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Thanks for the response LILTEX41. You took the words right out of my brain. Yes my sister knows I am an addict. I think maybe she does not believe my bullshit anymore but does want me to quit. As for my doctor he has no idea. For the past few years I keep telling myself to just come clean with him but I was just scared, scared that if I didn't have the Adderall that I would never become functional again. Although over the past two years or so I haven't been at all functional, Speaking of my doctor I have an appointment today. I think it's time I had a talk with him...I will post later on how that went...thanks

Hello all my fellow Adderallics. It's been a while since I last posted and my addiction has only got worse. On April the 7th I stopped taking Adderall, I knew that if I didn't they were gonna kill me. I had got to where I was taking 4-5 20mg. tabs a day. I became very tired and depressed but it got better. I got my Rx filled on the 14th and don't know why I was so stupid to do so. I had them in my possession for three days but did not take a one. I gave them to my sister to put away at her house. On Friday I began to have massive withdrawels and all I could think about were my Adderall...I don't know what the hell was going on with me but after begging my sis she gave in and gave me two. Which did the trick and also put me in Guilt City. I don't want to be the wimp I tell myself that I am, I just really need to be able to make it through those hard times, after all I know they will pass. I know I have a much greater future to look forward too after I have beat this battle with Adderall. Please give me some solid advice on ways to help me through the tough times. I love this site and thank you all...

Over a year ago, besides abusing Adderall I was also smoking a lot of street meth. After years on the meth I quit about a year ago but continued the Adderall. Although my family is aware of my Adderall use, there are others that are important in my life that don't, my NA fellowship. I told them the meth was my drug of choice and I quit that. I feel like such a fraud sitting through meetings with Adderall in my system. I don't have much of a life apart from NA and if I don't clean up my act and tell the truth, I am going to lose that. The Adderall has brought me to wanting to just give up on life once and for all. 10 years is a lot of what I call wasted time. I am gonna tell my group and my doctor that I need help and I will go from there...

Hello, I love reading about others stories, they inspire me. I have yet to start working on quitting the Adderall but I must soon. I take 20mg 3 times a day but at times take more. I give out early every month, sometimes for a week or more. The one thing I have not done is talk to my doctor about my addiction. I am scared because I know once I do the Adderall will stop coming from him and I have no other source. I am ready to do something about this addiction and I know the first and biggest step will be talking to my doctor. I can't begin to imagine my life without the Adderall and yet I also can't imagine going forward with my really screwed up life on the Adderall... :unsure:

Hello everyone, I am new to this forum. I am 48 and have been using (abusing) Adderall for the past ten or so years. It was given to me for energy because I suffer from extreme fatigue and I despise the day I ever took that first one. Over the years they have ruined my health, physically and mentally and I stay scared that I'm going to have a stroke if I don't quit them. My sister holds on to them, so I don't OD and I take 3-6 20mg. tabs a day. The longest I have went without them is about two weeks and just when I start feeling a bit better, it's time for my refill and I fold so quickly. I also have suffered from severe depression all my life and although the Adderall helps that just a bit, they make the depression a hell of a lot worse. I live alone and have a whole lot of time on my hands, so I just take the Adderall and watch TV all day. They no longer give me any energy or motivation, I can't think straight anymore and I've lost hope that I can ever stay off of them. Hell, I have lost hope in life, the Adderall have taken something from me long ago and I'm just not the person I once was. I also use Vicotin and Xanax to bring me down at night. I am at a point in my life that I either stop all the drugs or just end it all (life). I just want to be happy, grateful and content as I once was. I am going to spend some time on this site reading everyone's posts and maybe some hope that I can stop taking the Adderall and other drugs may return in me...Thanks for letting me vent and any advice would be very helpful.