back2life

My husband would describe me as " you weren't really there" when on adderall. Its as sad as it is ironic, I used to put sex with him on my mile-long to-do list. Now, it is more natural and enjoyable for sure. ; )

I can so relate... I used to think adderall made me more productive and financially secure... LIE LIE LIE This is what my addiction wanted me to believe In reality I was spending way above my means, had two eviction notices, had my car towed for unpaid parking tickets. I was a wreck financially, emotionally, physically. My work assignments were always turned in late because I hyper focused on stupid details no one really cared about anyway. Now, at 9 months off adderall, I finally have my finances under control. I always thought that my boss would notice that I am not being as thorough as before, instead I was told that I've been more consistent and "focused" during 2015 than ever before. Quitting is hard in the beginning but it is truly rewarding

great job on 18 months clean! your boss is an idiot. btw, how did he react when you told him about adderall? (I changed my name from just1more5mg to back2life) the old name no longer defines me

I quit 9 months ago, gained around 15 lbs, maybe 20. now I am noticing that my appetite has decreased and resemble one of a normal person (comparing to friends and family). I lost about 10 lbs without trying, so I guess my body is also balancing itself out.

Great job on quitting everything!

Doge, my friend, this is so true, the puppet-like feeling was horrifying, I never tried to put it into words, just remember crying my eyes out thinking: "this is it, I just cant turn the switch off anymore, I'm done". I hope damage to your back isnt as severe as you now think. remember, our bodies regenerated in so many ways already. love

physical symptoms: OMG ACNE!!!!!!! horrible Wrinkles ( at 23-24 years old) skin-paper thin Back pain, pain around my neck, shoulder blames, fever, migraine DRY mouth couldnt breath at times couldnt swallow felt like I was about to die cold sweats all the time cold, numb fingers and toes and more, much more thinking back, WHY WOULD I, or anyone, ever continue on this horrible drug, and yet........ I miss it, I miss the good times, but then I'm beginning to doubt............ Were they really there or is the drug wants me to believe they were.....

Thank you guys, I was thinking a lot about what you said. I am beginning to realize I am indeed "trading seats on the Titanic" as they say in AA. I actually went to few AA meetings over the past couple of days, I am not sure if I am strong enough to moderate with wine yet.

Hi, I'm starting this thread to share some of my experiences with quitting and running into problems with alcohol, I would love to hear your experiences and/or advice. I quit adderall cold turkey in March 2015. I was using mostly as prescribed, my dosage was 5 mg 3 times a day, at times I would take one extra for a total for 20 mg a day. The day I quit I felt no different than when on it, but I began to really feel the difference by the end of the week, I couldnt focus, was jittery, irritable, on edge, couldnt do any writing or reading, this continued for about 2 months. Around the 2 months mark I began self-medicating with white wine. I now drink daily, about 2-3 glasses. I am beginning to realize that alcohol may be a bigger problem than Adderall. I have ABSOLUTELY NO desire to ever go back to adderall, but I dont know how to manage without my daily wine intake.

Hi Greg, Havent read any updates. How are you? Hope you are finding peace with yourself and your demanding job.

Hi, You can do it. I once told myself I could never quit because I believed my world would fall apart if I did. and then it DIDNT, I felt stronger and healthier everyday, I am 6 months clean so I still have a long journey ahead of me. Please visit this site often; it really helps to connect with others who can relate to you. Good LUCK

awwwww, clean home, how I miss the feeling of getting it done I just realized that before adderall I absolutely loved to clean and organize, and then............, of course, it became a compulsion, now I just cant get myself to do anything really I feel robbed

6 months clean as of 9/21. I havent visited this site after about 3 months mark, recovery became much easier after that point. I am so every grateful for the support and encouragement I received in the beginning of my journey

So happy for you, congrats on 51 days!

Your words, bring tears to my eyes, Thank you! Love

Today I am 2 months clean, the longest 2 months of my life. My heart goes out to everyone who's ever attempted/succeeded at staying off this or other ahdh drugs

Losing weight was definitely an attraction for me too. I love how you said you couldn't even enjoy your "perfect beach body" I felt the same way. Part of me always felt like it wasn't sustainable

Hi, First of all,I wanna say thank you, and I love all of you!!! second, I wanted to share my own and hear other's experiences of how it began for them, what were the initial triggers, reasoning, etc.... It was 5 LONG years ago and I fell in love for the first time with a man who was very successful ( or so I thought) and goal oriented. I at time I was very much " be bold, be yourself";....... but by being myself I never felt like I was enough for him. I needed to be thinner, prettier, funnier, sexier, the list goes on and on. and so a friend told me about this ADHD-Adderall drug that would make me be all I ever wanted to be. I went to a psychiatrist; and since I was 19 and in college got prescribed 10 mg/day. I love it at first, well you know how it goes, and then it turned on me. I am sure my story isn't the most profound or meaningful, BUT, now looking back, my insecurities fueled my use/misuse/abuse...... what was it for you?

That's good to know. Thank you. I'm always amazed at how much research is done on every substance/food other than the pharmaceuticals. In 5 year that I was using/misusing/abusing adderall the most I ever came across is - dehydration, dry mouth, and diarrhea....... And other minor side effects. I am gonna continue with the tea for a little while, it seems to work for me, but I won't make it a long term thing. Thank you for your advice, Xoxo

I've tried quitting every months for the past 6 months. I only made it to 7-10 days at most and them ran back to my doctor to yet ask for another script. I always thought I would be stronger and do better and be in a better place next month............but it never happened. I guess the longer I waited the harder it became to finally quit for good. Beautiful Disaster, I hope we will make it this time, we are stronger than the pill. Love XOXO Keep in touch

I'm sitting here drinking my second cup of Yerba Mate Tea. and...... OMG I wish I've tried it before Adderall, it's got all the qualities of Adderall that I loved= ENERGY, FOCUS, even Euphoria, no kidding!!!! LOVE IT

thank you, I am so blessed to have found such support from you guys!!!

hi, please don't beat up on yourself. I would've taken it too if it was offered to me. As far as constipation, I believe its mainly due to the fact that when on Adderall, most people ( I know I did for sure) drink tons of water/liquids. Once I quit I didn't feel like I needed to drink as much since I was no longer constantly thirsty, so naturally elimination process slows down. Hope it helps somewhat. I am thinking of you

THANK YOU GUYS, I MEAN REALLY THANK YOU! Yours comments are so inspiring. I don't really have anyone whom I could talk to. Its only this site for me, for now.... I hope at some point it will change. I am not caving, part of the reason is I told my psychiatrist that I was moving to another state, I have no other way of getting it otherwise.

I don't know what's going on. I was doing so well before, getting stronger, more confident, more energetic, ............ AND THEN, out of nowhere, I began to get those intense cravings, INTENSE!!! I know its still very early in my recovery but I am just very insecure now about how and IF I will ever get past it. Has anyone ever experienced something like this at about 2 months off this drug?