Popular Post Cassie Posted March 11, 2014 Popular Post Report Share Posted March 11, 2014 I'll probably write more later - I just wanted to write down things I'm still struggling with as a residual effect of speed, and things that I feel I'm over now.Things I still struggle with after 2 years clean (that I didn't have problems with before Adderall):- Taking myself too seriously- Taking my job/performance/life in general too seriously - Work in general. I'm just allergic to work/corporate culture.- Rigid thinking (like the above). Thinking in black & white terms, i.e. "I'll never be happy, I'll never have a job I like."- Not being able to have fun or go with the flow.- Sensitive ego, thin skin- Self deprecation. I used to be really self deprecating, it was part of my charm. Now i have trouble with it because i'm so serious and self critical.Things I'm over that I struggled with in the beginning of quitting:- Lack of energy. My energy levels are fine now with just a cup of coffee in the morning.- Lack of desire to exercise. In the beginning, I didn't have any physical energy. Now, I really like to move around and not sit still for a long period of time- Focus. My focus has returned to pre-speed levels.- Self-confidence (mostly). I have much more confidence in my own abilities now. Starting two new jobs post Adderall helped with this.- Cravings. I never crave adderall anymore. 8 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted March 11, 2014 Report Share Posted March 11, 2014 Great post Cassie, I would add that procrastination is and always has been a big problem for me 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted March 11, 2014 Report Share Posted March 11, 2014 Its funny how adderall changes us. Old habits die hard as they say, and those are old habits you picked up on a very powerful drug (I forget for how long you took it....) I think the first step towards changing a habit is to recognize that you do it. Then you can play with approaches to changing it. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted March 12, 2014 Report Share Posted March 12, 2014 Love this post! Things I still struggle with: 1) PROCRASTINATION 2) FOCUS when it comes to tasks I do not enjoy (unless I have my TO DO list in front of me and a plan of attack (a seriously structured plan). Now when it comes to pleasurable activities I can go for HOURS on end - LOVE the hyper focus (OCD) trait for fun stimulating activities 3) Highs and lows (meaning I can have one setback and it can literally crush me if I'm not careful so yes, like Cassie I guess I am still super sensitive at times). However, if I am in a good place I can be bouncing off the walls too. I think I may have bipolar tendencies, but not to the extreme or anything like that. 4) OCD - I need to work on balancing my time better. I get stuck in a rut doing the same activity for way TOO long. For example, being on the internet for 3 hours straight like I am right now when I should've called a friend, cleaned up the kitchen, etc. Things I NO LONGER struggle with: 1) The MENTAL OBSESSION/cravings for Adderall!!!! I just don't think about it anymore. I used to constantly wish I was still on it and how it would fix all my problems and make me happy. Much like the fantasy's we all tell ourselves, "I'll be happy when I get married, when I get thin, when I get pregnant, when I go on vacation, when I buy a house, when I get promoted, when I am successful, when I am rich, on and on and on. Stop the fantasy people! It's just a fantasy. 2) Honestly, I have been clean for so long I don't remember what it was like in the early stages. I am just used to life without it and I am SO THANKFUL I did NOT relapse ever. Hey, where is our one friend, MFA???? Ok, see my add just took over, LOL. Love you guys! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted March 12, 2014 Report Share Posted March 12, 2014 I miss MFA greatly 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cassie Posted March 12, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 12, 2014 Thanks liltex. I added 'no more cravings' to my list. I too am used to life without it. And yeah, what the f happened to mfa? 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted March 12, 2014 Report Share Posted March 12, 2014 Great lists, ladies. Liltex, how long have you been off of adderall now? I've been wondering about MFA for awhile now! Where in the world is she????!!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cat Posted March 12, 2014 Report Share Posted March 12, 2014 Great topic Cassie, I can relate to yours and LilTex's lists. Things I still struggle with: - Procrastination is by far number one - Focusing on boring tasks - Attention to detail (really need to find a balance here, because I used to spend waaaaaaay too much time focusing on details, whereas now I'm just ok with mediocrity) Things I'm grateful to not struggle with anymore: - Low energy - Cravings - Lack of confidence 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted March 13, 2014 Report Share Posted March 13, 2014 i struggle with procrast Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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