5 Worst Things Adderall Did To You?

[StAnne0822]

What were the 5 worst things adderall did to you, now that you are off and can look back?

Mine (not in order as it all was bad):

1. Paranoia 

2. Manic episodes 

3. Physical issues - shaking, sweating,  stomach problems 

4. Delusional thoughts 

5.  Hurt my family 

[Somewhere]

1. Sleep Deprivation
2. Destruction of all routines, non-work commitments (especially working out and writing)
3. Got me out of shape
4. Health concerns (physical and psychological: stomach/digestive problems, sweating; paranoia, impatience, quick temper)
5. Caused a rift in relationships, social life

After looking over this list, it feels like each symptom was caused or exacerbated by the previous one.

[StAnne0822]

22 minutes ago, Somewhere said:

1. Sleep Deprivation
2. Destruction of all routines, non-work commitments (especially working out and writing)
3. Got me out of shape
4. Health concerns (physical and psychological: stomach/digestive problems, sweating; paranoia, impatience, quick temper)
5. Caused a rift in relationships, social life

After looking over this list, it feels like each symptom was caused or exacerbated by the previous one.

Well said, I was thinking that as well, they all grew with each other making it all worse.  Thanks for sharing!

[LuLamb]

1. Undermined my self-trust

[LuLamb]

2. Made me age more quickly

3. Acted like a gateway drug: pot, alcohol, tobacco...

 

[Tom23Jones]

1. Extreme anxiety/ paranoia

2. Made me a liar and a thief

3. Stole a decade from me of what could have been positive growth 

4. Wrecked my health; sleep, digestive, nutrition, cardio was all trash

5. Wrecked a lot of relationships

[LuLamb]

4. Really caused some damage to me physically: led me to over-do-it physically resulting in herniated disks which cause constant issues with nerve pain all over my right side. The clincher was the time I decided the paved walkway in my backyard needed to be re-done (all by myself, mind you). I spent my weekends going to Home Depot buying 50# bags of crushed granite, huge paving stones, etc. Loading and unloading all of it by myself; digging the long trench the new path required (by myself)...you get the picture. Oh - and the house was a RENTAL and I spent all of my own money, time, and energy doing it and I never even asked the landlord if he minded or whatever...crazy stupid body-breaking adderall-fueled "seemed-like-a-good-idea-at-the-time" projects...

[LuLamb]

5. Led me DEEP into debt. 

[eric]

@LuLamb Your post about the walkway reminded me of myself at times around my old place...and it being a RENTAL made me actually laugh out loud.  This drug is ridiculous... I feel like I've read a few posts on here about people doing crazy renovations or whatever to rentals.  I also know from experience ...lol

[quit-once]

On 4/10/2020 at 0:25 PM, LuLamb said:

Oh - and the house was a RENTAL and I spent all of my own money, time, and energy doing it and I never even asked the landlord if he minded or whatever.

That gave me a good laugh as well.  I certainly moved a lot of big rocks that didn't need to be moved, but at least I owned the rocks and the land and I can still look at them and shake my head.  I grew more gray hair in a short amount of time on adderall as well.  After quitting, the gray hair turned back to brown for a few more years.  I feel really lucky that I slithered out of that addiction without any significant long term health problems, despite plenty of side effects while using the shit.

[dolssa]

1. made me a zombie (could not feel any emotions)

2. isolated me from everyone. no close meaningful friendships. i only cared about my pill bottle, i literally had feelings for it

3. no personal growth, because adderall makes you only successful in your head so I spent 5 years in an adderall rollercoster not getting anywhere

4. MIND RACING A MILLION MILES A FUCKING MINUTE 

5. deep sleep? don't know her

[StAnne0822]

1 hour ago, quit-once said:

I feel really lucky that I slithered out of that addiction without any significant long term health problems, despite plenty of side effects while using the shit.

What type of side effects?

[Mark S]

Gave me so much anxiety I would have panic attacks and was afraid to talk to people or be around people. Every family.

2 self isolation. No one could understand why I chose to stay in my room all the time. It distance me from my kids and family when they needed me. I still have lots of regret on this one

3 financial ruin. I couldn’t work for a year because of anxiety issues. This is especially painful because I’m 55 

4 depression for having altered my brain so much. I that I lost so much.

5 lots of physical health decline. Age faster teeth decay BP issues facial tics I would unconsciously rapidly move my tongue back and forth . People would laugh it was so humiliating and embarrassing 

[LuLamb]

11 hours ago, quit-once said:

That gave me a good laugh as well.  I certainly moved a lot of big rocks that didn't need to be moved, but at least I owned the rocks and the land and I can still look at them and shake my head.  I grew more gray hair in a short amount of time on adderall as well.  After quitting, the gray hair turned back to brown for a few more years.  I feel really lucky that I slithered out of that addiction without any significant long term health problems, despite plenty of side effects while using the shit.

I don’t live in that house anymore, but I’ve actually looked at GoogleEarth pics Before to see that pathway I made so I can laugh and shake my head about, lol.

 

[quit-once]

17 hours ago, StAnne0822 said:

What type of side effects?

Just these:

 

[StAnne0822]

55 minutes ago, quit-once said:

Just these:

 

I was told I was similar to an alcoholic by my counseling. 

[m34]

1) skin problems to the max, embarrassing 

2)anxiety and jealous tendencies in relationships 

3) tense muscles constantly

4) being held back because I would rely on the drug to “push” and motivate my projects. When I was out my life was on hold until I could get more 

5) financial issues from instant gratification spending of all types.

[Civilengr2020]

Hurt a lot of women/past relationships 

gave me an “addictive” personality; Illegal drugs, alcohol, porn, risky behaviors

killed my spiritual life

Indifferent towards family and friends 

Converted me into a scumbag version of my true self 

 

 

[DelaneyJuliette]

On 4/10/2020 at 2:25 PM, LuLamb said:

4. Really caused some damage to me physically: led me to over-do-it physically resulting in herniated disks which cause constant issues with nerve pain all over my right side. The clincher was the time I decided the paved walkway in my backyard needed to be re-done (all by myself, mind you). I spent my weekends going to Home Depot buying 50# bags of crushed granite, huge paving stones, etc. Loading and unloading all of it by myself; digging the long trench the new path required (by myself)...you get the picture. Oh - and the house was a RENTAL and I spent all of my own money, time, and energy doing it and I never even asked the landlord if he minded or whatever...crazy stupid body-breaking adderall-fueled "seemed-like-a-good-idea-at-the-time" projects...

omg i so relate.

[DelaneyJuliette]

1. Takes time away from my family

2. Causes me to stay at work til all hours of the night doing things that don't really matter but I am convinced that they do. 

3. I have spent so much money on people to help me "organize" when all I end up doing is moving shit around that I already don't need and then go by more on an adderall fueled frenzy. 

4. Waaay over-commit and then have to take more to actually get thru the committments... I don't have time for down time or reading or watching movies. 

5. No intimacy with my husband - literally, sex annoys me b/c I could be "doing something productive"

6. Less confidence in myself when not on it. 

7. Never ending cycle of awful. 

[StAnne0822]

10 hours ago, Civilengr2020 said:

Hurt a lot of women/past relationships 

gave me an “addictive” personality; Illegal drugs, alcohol, porn, risky behaviors

killed my spiritual life

Indifferent towards family and friends 

Converted me into a scumbag version of my true self 

 

 

Thank you for sharing! 

On 4/12/2020 at 6:00 PM, quit-once said:

Just these:

 

I was told I was similar to an alcoholic by my counseling. 

[StAnne0822]

9 hours ago, DelaneyJuliette said:

1. Takes time away from my family

2. Causes me to stay at work til all hours of the night doing things that don't really matter but I am convinced that they do. 

3. I have spent so much money on people to help me "organize" when all I end up doing is moving shit around that I already don't need and then go by more on an adderall fueled frenzy. 

4. Waaay over-commit and then have to take more to actually get thru the committments... I don't have time for down time or reading or watching movies. 

5. No intimacy with my husband - literally, sex annoys me b/c I could be "doing something productive"

6. Less confidence in myself when not on it. 

7. Never ending cycle of awful. 

Thank you for sharing!

[StAnne0822]

9 hours ago, DelaneyJuliette said:

1. Takes time away from my family

2. Causes me to stay at work til all hours of the night doing things that don't really matter but I am convinced that they do. 

3. I have spent so much money on people to help me "organize" when all I end up doing is moving shit around that I already don't need and then go by more on an adderall fueled frenzy. 

4. Waaay over-commit and then have to take more to actually get thru the committments... I don't have time for down time or reading or watching movies. 

5. No intimacy with my husband - literally, sex annoys me b/c I could be "doing something productive"

6. Less confidence in myself when not on it. 

7. Never ending cycle of awful. 

Thank you for sharing!

[LuLamb]

I’m realizing increasingly that my marriage never stood a chance while I was on Adderall. 

[DelaneyJuliette]

I often get angry at my husband and find that i choose to use and then blame my choice (in my head) on him being an asshole.  But the truth is, that just further fuels the negative cycle.