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14 Months!

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Just about to finish my 14th month off of Adderall and I am feeling pretty OK. This has been a brutal journey but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel! I have put on about 30 pounds but I feel healthy compared to Adderall skinny. I am working on taking off the extra pounds now and I will continue to update on that front.

As far as depression and anxiety go, I am definitely much better than I was in those early months (1-9). My depression has lifted dramatically and I really didn't do anything other than take it one day at a time and just survived. Just hang in there, it does get better on it's own, all it takes is time. My anxiety is definitely better but I still find myself worrying about stuff I can't control. I think it's because my motivation is still low so when I think about stuff I have to do, I get anxious. This can be fixed by taking action. I know, easier said than done but when I am anxious about something, I find that taking steps to take care of it helps. Once I finish a task, it feels great! 

I found that at 12 months was when I could definitely feel myself getting much better. Based on experience, I feel like quitting Adderall is very similar to going through a break up. Typically, it takes half as long as the relationship lasted to get over someone. So for me, my relationship with Adderall lasted 5 years so my recovery time will be 2.5 years. I know that sounds crazy long but in a couple of months, I will be halfway through!

My life is opening up ahead of me. I am starting to have hope for the future and I am dealing with the stresses of life by facing things head on. I am writing this post after a very relaxing two week vacation with family so maybe that's why it's so positive but I am hopeful that this is how I will be from now on. We'll see. 

Anyway, I just wanted to update you all and thank you for your support along this horrendous journey. I couldn't have done it without you. 

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Congrats! I remember you from over a year ago when I would check in here daily. Haven't stopped in here in a long time until today. I'm somewhere around the 19 month mark now and completely back to "normal". Keep up the great work!

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9 hours ago, flow3 said:

Congrats! I remember you from over a year ago when I would check in here daily. Haven't stopped in here in a long time until today. I'm somewhere around the 19 month mark now and completely back to "normal". Keep up the great work!

Glad to hear it, flow... I would say I'm just about there... Not totally, but getting there.

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I'm glad to hear you are doing OK.  I started shedding the post quitting pounds after the first year of recovery, too.  I just read your other post about the influences of Adderall on your life and your perspectives.  It is good that you can recognize what Adderall did for you as well as to you.  My addiction experience is a part of whom I am today, and I am a better and wiser person for having that experience behind me.  Thanks for the update.

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I don't look at the solution too any of my problems to be adderall these days. I think once you get to that point u know you've really gotten somewhere. I sort of feel like telling my story to more people but then again the only people who truely understand the fucking struggles are on this site. It's still a taboo subject for the most part anyways we all probably know or suspect people in our own lives who are on it but we all know it's up to that person to choose to stop and having a doctor give u a super human pill is just to great!  That is until your brain fights back and it does nothing but destroy your life and make u a complete addict and many like me started abusing other prescription drugs to get that feeling back it once gave.

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I really needed to hear this. Can't tell you how much I appreciate the hope. Thanks for keeping us posted :)

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