TheStruggleIsReal

Thank you @smhjen I can relate to your experience as well. That extreme fear of not being able to take it certainly helps you realize that you are more addicted than you think. I was also so fearful about weight gain, and while I was only pregnant a short while, ironically I lost 5 pounds. The stress that took away my appetite was definitely a factor, but cutting out alcohol and being mindful of NOT gaining weight also helped. That too gave me confidence that I can do it! Being able to start a healthy family is a good motivating factor to stop and is also helping quite a bit. Best of luck to you!

A long overdue update. I miscarried about 7 weeks in back in December. While I have no idea why, it does make me wonder if adderall had something to do with it. I will never know the answer to that, but my anger/anxiety/emotions were so high during that time that something had to be off from the start. But it was a sense of relief and a wake up call. Despite that...I ended up taking it again to perform well in my new job. I got stuck in the adderall cycle. Taking it, increasingly taking more, and more frequently. Eventually, it seemingly burnt out my adrenals which I feel is contributing to my hormonal imbalance 6 months post miscarriage. I came to the realization that I don't like my new job and don't want it to be long term. So as of this week I quit...again. Starting from scratch now. Supplements and coffee are helping. This week has been rough, but I oddly feel a lot better already.

I had posted before about my quitting journey....today just threw me for a whole new set of curve balls. As of today, i'm pregnant and starting a new job in 2 weeks after being unemployed for 7 months. I have been taking adderall as needed and reduced it to about 10-20 mg from 30-60/day. Plus taking ambien to sleep. I am severely stressing out about not being able to take adderall for my new job. I'm going to be working at a start-up...it's going to be a lot of demanding work for a while to come. The stress and anxiety from not being able to take adderall reaffirms that my addiction is still very real despite my progress. The good news is that my addiction isn't strong enough to even consider taking it while i'm pregnant. I had been working really hard on getting rid of my adderall weight gain of 12 pounds and the thought of gaining weight on top of this is also adding to my stress. It's all very frustrating...especially considering I wasn't exactly planning on getting pregnant anytime soon. Has anybody gone through something similar and can offer reassurance or advice about quitting and working and/or being pregnant and having to quit? I don't have a lot of people I can talk to about my situation let alone people that can relate. Thanks!

The symptoms suck, but once you're off they will go away and you will feel 100 times better. Think of the positive symptoms that you are working towards: 1) mental clairty 2) less anxiety 3) happy 4) less socially awkward 5) being able to sleep great