1 year

[featherdusters 23]

I made it to the 1 year mark! The post acute withdrawal symptoms aren't gone for me. I am having to learn how to control my emotions.

PAWS for me is an emotional roller coaster. If I hadn't been through extensive neuropsych testing and psych evals because of TBI I would think I had a mental disorder. It is a fearful state with little emotional control. It is anxious and slightly psychotic. I've felt like I was a bad person. I have had problems with my ability to reason, pay attention, and remember. I have had dissociation. This is serious stuff! It isn't a cakewalk. 

Here is is what has helped. Bpc-157 and memantine. I added noopept when memantine's anxiolytic and anti-depressive properties started to wear off. I found a a group on reddit called r/nootropics where they experiment with nootropics for every condition under the sun. 

Things have gotten better overall, but it isn't over. I also have brain damage, so that might be part of the equation. 

Reading about other peoples miseries has helped me to know I was on the right track. I thought I would share and maybe help others. 

I wish there was more research on paws. It really makes one feel insane. I'll do my best to spread the word about adderall post withdrawal. 

Oh. Meditation has also been big in my recovery. Sometimes it is my own thoughts that cause misery. Maybe all of the time it is my thoughts that cause misery! 

I can't think of anything else. 

Im sending all of you my compassion and feelings of love. 

Holefully paws goes away sooner rather than later for all of us. 

[Subtracterall 166]

Congrats on making it one year. Here's to many more adderall free years to come. I hope your PAWS goes away completely in this next year. Sounds like you've been through quite enough. I read someplace that we should expect PAWS to take two years.  

 

 

[featherdusters 23]

Thank you!  

It's good to know it can take 2 years. I thought it was going to take a month when I quit. 

 

Well, here's to our recovery. I wish you the best!

[Rachel 41]

Great job, and thank you for sharing your story with us. You give me hope! One year seems so far off for me right now. I have 56 days today...

[Frank B 1,173]

Congrats on a year it's a battle! I sure wish this site could bring back the tickers to me was sort of a badge of honor we all had taken away. 

[bluemoon 343]

I agree Frank. Would love to have our tickers back.

Featherdusters, congrats on one year and I hope you see more improvement in the next year

[featherdusters 23]

Thank you everyone. It gives me a warm fuzzy feeling.

[Emmz12 8]

I'm a half a month away from one year adderall free. Good to know paws will only effect me for one year more and not forever, as it seems like...

[EricP 321]

Congrats on the 1yr anniversary. I am only a quarter of the way to 2... Every day so far has been long especially when trying to function while others completely waisted and slipped away. I have also read in many places this is a 2yr process.