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I'm glad someone responded to this. I think usually when I experience this is when I'm either hungover, sleep deprived, or really stressed and anxious. It happens from time to time but I usually can stop it when it stats. It can be a really weird "cool" feeling at times but other times you don't know if what is happening is real or not. But yeah I also think it is my brain getting back to normal sleep without being under the influence of a substance of anything too. There are many of websites or stories on the Internet that explain in detail better!

Thanks for the reply. Yeah I am fine at work and stuff but the loneliness at home and not being motivated is what is getting me. But I understand that this is process and my life will not be normal just like that let alone "normal" ever because life is what you make it. Take care

It will be normal for pharmacy techs to do that. I remember getting soooo happy when I had my script in my hand and taking it to the pharmacy. My body would know it too and I would have to put up a front in front of the pharmacist to act like I wasnt craving my meds like a freaking Meth head! When I was in the process of quitting I would start feeling ashamed of getting that stuff filled. But I will say not all pharmacists are knowledgeable that they care and that goes for doctors as well. AND doctors and pharmacists can get addicted to the stuff just as much as ordinary people do. They know the good stuff and how to control it though, and like the previous posts stated this site is for quitting stumulants!

Day 12 over with....just dealing with depression and anger. Hope it goes away. Take care everyone

This is kinda off the wall stuff but I've always noticed when I quit that I experience sleep paralysis of some sort. I've experienced this before even when not quitting but it gets worse right after I quit. It can get pretty scary at times and could tell some crazy experiences about the times I've had it. Just wanted to know if anyone else experienced this in their life.

It wasn't the same doctor. When I was taking adderall I did switch doctors and got back on it at one time. I was thinking to myself how can they not check my old documents from my previous place and just go with my word. But eventually I switched to vyvanse. Day 5 now free and last night was a nightmare literally. I went to bed super early and woke up at 8pm. Ate something and went back to bed. Well I started having sleep paralysis last night. Ive had this many of times before so I'm kinda probed to it but it happened during a really bad thunder storm which made it 10 times scarier because I couldn't move and the thunder was horrible along with demon like dreams. I just prayed but I know its just my brain repairing its self. I also noticed that all my problems in my life start appearing slowly in my head. Its like vyvanse masked my problems and now they are reappearing. I feel alright physically but mentally I am really depressed and lathargic right now. I feel like I have no hope or future at the moment. I feel trapped and really dull and boring but I have no intentions on going back on any substance ever again at least not vyvanse. I want to heal myself once and for all this time and my soul is telling me to really quit. I do feel my personality coming back which is great but I'm at that stage where its hard for me to talk and get words out. I'm on my way though. I'm in bed now and its 7pm and I have to get up at 1am for work tomorrow for a 12 hour shift. I haven't worked a 12 hour shift in months and of course they schedule me one the first week after quitting 😕..oh well I got this....I'll check back soon and write where I'm at in about a week. Much love

I am not embarrassed or scared to go to my doctor and get off anything. I did that when I was hooked on Adderall. I was really HOOKED on that stuff and I told my doctor crying that I needed off it and he did. Vyvanse is nowhere near as bad affecting my life but yes It is already in my plan to go to my doctor to get off it. I am not scared to do that or am being weak. Ill check back in a few weeks when time has passed and let you know how I am doing.

To everyone out there I have been on this site for about a month now and I have quit taking my Vyvanse for two weeks at a time and have always talked myself into that Vyvanse works for me and is not as bad as Adderall. Well just because it is not as bad as Adderall was for me that is not a legit reason to take some kind of pill that Still eats your soul and doesn't make you feel like yourself. So as of Today July 31st 2015 I have flushed my pills and this is going to begin my sober journey from these pills once and for all. I have sooooo much knowledge on these drugs that I know I can do it and I feel for the past 5 years of Adderall and 2 on vyvanse I feel deep down this is the thing that is holding me back and masking the true self I have been searching for since I was 20 years old. I stated in my first post on here that I had to quit drinking alcohol for 7 months due to getting a second DUI. Yes quitting alcohol changed my life tremendously but during those times of being lonely and on house arrest you know what got me by? Vyvanse. Did it help me get by those times it sure as hell did but I will tell you this once I got off house arrest and was free to do what I want and still being on Vyvanse I still have those "lost soul" feelings and it is not getting me forward on trying to find myself. This is it!! Just get me to 60 days and I will be well on my way. Its going to be hard and I know this. If I have that depressing feeling of lonliness and lost in the world SO BE IT. If I come home from work depressed not being able to do anything SO BE IT. I got to get through those tough times and I know I can beat this. I will try and keep everyone updated but sometimes after I quit its hard for me to express how I feeling or have a desire to at that. Im so excited to get my life back this time. I don't care if I start feeling better after 2 weeks and think to myself this is a piece of cake and I think I should be on them and it wont hurt me. NO! this time I am refusing my script refill and If I get any inclination of thinking about going back on them I am coming on this site and with all you guys help to steer me away from getting back on them. MUCH LOVE EVERYONE

Couldn't agree more psychgirl617. Even though Vyvanse for some (like myself) doesn't feel as addictive as Adderall it really is addictive and I know that, They really are all the same but with different side affects that trick you into believing that hey Maybe this one is better for me because it doesn't make me feel as bad but in reality it is still defeating the purpose and will do the same thing the Adderall did. One day at a time, One slip at a time, but eventually I will kick this I know deep down I will.

Great posts guys...Yeah it is absolutely crazy that this drug should even be on the market in my mind. All of us on this site wouldn't be happier if they just straight up banned these stimulants all together. I know I wouldn't. It is crazy to fathom that at a young age children can be prescribed these. It really does blow my mind and with me I never started taking Adderall until I was 21 and made it all throughout high school. Maybe if I did take them I would have kicked the habit sooner but who knows. I just want them out of my life for good even though I have kicked my Adderall addiction for 3 or 4 years now I still take Vyvanse 20-40mg daily but I want to end this also. I want to be ME only and even though Vyvanse didn't affect me negatively has the Adderall did I know it eventually will and is already taking its toll on me. Thank the man upstairs that I conqured Adderall because I know now that I will eventually beat the Vyvanse. Being bored without a license is what is holding me back now and being a lone a lot. UGH but this site is helping me tremendously and I will continue to research all the time until I have fully kicked the drug. Take Care

Running outside has cured a lot of things for me. Multivitamin, fish oil, vitamin D are good. Going to get on L-tyrosine too soon. I was more of a caffeine junkie while I was on stimulants because I enjoyed the lasting effect more but when I am not on it I feel too jittery. Weird right but that's how my mind and body works. But if I do want some caffeine I drink the white monster sugar free drinks or black coffee that isn't that strong.

JustinW, I am going to look into reading some scriptures of Nehemiah. Good luck a long your journey and thanks for responding. I try to check into this site often to keep me reminded of the terrible stuff that we all went through so that its always fresh in my mind. MUCH LOVE

Virginia that was a very powerful read and everyone is different in our own way with addiction but we are all so a like. Keep your head up and like me time and patience a long with relapses bug me to pieces but what I read today doing some spiritual research I read that its the SIN inside us that make us do bad things but its the HOLY SPIRIT inside us that we have the power to realize we are doing wrong and need to change for the better and that is a very humbling theriputic feeling that we are always going to sin BUT we have a HIGHER GOD that we can turn to to get us through the troubles in our lives. MUCH LOVE and hang in there!

This is some powerful stuff I cam across and not everyone here is religious and may believe in different beliefs but I found this excerpt and research to very therapeutic to myself and I just wanted to share this with you guys So I have been doing a lot of research and trying to get my spiritual faith stronger and clearer in my EVERYDAY LIFE. As everyone here wants help with addiction and to be stronger and our own self again I think all of us have made tremendous progress already and that is we realize we are doing something wrong. Take a look at this excerpt from Romans. Romans 19 states: "For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do--This I keep doing". This is powerful in a simple quote. This is me in a nutshell. A train wreck, a sinner, a wretch but the good news is that we realize that the GOOD we want to do, we are NOT doing. We all understand that what we are doing with our addictions (any addictions for that being said) We understand that it is wrong. That's the famous first step ADMITTING we have a problem right. This is strong evidence that the HOLY SPIRIT in my eyes or the love we have in each one of us is coming out. A person without the Holy Spirit will not know this and will not recognize the evil things they are doing. So basically we are all awesome and everyone is here is making progress already. I am a Christian and have accepted Jesus into my heart and I know he has gotten me through soo many things but there will always be that word SIN in us. Verse 20 states: "Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is SIN living within me." Basically this means that it is SIN that is interfering with my bad choices and we need to cut our selves some slack. There is a lot more to this reading but It would take forever to type it all out because my Back is hurting and I need to get up and move around HAHA but If you ever get a chance and want some guidance the book of Romans 7: 15-24 is a really good read. Much LOVE

Nouedis, Hey I just want to say thanks for taking the time to reply. What caught my eye in reading YOUR reply was "I believe you have it in you to deal with this on your own". Just by you saying that little line I felt a sense of peace. See right now am my life it is very lonely or maybe the vyvanse is making it even lonelier then it has to be but with no driving license and no significant other it is hard but in reality its because I make it hard and it doesn't have to be as bad as I make it out to be. But back to that line you stated that you reassured me that I CAN DO IT. See I am the type of person who needs reassurance in my life because I am lost and I think growing up with a divorced family I always want the loving aspect of someone and encouragement from someone to push me. Yes I have a loving family and friends BUT rarely do I get reassured that I am going to make it or I am a strong person and that effects me. I don't go out of my way asking to be reassured or fish for a compliment, I want it to come naturally from people. That's why I am so hard headed in life because basically I feel like I have overcame a lot of hardships on my own as well as suffered on my own a lot. Maybe I am making myself this way and it is me I don't know. I love doing soul searching within myself and I am really trying to find inner peace everyday. I just thought of something before I wrote this. Two things that really bother me in life right now that affects my mind and my relationships towards people. That's failure to be SOBER from Alcohol and Vyvanse. Not being sober bugs the shit out of me these days and in the past with previous relationships. Yeah My life is not where I want it to be and that sometimes makes me be down and ruins relationships but that's a part of life and life is not always going to work out. I am blessed with what I have in life as it is and it all comes down with being happy with yourself in everyway possible. But being sober to me is that I am living life by my own mind and that's what I really think would push me over the hump to finding happiness and not being so hard on myself. I want to be ME and experience MY EMOTIONS naturally without any substance. I guess every recovering addict goes through this guilt and I am pretty sure it is one of the 12 steps program. I know there NA and AA that would help but right now I cant get rides whenever I want and hopefully when I do get my license back in 5 months I can just go to a meeting and see how it is especially NA. I think I am going to really look into the 12 step program on my own and try and follow that for the time being. Ill get there but Please message me NOUEDIS because I don't know how to message people privately. THANKS AGAIN and take care.

CALO. I'snt that the truth with the remembering part. I chuckled a bit!

I agree with what all you are saying and I think passing that for a binge eating cure is absurd also. My reason is because it is just another excuse for pharmaceutical company's get more money blah blah blah. While Katers you stated about thinking about going on Vyvanse for the Binge reason I am up in the air on that. I am an ex addict of Adderall and have been clean from it for probably two years now. It was hell like everyone knows but after about a year off Adderall I got on Vyvanse. I changed my lifestyle completely also when I got on Vyvanse. I actually am still taking it currently for the time being due to other reasons for me to focus. I found that Vyvanse is not near as bad as Adderall when it comes to being addictive and for abusing. Not saying that it isn't addicting but you really cant take to much to get higher. I am not FOR any stimulant drugs whatsoever because we all want to feel like ourselves but while I AM ON vyvanse I eat all the time. I hydrate myself and I do eat much healthier. While I am off it (I do go weeks without it at times) because believe it or not there are times where I will throw the pills away just so I can take a break from them and when I don't have my vyvanse I do eat more and maybe binge more but it only lasts for about two days. I exercise daily in my life now and don't drink barely any alcohol anymore and I think that's why vyvanse is working for me because I am knowledgeable or what my past with Adderall as done to me. Its very very tough to be on anything that is a schedule two drug due to our past addictions. I know someday I will be off of everything when I am ready and wont be as lonely due to some troubles I got in the past year but for now vyvanse does help me get by even though I don't want any substance to help me ya know. Its hard to explain. frustrating but hopefully I got some imput to ya!

I remember looking sickly like you described and it was awful. I remember being out to eat with my family and church friends one time and I was sooo embarrassed and I remember telling my mom I look like a meth addict or crack head. I would look in the mirror sometimes and would just freak out not seeing the true me. One thing I always tried to do though was take care of my teeth and always keep them clean. See when I was abusing I would always try to be somewhat healthy and stuff but I was also drinking a lot of alcohol while I was on them and the next day was horrendous!! Fortunately is does get better with sleep, eating good, and exercise, but like nouedis stated right now just relaxing and taking it easy is the best thing so you don't get overwhelmed.

Newbie, Hey I just want to say first of all you are not a lone as you know. Another thing I want to say is Congrats on beating some of those addictions you have faced in the past year. That's an accomplishment in its self. So you are experiencing fatigue and could it be from your eating disorder and from your Adderall experience? yes of course but it also could be from something else. I am sure you want to stay away from meds to help with the symptoms you are experiencing which I don't blame you. You're excercising and eating great which is good but being overwhelmed with stuff is a crutch in this busy fast moving world we live in. Millions of people struggle with stress and anxiety because lets face it we need to keep up with everything going on around us to be "successful". Which in term when we are not living up to our standards and getting all the tasks we need to get done its dreadful and we get frustrated which makes things worse. Everyone feels this way but what I find to be best is get in a routine that fits you. Get in a lifestyle that makes YOU happy that you are your own self. We are not robots and with drugs these days people flock to them to get that edge and you know and all of us know that's not the way to go. I would try some natural vitamins maybe and like I said get in a routine. All the tasks or stresses in your life, make a time a day to have that thinking period where you just try and calmly make that time for just that. With the fatigue It could be a chemical missing or natural component that's not getting produced enough in your body. I would try not to get overwhelmed though and you are definitely doing the right thing with looking for alternatives to better yourself. I run outside a lot and that's my meditation period. Yours could be different its all about finding the right balance which everyone is different on finding their own way which is perfectly normal.. I hope things get better and we as humans need to not beat ourselves up over and over again. Take care!

To whom may listen, I try not to make my threads long so I will try my best to get my point across so bare with me please. So I was taking Vyvanse for about a solid year now and like I said in my previous thread "My story in a Nutshell" I have been through HELL and Back with the whole Adderall addiction. Everyone has their own story but believe me I have been there and can relate to a lot of the stuff people are saying on here and agree that Adderall is terrible and don't think anyone should be on it let alone on any stimulants for that matter. So today would have marked 7 days clean from Vyvanse and I slipped up today. During my clean time from the Vyvanse I had all the usual symptoms and was getting by without them. I really can go without them but I am starting to think that this period in my life I think that I am going to stay on them for the time being. Now during those 7 days without them I went about my normal routine and even stayed pretty busy. My downfalls without taking them is of course I'm not as focused, I actually crave beer more which I am trying to stay away from alcohol in my life at the moment. On Saturday I did 8 hours of community service but what bothers me is that I always feel like I need to have some sort of substance in my body to function like a energy drink such as a "White Monster" which is my drink of choice and I don't like that I feel that I need that. I Eat a lot which is normal but I eat bad stuff and I feel like at times I use food to comfort me which I know this is a withdrawl symptom that I am dealing with and its natural that I feel this way when I go off them. Now this past Sunday I woke up and I went to the park to play basketball outside. I was feeling great and felt amazing after I was done. I was happy and just in a great mood. Well my friend wanted to go get something to eat at a sports bar and I made the mistake of drinking WAY too many beers. And Monday and Tuesday I felt miserable. Yes that was a choice I made and that could've been prevented but that was the lowest points during my clean period. Now today is where I slipped up. I went to work from 4 am to 8 am and took a half day of vacation. I should've just stuck my day out but we were kind of slow and I didn't want to be there. Well this is where addiction gets you. I came home today and I was BORED!!..I was bored that's it and I texted someone that I knew had vyvanse pills. I was craving one because I was bored. How pathetic but I know you guys can relate and boredom and addiction go hand and hand. Well I go to pick up the pill and the person gave me a dark blue pill and said it was a 25mg pill. My prescription is 20mgs so I was like ok and I took it. After I took it they told me it was Adderall instead of Vyvanse. I was like damn it I didn't want that but oh well it wont hurt me. First I made the mistake and gave in to my cravings and second I took an Adderall pill which I haven't taken in years. Well after about 30 mins those awful feelings came back from the time I used to be on Adderall pretty bad. I feel like shit as I am typing this but I am managing. Adderall to me is WAY different then Vyvanse as to how they make me feel. When I'm on Adderall I crave more and My anxiety goes through the roof which I am feeling it bad at the moment. So that was my slip up and this leads me to my next statement. Right now currently in my life I am very lonely and have no license to drive anywhere. I have a loving family by all means but I am not around them a lot unless its the weekends. I have a long road ahead of me with getting my life back on track through all the stuff that pertains to my DUI I got over a year ago. I am on probation, I am not allowed to drink alcohol which is a blessing because I cant stand feeling like crap the day after drinking and lets face it when you don't drink you're healthier and a better person. I enjoy not drinking but without my Vyvanse I don't have the mind set to push through these hard times especially on my OWN. I don't have a significant other at the moment because I have problems to fix in my life and I choose not to be in a relationship until some difficulties in my life pass. See the main reason a lot of people want to be off a drug is to get your old self back and just be you and I am the same way 100%. I want to be healthy as much as I can and don't want to be on any meds. But when Im on Vyvanse I don't have really any bad side affects that I do when I am on Adderall. I am not my "True Self" but I actually live better at THIS TIME in my life because I'm focused on where I need to be and it cures my depression. If I had a significant other I wouldn't be on Vyvanse 100% fact. I am only prescribed 20mg pills once a day and I can manage taking just that, at the most maybe 2 pills on certain days. So basically Is it wrong to get by with my Vyvanse during this time frame of my life until I get back on track. Its really really hard to do it on my Own like I said and the Vyvanse is like my significant other at the time being. I don't drink alcohol while I'm on it, I eat a lot and always healthier at that, I can still sleep while I'm on my Vyvanse, I exercise and I am determined more towards the future when I am on it. I know it can be done without meds but this time in my life I really think I should stay on it. I have like 12 more days until I can get my Vyvanse refilled and I am totally Ok with waiting it out and I don't mind it one bit. I'm not mad that I don't have them or count the days down or get excited when the time gets closer to getting them filled. Its just walking that FINE LINE to manage being on them or not and that's what sucks. I just wanted to express what I am going through and by no means am I giving up and being selfish saying that Its ok to be on a stimulant because I DONT want to be on anything I promise its just a time in my life that I think I need to focus on getting back on track. Its really hard to explain but yeah with taking the Adderall pill today I don't like it at all one bit. I wont ever go back to them but the Vyvanse I don't think is doing me any harm right now in my life. I want to be as healthy as I can and with being on a pill I know that Im not the healthiest I can be. Everyone on this site is not perfect and are beautiful in every way and I know I have a good heart but its that fine line that I cant overcome at least right now in my life. I have already beat Two big addictions in my life and One being Adderall and the other for the most part Alcohol. I went 7 months without a drop and Honestly that was one of the best thing that has happened to me because I know I can go without drinking because I actually did and now if I slip up and drink too much I tell myself its time to step back again and not drink so I have came a long way so far. Its just the time in my life where I think I should stay on my Vyvanse even though I wish I didn't have too. I know with time without being on them gets better with each day its just super hard to be completely sober from everything ALL AT ONCE ya know? I know I will be off them one day but doing everything at one time is overwhelming as it is with every addict struggling. Well that's my input on where Im at in my life and I will continue to read and explore this site. Adderall though is discusting and If you get off that or have been off everything that's is amazing and someday I will be too!! I praise everyone who beats addiction and I guess with being on my Vyvanse I don't think I would call myself an addict because I can go without them but Like I said I am not my true Self. ADHD is a bitch lol but we are unique people and I feel one of the strongest people out there at that. Anyways hang in there everybody I just needed to vent!! Much Love!! P.S. Oh and by the way Alcohol was my biggest downfall in my life and during my time with my Adderall addiction and drinking a lot I am surprised I survived so I am grateful for that I guess I am just taking baby steps to where I need to be! I also ordered some books that I am planning on reading about changing your mind and stuff like that and am making my faith stronger with the Man above so that helps also. Prayer does wonders as well because without my faith I wouldn't be where I am today. Not trying to get religious but it has worked for me to pray and seek a higher power. TAKE CARE EVERYONE!

So today would have been 7 days without my vyvanse but I kinda slipped up which I will talk about it another thread after I post this one. So during my time without my meds the one thing that I really don't like is being sore all the time. My body aches a lot and I don't know if its because Im sleeping maybe better or what. I do play sports and am very active at work with lifting stuff but I cant stand the aches sometimes and its frustrating. I am pretty sure its the meds leaving my body but anyone out there know of any remedies besides taking hot baths and relaxing techniques that will cure these aches like a supplement that helped other people out there going through this. My MOM is a natural vitamin specialists and I have the resource through her and can get all the vitamins I need with a discount but she hasn't been through the stuff that people on here and been through. So any info would be great on the body aches and how long they last. MAKE SURE TO READ MY NEXT THREAD IF YOU HAVE TIME. Its going to be called My Progress, My Slip up, and Walking that Fine Line. Thanks guys and God Bless!

Well its been 2 days without my vyvanse. Its going alright the usual symptoms. Hungry more and kind of depressed. I'll get into details a little more into my journey but for now I'm going to enjoy my pizza and probably lay down on my Friday night! Happy Weekend Everyone

When I was on Adderall at its worse I would get soooo much anxiety and have heart palpitations which scared the living day lights out of me and I would also always panic. Another physical symptom I would get would be ticks from time to time especially when I layed down at night. I would twitch my head and get zapped. I would always be a hypochondriac about my heart when I was on it and it scared me every day. These days Im a pretty avid runner running at least 20 miles a week because I want that natural High instead of that stimulant High. I want to prove to myself that there is no damage done to my heart so I am very active these days. Ive always been athletic and active but while on Adderall I hated to play sports or get my heart rate up. Kick the drug and exercise and you will get some peace the stronger you get that you don't have any physical damage. Running is amazing but its hard work to get into. Once you set your mind and get over the first couple of weeks of running it becomes addicting. At least for me and when I get a runner's high I LOVE IT!!! You know why? Because its 100 times better then an amphetamine high and its NATURAL!!!! MUCH LOVE

Thanks ALWAYSAWESOME. I will try my best to come back during my quitting period. The first couple of days I might not want to do anything but I will be back eventually.

Adderallic, Hey I was the one who posted about the Vyvanse. I would say yeah it is addicting but no where near as bad as Adderall because Vyvanse only has Lisdexamfetamine and Adderall has another ingredient which makes it more addicting. But nonetheless even though Vyvanse doesn't have the greater potential to abuse it, it is still the same effect and can become habit forming. I prefer it because it is much "cleaner" and no where near as bad as side affects as to Adderall in my eyes. But I wouldn't recommend it because I want to just be myself and that's the main thing we got to remember with getting off these stupid feel good "magic" drugs. It will still make you feel like you are not who you really are so I would not get on them. Listen the drugs do wonders even if you take the same dose every time at the same time but lets face it we don't need them and lets just be free. I start my pill free day on Thursday so wish me luck and you can ask me anything if you need some info. MUCH LOVE