First weekend day adderall free and without flu. Today was good. Watched 2 movies at home with the fiancé. Currently enjoying a beer I haven't had in years. I forgot how much I liked beer since mostly over the past few years I had been drinking liquor to help me sleep coming off Badderall days. I noticed that time goes much slower off adderall. It seems like each day lasts longer, which initially was bad. Longer torture. But over the past 2-3 days it has been refreshing. I am proud of all the others ... AmyQ jWings FW that are with me in this challenge:) 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigBeezy Posted May 10, 2014 Report Share Posted May 10, 2014 I meant JW and fWings 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 12, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 12, 2014 Day 22 & 23: Conquered! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigBeezy Posted May 12, 2014 Report Share Posted May 12, 2014 Day 14, green check mark. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted May 12, 2014 Report Share Posted May 12, 2014 mmm...beeeer - I haven't had a beer in a couple of months; been trying to stay alcohol free during school. It's finals week so I may crack one to celebrate this weekend. I'm glad to see that you are pushing through BB and are at the half way point. Congratulations!  FW - It's nice to see you owning the TDC once again! Keep going my friend. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shambo Posted May 13, 2014 Report Share Posted May 13, 2014 Day 16, 17, & 18- still good. I finally got my scripts from the pharmacy. I haven't burnt them or shredded them yet..... My addiction has revved up the scheming.... I'll deal with it. I haven't told anyone that I still have those 2 scripts. I know that's stupid. I have to dig deep before the 18th. I don't want to suffer through this again- knowing my long term supply is cut off helps a lot. Just venting and trying to be somewhat accountable to someone. Have a great week guys. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greg Posted May 13, 2014 Report Share Posted May 13, 2014 Day 16, 17, & 18- still good. I finally got my scripts from the pharmacy. I haven't burnt them or shredded them yet..... My addiction has revved up the scheming.... I'll deal with it. I haven't told anyone that I still have those 2 scripts. I know that's stupid. I have to dig deep before the 18th. I don't want to suffer through this again- knowing my long term supply is cut off helps a lot. Just venting and trying to be somewhat accountable to someone. Have a great week guys. Are these the scripts your doctor asked you to return? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 13, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 13, 2014 Day 24: Touchdown! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigBeezy Posted May 13, 2014 Report Share Posted May 13, 2014 Amy shred those scripts.... You don't need em! Oh and day 15 in the bag. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted May 13, 2014 Report Share Posted May 13, 2014 Half way there BB! Keep going.  How are things treating you FW? 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jaymeyer26 Posted May 13, 2014 Report Share Posted May 13, 2014 Day 26 - still clean and moving forward. Great to see so many folks on here. I need to do better about keeping up. The Wellbutrin has certainly helped keep me from the lowest of lows, but it's still been tough. However, I am feeling good considering everything and look forward to keeping this streak alive!  BB - nice work on making it to the halfway mark! FW - We are on this path right next to each other, very cool!! 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shambo Posted May 14, 2014 Report Share Posted May 14, 2014 @inrecovery yes. Day 19- good Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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