FreeTheRealMe

So its day 4 and man I have no energy at all. I just want to sleep all the time, how long does it take to start regaining energy?

You are not alone. I read just that as I connected to this site on the homepage and after reading many posts by others on these story forums, I can say it is true. I can also say that I have already trashed 1/2 of my prescription so that as soon as my busy work schedule ends on January 2nd, so starts my journey back to who I once was. I have tried to quit before, however the biggest weight I find is circumstantial and my most recent attempt I caved by bills that had to be paid and moving into my own place, stress within the family, but this time I am expecting it. I have written letters to my family, friends and my job, hoping support will come easier. My biggest fear is not being able to feel like I once did years ago, because the longest I've gone without my medication is 10 days, every day worsening. I know now however, after much reading from the creator of this site, that I am in the same boat as many. A boat with no oars, no anchor and no direction. So......it's time to swim. I know I will get tired, I know it will take time and I know the current may try to drag me back, but I will reach land. I will stand on my two feet, I will join the world again. In these upcoming days, I will use this community as an audience. Your words will be my ambition, my hope. This is the start of a diary, which I will share the truth of what I am going through. When I break free, you will be right beside me, when I collapse I will rely on you to pick me up. Here marks my first step toward a true me. My utmost thanks to everyone willing to take this journey with me. My next entry I will share my story. But for now I will take some time to read others. Luctor et emergo