I am a 51 year old mom of 2 teen daughters, married 26 years. I went on adderall about 9 years ago when I was diagnosed as ADD. At first it was wonderful. I found that I could work in my office without having to keep the TV on to drown out the muddling in my brain from my thoughts skipping back and forth. I lost a lot of weight (which I had gained from anti-depressants). But soon the weight came back on and what I was left with was a drug that no longer really helped me, but one that I could not live without. I actually did try to go off of it a few times and eventually went back on. I want to say that I'm more organized on these pills, but truthfully, I find my anxiety off the chart and i fear so many things because of how I've reacted to them in the past, which has been just totally losing it emotionally. My dr has suggested I increase my dosage but what then. It will eventually level off again and I'm back to where I was.
About a year ago I decided to try and wean myself off and so I asked the dr for regular non-extended release adderall so I could only take what I needed as opposed to 30 mg per day. Well, I never did more then take 30 mg per day, 2-10 mg in the am and one at lunch. If I don't take the one at lunch, I go into a crying heaping mess about 8pm at night. No one told me this was going to happen, and I thought i was having a nervous breakdown. Finally it was my husband who suggested that it was releated to not taking that 2nd dosage at noon and when I called my drs office, oh yes, the nurse said it was probable.
I found this site a few nights ago and have been thinking and praying. I thought I'd try not taking 2 in the morning and then 1 at noon, but instead just 1 and 1. it's been okay, but then tonight it happened again. A huge crying jag. My business has suffered because of this drug, we are struggling with our finances and so while I want to quit, I keep thinking that now is not the right time. I can't be an emotional wreck as I'm trying to pick my business up. But will it ever be the right time?