dolssa Posted August 7, 2020 Report Share Posted August 7, 2020 I am almost at 9 months clean. a year ago i could not imagine what it would be like to say i have gone a majority of 9 month without adderall. I wont lie i slipped and took 5 mg around 6 months and again around 7 months. It was such a small dose I didn't feel anything and didn't have much negative affect so I still consider myself 9 months clean. I seem to always want to slip around my quit date which is NOV 11. So its not a surprise I'm here coming up on 9 months. My thoughts have not been good. I want to feel more. I want that rush. I want that motivation. I want that little pill of confidence. I am drowning in depression. Its wild that a solution is just a pill away and I could have the energy to live life. I know it is not sustainable but man I wish it was. I made an appointment to try wellbutrin, I know some people on here have had some success with that. I don't really have a point to this. I just keep waiting and waiting to feel like myself again and i feel like all the positive times i look back in my life i was on adderall. I am going to keep going because 9 months is a long time to give up now. I just really hope the antidepressant works because if not I will go back to this 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TwiceInABlueMoon Posted August 8, 2020 Report Share Posted August 8, 2020 What other anti-depressants have you tried? I know its SO frustrating finding the right med. But, you WILL. I liked to journal my days when starting a med. My mood, motivation, etc. This helps you physically see if there is positive change from the medication. It takes a month to really take any sort of affect but i believe you can find what will work for you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DrewK15 Posted August 9, 2020 Report Share Posted August 9, 2020 @dolssa I think trying something like Wellbutrin is a good idea at 9 months if you’re still struggling with depression. I did the first 7 months med free and then went on Lamictal at 7 months (I have really mild bipolar) It was a turning point for me. It stopped my dark and suicidal thoughts which took a lot of psychological stress off of me and allowed me to move forward in recovery. I plan on getting off of it within the next couple years, but I don’t see any point right now because I don’t experience any side effects. My point is, don’t feel any shame for needing some help right now. Be careful and weigh the risks of whatever is prescribed. Wellbutrin is a good and relatively risk free thing to try. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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