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Favorite things about being adderall-free!

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I can get ready to go out in a normal amount of time.. (I was always late and took hours to get ready, fixating on an aspect of my outfit or my hair or YouTube videos, whatever etc.)

 

OMG this one I can so relate to: before adderrall I was always very punctual; ready ahead of time.  Now like you said the slightest thing will distract me when I'm getting ready.  I can't tell you how many trips I've taken where I'm literally packing as the cab is waiting and things are thrown all over the place ugggh - hate that part. suffice it to say trips are torture for me.

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One of my absolute favorite things about being adderall free is not having the god awful depression that came when the adderall wore off. Another favorite thing is not having to be in a coma like sleep for days on end when I ran out of my prescription early. Emotional instability is a byproduct of addiction. I love feeling stable.

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One of my absolute favorite things about being adderall free is not having the god awful depression that came when the adderall wore off. Another favorite thing is not having to be in a coma like sleep for days on end when I ran out of my prescription early. Emotional instability is a byproduct of addiction. I love feeling stable.

I never realized how detrimental taking adderall (and also nicotine & sugar) was for my depression until after quitting.  I thought it helped but the ups and downs of binge using actually made my depression worse than it needed to be.  I too love the emotional and mental stability that comes with an addiction-free lifestyle.  I love having a body and a mind I can depend on.

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hey ya'll, haven't come around here in a while.... found my old login written down on some papers while prepping for taxes, thought I'd come by and say Hi :)

It's been great, getting out from under the adderall cozy wing of terror that eventually brought us all here... It is in no way a big deal in my life anymore. I do things all the time adderall free, and don't miss it, craving it, think it'd be better if I just had some adderall... in fact now I've gone full circle and think I'm much better off without it, that all it did was make the things I'd do worse or tainted or soulfree or rushed.... for those of you struggling, know that if you keep on keeping on- it'll get better. Not perfect of course, but at least not that self imposed disEase of adderall dependence or addiction added to the mix.

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Hey Sky!

Thanks for stopping by.  Glad to hear you are "keeping on" and you have progressed through your recovery.  I remember you journey very well and you wrote a lot of good posts during that winter when you were bouncing back from your Adderall days.

Did you manage to kick the cigs for good?

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haha weeeelllll let's just say I went to vegas there for a few nites of excess.... one nice thing is that I am not actively berating myself for slipping on anything, I'm doing good and remaining healthy, and feel no guilt... so no, lol, vegas...

 

these days the only thing I'm kicking is fapping... been a couple weeks free now and it makes a hell of a difference... since it's sort of new I still struggle a little bit but haven't relapsed :)  the trifecta of my personal "limitors" were smoking cigs, smoking too much weed, and porn... not watching porn or fapping or orgasming has been beneficial I think....

 

How are you doing quit-once? I miss all you guys who I used to "know" on these boards back then... I hope everyone's doing great!

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I'm only on Day 1 of being adderall-free but as of now I can immediately say COFFEE!

 

I genuinely enjoy a good cup of coffee in the morning but stopped drinking it because its acidity interfered with the effectiveness of my adderall. So today when I woke up and started to think about adderall I got myself excited about a good old fashioned cup o' joe, and now I realize how much I've missed it!

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Only on day 2 but how about better breath? I've always taken care of my teeth (braces for 3 years, so a hefty investment on my parents' part) but no matter how much I brushed or used listerine it was never the same as days I wasn't taking adderall. I didn't usually notice myself, but my bf was always brutally honest with me! What even causes that? The cotton-mouth? I really hope I'm not the only one who has experienced this. That would be embarrassing haha...

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Only on day 2 but how about better breath? I've always taken care of my teeth (braces for 3 years, so a hefty investment on my parents' part) but no matter how much I brushed or used listerine it was never the same as days I wasn't taking adderall. I didn't usually notice myself, but my bf was always brutally honest with me! What even causes that? The cotton-mouth? I really hope I'm not the only one who has experienced this. That would be embarrassing haha...

Check out this thread agm on side effects http://forum.quittingadderall.com/topic/1764-has-adderall-affected-your-physical-health/  how many do you have? 

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Loved reading through this thread and relating to others who had issues with punctuality and sociability. In the early stages of using amphetamines, I felt like superwoman and took on a ton of activities besides work and school. I spread myself way too thin and half-assed my participation in (and passion for) everything. Ironically, I felt like I owned the world, but the foundations of my normal behavior, like always being punctual, slipped away.

I always thought I'd feel defeated not being able to "do it all," all the time. Instead, I'm thankful for the self-knowledge that I am easily overwhelmed and need to ruthlessly prioritize how I spend my time (or else I'll become paralyzed and do nothing),

Also ironic how many of us felt like antisocial zombies after some time on amphetamines. I, for one, loved the newfound talkativeness and outgoing personality I had when I first started. How quickly that fades and turns into quite the opposite. Same thing with sleep; at first you feel invincible requiring less sleep than is healthy. Then it catches up to you and backfires.

Worth noting these here so I don't selectively remember the honeymoon phase and forget the god-awful rest.

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Expanding on my previous post ... being SOCIAL is my favorite thing about being Adderall-free. I'm making a point to lay low and take care of myself on the weekends instead of going out with friends. I can't wear myself out if I'm going to make recovery a priority. But small everyday social interactions are making me realize how great it is to be 18 days clean.

 

I felt bad because a new younger guy started working in my office. A friend introduced us, yet I never talked to him because I was glued to my desk staring at my screen every time he walked by. I barely had the politeness to force out a "hey, how are you?" to him. Today we had a whole conversation that ended with him saying we should get lunch. 

 

What if I was on Adderall today? I would've been too busy to get up and get coffee and, god forbid, run into someone and talk to them. If I HAD stood up to get coffee, I would've zipped over, nodded hi to him, maybe mumbled "what's up?," stared down at my cup filling up, hastily thrown in some Splenda, and zipped right back to my desk to play with my Very Important Spreadsheets. 

 

Jeez. 

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-Sleep

-Not caring enough to be stressed out

-WAY more creative

-Sleep

-Less planning, more action

-Feelings

-Squirels

-Able to play video games for fun and not have them feel like a "to-do" list

-Carrying a human conversation

-Sleep

-Sleep

-Did I mention sleep yet?

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Expanding on my previous post ... being SOCIAL is my favorite thing about being Adderall-free. I'm making a point to lay low and take care of myself on the weekends instead of going out with friends. I can't wear myself out if I'm going to make recovery a priority. But small everyday social interactions are making me realize how great it is to be 18 days clean.

 

I felt bad because a new younger guy started working in my office. A friend introduced us, yet I never talked to him because I was glued to my desk staring at my screen every time he walked by. I barely had the politeness to force out a "hey, how are you?" to him. Today we had a whole conversation that ended with him saying we should get lunch. 

 

What if I was on Adderall today? I would've been too busy to get up and get coffee and, god forbid, run into someone and talk to them. If I HAD stood up to get coffee, I would've zipped over, nodded hi to him, maybe mumbled "what's up?," stared down at my cup filling up, hastily thrown in some Splenda, and zipped right back to my desk to play with my Very Important Spreadsheets. 

 

Jeez. 

Wow you sound so much like me, every post of your is so relatable.  I had to laugh at the similarities of not caring to talk to anyone at work or look them in the eye.

 

That's so me, it's like I have 0 interest in what anyone has to say unless it relates to me lol

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Wow you sound so much like me, every post of your is so relatable.  I had to laugh at the similarities of not caring to talk to anyone at work or look them in the eye.

 

That's so me, it's like I have 0 interest in what anyone has to say unless it relates to me lol

I notice that people interact with me differently too when I'm off adderall. I probably come across as way too intense when on it.

I think it's important in the early days of recovery to remind yourself of the antisocial zombieness. It's hard because you feel so depressed and tired that you wonder if you'll ever have energy again, let alone worrying about being social. But like I said, the small social interactions make a difference and remind you what it's like to be "normal" again.

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I notice that people interact with me differently too when I'm off adderall. I probably come across as way too intense when on it.

I think it's important in the early days of recovery to remind yourself of the antisocial zombieness. It's hard because you feel so depressed and tired that you wonder if you'll ever have energy again, let alone worrying about being social. But like I said, the small social interactions make a difference and remind you what it's like to be "normal" again.

Ah, to be normal again...

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Ah, to be normal again...

 

or at least not question your interactions with people. 

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I notice that people interact with me differently too when I'm off adderall. I probably come across as way too intense when on it.

I think it's important in the early days of recovery to remind yourself of the antisocial zombieness. It's hard because you feel so depressed and tired that you wonder if you'll ever have energy again, let alone worrying about being social. But like I said, the small social interactions make a difference and remind you what it's like to be "normal" again.

 

Maybe it's your perception that they're acting different, since they don't know you're on it. 

 

But I understand, interacting is so hard.  I lost my boyfriend over this 2 years ago because I started it.  I haven't had any real boyfriends, no connections since.  Sometimes I'm so numb I don't care, but oh boy when the addy's are out of my system late at night, I'm an emotional wreck.

 

Now I'm more proactive in following up with people who I'm interested in as dates.  Adderrall makes me so self absorbed that my attitude is I'm such a great catch and "if they want me they'll try harder or pursue me or call me.etc...".....obviously this approach isn't working lol

 

But the double edge sword is when I do find someone I like, I get way too intense with them too fast & scare them off with my horrible mood swings/outbursts lol

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MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC...

I would ride around in my car just smoking cigarettes in silence... I'm 3 days clean and realizing how much I missed music. Actually FEELING music.

Anyone else sort of disregard music on adderall? That emotionless end of the spectrum didn't allow me to REALLY enjoy anything. Had a really tough day today and music helps so much. At least for me...

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pretty much the only thing I listened to on Adderall was dubstep or shitty trance I would use it to create excel spreadsheets and shit. 

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Hahaha I'm back to my punk rock and loving it! 4 days clean today. Best day so far (yesterday was horrible). Cooking dinner for my girlfriend tonight. Actually excited for food too!

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My favorite

Having legitimate feelings not fake addy ones

Normal heart beat someone else mentioned, I like that.

I can play guitar again. I used to write funny songs it all went away on addy.

Knowing that I will live longer without it. I felt like I was racing to the end of my life on it.

My true passions.

I now value my friendships and family.

Not stressed out.

Finished my mulch job finally

Not having people call me weird or crazy all the time. ( I hated that and addy made me not care)

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Buying new clothes...two sizes larger than three months ago.  NOT REALLY!!  LOL, but  I am loving food right now.  I want food all of the time and it tastes so good.  I am not sure if that is really a good thing, but i am obviously enjoying the hell out of it! 

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pretty much the only thing I listened to on Adderall was dubstep or shitty trance I would use it to create excel spreadsheets and shit. 

 

ya the synthetic stuff was more compatible with speed, not so much guitars

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