Bee0830

Day 1...again:( but I took a big step yesterday and cut off my supply. I got a new doctor and told her the truth about how I've been abusing my medication. It sucked to say it out loud but was also very freeing. Let the withdrawal begin...ugh. The doctor said to think of it as having jet lag for a few days. I don't know why, but it kinda helps.

Day 11. Just checking in. Feeling physically much better. Mentally is another story. Not too bad, but I am terrified that I will never again be productive at work. It's a scary, scary feeling. I'm trying not to be too hard on myself at work, but it's tough. The funny thing is, I mentally torture myself, but I still haven't been able to get done the same amount of work I used too…so I am wasting so much energy obsessing about not being able to do work, and still not getting it done, when I could just be breathing deep and staying calm. All in due time I guess.

Thanks!!! I'm on day 7! Kinda miserable today and still sleepwalking through the days and eating everything. Listened to your advice grumpy cat and allowing myself to give into the snacking, just making sure I get some healthy stuff in too. Do you guys find that despite how tired you are, you almost have insomnia? I've been having a hard time sleeping the past 2 nights.

Day 2 done! I'm freaking exhausted and have been eating nonstop. But I made it through the day. Praying the withdrawal doesn't last too long. Always awesome - your post Absolutely made sense. Thinking about trying NA. I've been in and out of AA for about 7 years...haven't had a drink in 5 years, but sadly, I found a different way to numb my feelings.

Thank you grumpy cat and always awesome. Day 1 is just about over and I want nothing more than to go to bed. You two replying sincerely helped me get through the workday- thank you again. I know my journey has just begun, but I feel like I already regained some dignity that I may have lost along the way.

Day 1 and I am terrified. I don't have a lot of time to post right now, but needed to put it out there that today is my first full day Adderall free. I've been abusing my prescription off and on for a little over a year now. Dreading the withdrawal. And I have a client dinner tonight. Ugh. Just gotta make it through the day, one minute at a time. So grateful for this website and knowing I am not alone in this struggle.