Bubbagump99 Posted June 17, 2015 Report Share Posted June 17, 2015 A week ago I took my last pill. this really blows. I knew it was gonna be hard but for f*cks sake, this BLOWS. God, I miss that feeling, that rushðŸ˜ðŸ˜³ and just knowing I'm already gaining weight, that alone makes me want to go back on the pills. How have you guys dealt with the weight/hunger issues since quitting? idk how much longer I can do this😢 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doge Posted June 17, 2015 Report Share Posted June 17, 2015 I think it's super amazing that you have made it this far, first and foremost. Congratulations! You are on the road to a new, brighter, better you!Think hard about why you wanted to quit in the first place. Things will start to look better soon (no, not perfect, but better). As for hunger, I ate plenty.As for weight, I gained plenty. This was not all bad, some of it was muscle mass coming back from finally stimulating and moving my body more again. but also some of it is fat, which I am now dealing with. It's not easy to deal with this but its so much better than my psychotic life on the pills, living from one binge to the next. I am eating healthy and exercise and the weight *is* slowly coming off (VERY slowly it seems). Wedding coming up in 2 months and I need to lose 10 pounds to fit into my suit. As for the rush, I crave it too sometimes, like really badly (but way less often than before). But logically I know I'm remembering it to be way better than it was; our brains have been programmed to remember most vividly that "FIRST rush". But pretty much all the ones that followed just didn't live up to it. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted June 17, 2015 Report Share Posted June 17, 2015 I ate for the first time in years...and I ate a lot. The only thing I wanted to do was sleep and eat. You can do this! Don't quit! You have to get okay with the idea that you are going to gain weight. When you have had the metabolism of a humming bird for so long, it is hard to get used to being a slug. No matter what you do, you can't help but gain the weight. It will happen sooner or later, because the drug doesn't work forever. I had already started to gain while on the meds. I was facing upping my dose or quitting. I chose to quit. Best decision ever! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cassie Posted June 17, 2015 Report Share Posted June 17, 2015 How badly do you want to quit? 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greg Posted June 17, 2015 Report Share Posted June 17, 2015 How badly do you want to quit? ^this 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted June 17, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 17, 2015 Like a 8.5 I kinda gave them up for someone.. To prove a point to them and to be with them.. AND bc I wanted to too. However, they're not in my life anymore so I kinda just don't care anymore.. Feel like this suffering just isn't worth it😥 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doge Posted June 18, 2015 Report Share Posted June 18, 2015 Well beyond the obvious point that you're doing yourself a MASSIVE favor by quitting, this I how I like to think about it. I am also quitting for someone else too, I just don't know who it is yet.I don't want to be alone my whole life, and the person I want to be with (whoever they are) would absolutely not put up with the behavior I was indulging in for that "dark" time. Even if they did put up with it, I would be just a shell of the person I truly can be. And *IF* (and I this is a pretty huge if) I never meet that person. It was still absolutely and totally, indisputably worth it! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted June 18, 2015 Report Share Posted June 18, 2015 You can do this!!!! Don't give up. Please just give it a month, then see how you feel. It does get better, I promise! You are stronger than you think you are. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doge Posted June 18, 2015 Report Share Posted June 18, 2015 One thing I just thought of, regarding weight gain.... Looking back now at some of the decisions and thought processes I made and had during my adderall life I realize are absolutely insane. I can say with conviction that placing a higher importance on not gaining weight than on regaining my true self and life back (and yes, it absolutely was a struggle for me to accept this too!) is one of those thought processes. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted June 19, 2015 Report Share Posted June 19, 2015 you are right, grumpycat. It was my biggest reason for returning to the Adderall time after time. I could quit for a week or two, but the weight creep made me freak out and go to the doc, every time...until one year ago!!! Yay for being a quitter!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted June 19, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 19, 2015 alright ,so i started taking half a pill yesterday and today, and obviously feel so much better. i just can't deal with this weight gain, and also being SO groggy and out of it at work. My work is crazy busy, and my job is pretty important, and do a lot of computer programming stuff.. i can't continue to be THAT out of it... i'm messing up too much stuff. having taken just half a pill, i feel like i've taken a whole one... so with a week cold turkey, i feel like i'm at least somewhere. my husband has the pills somewhere & is controlling them... i'm gonna try & stay at half a pill for a couple weeks, and then taper and so on... i need to start taking all my vitamins and crap now and continue to do it with the half of adderall i take. it's crazy how much a drug can literally control your life!! f*ck balls thank you all for your support & words... this place really helps.. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted June 19, 2015 Report Share Posted June 19, 2015 We have all been there. I quit and went back many, many times. It doesn't make you a bad person, or a failure. When the time is right for you, you will stop relying on it to get through the day. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doge Posted June 19, 2015 Report Share Posted June 19, 2015 If your husband is controlling them then it sounds like a solid plan. If you stay at that dose and don't step up, then none of your cold turkey week will be a waste. If you've never abused adderall, then I think stepping down is a perfectly valid way to have a controlled quit. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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