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  1. The Ninety Day Challenge

    Go Firefly!!!!!!!! Congrats!!!! That's huge I'm only on day 7 over here... small victory for me, but I am determined to keep going!!
  2. Please help me quit for good

    Just wanted to let everyone know I have made it through five days with no pills. I didn't even plan on actually quitting this week, but I didn't take any pills on the weekend and I woke up Monday morning staring at my bottle of Adderall, and something inside me just told me I could make it through the day without it. I was tired, sore, grumpy and hungry all day... but somehow I made it through Monday with no Adderall. Now it's Wednesday evening, and I still have managed to not take any pills this week. I was going to wait until Christmas to quit, but I guess you could say I'm attempting right now. I still haven't mustered up the courage to call my doctor and tell him I don't want it prescribed to me anymore, and I still have about a month's supply of pills. I want so badly to end this now and keep my no-Adderall streak going... but I think about all the things I have to do before Christmas and it's so overwhelming that I am unsure if I can manage. I know I sound like I'm making excuses, but I'm just telling it how it is. I could definitely use some encouragement and/or advice here.
  3. Trying to quit 15 straight years of use

    15 years is a long time. I'm sure it will take a while to totally recover, but I just wanted to let you know I'm super proud of you. 26 days with no pills is super awesome, especially after being on it for so many years. Just keep swimming!! There's nowhere but up from here. Every day we stay clean is one day closer to our recovery. One foot in front of the other
  4. Please help me quit for good

    So true. I feel like since I found this website, for the first time, I am ready to actually 100% commit to quitting for good. I am so ready. But I just have to find the right time to do it. I want to quit ASAP, but I'm under a lot of pressure at work and I know I will be pretty useless for the first little while without the pills. I have a week off at Christmas, but I honestly don't want to put myself through another month of this. Ugh. How do I quit and manage to stay on top of things at work??
  5. My story

    Thanks for sharing your story. I wish I had found this website sooner. It sounds like we started taking Adderall around the same time. I keep my addiction a secret and it has honestly been so comforting to finally be able to talk to other people who can actually relate to what I'm going through. I can relate to pretty much everything you said. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Since finding this website, I feel like I finally have the strength to quit for good this time. I'm just trying to strategize and find the right time to flush the rest of my pills. I know I'll be pretty useless without them and I have a very demanding job. I'm not trying to make excuses, but I'm under a lot of pressure at work and I don't think I can handle being in withdrawal while at work. I have a week off at Christmas, so that would be the most ideal time to quit... But at the same time, I don't want to put myself through another month of this hell and delay my recovery any longer. Ugh How are you doing since quitting? It sounds like you are under a lot of pressure work wise as well. Please keep us posted on how your recovery is going. Your story really struck a chord with me.
  6. Addiction is secret so I'm quitting alone

    I'm going through the exact same thing. Nobody knows about my addiction because I've kept it a secret for so long. I really want to stop but I feel the same way as you do... I just need some support and encouragement. Let's be there for each other. We can do this! I think telling our doctors to never prescribe it to us again is a good idea. That way it's not so easy to just go back to it again.
  7. Quitting secretly.

    It is crazy how much I can relate to your story. We are going through the exact same thing. I really want to stop, but I know it's not going to be easy. I can barely get out of bed without Adderall and I have a very demanding full-time job. But I know it'll get easier with time.... We just have to be strong. It's nice knowing that there are others who are going through the same thing as me. I would really like to keep in touch and be there for each other in moments of weakness. We can do this!!
  8. Please help me quit for good

    I couldn't have said it better myself. I feel like I can't do my hair or make up, clean my house, or even go to the grocery store without Adderall. I tell myself I need it to socialize, but in the end, it only ends up making me socially awkward. I really am ready to stop. I just need some encouragement and support from you guys. I've kept the Adderall a secret for so long. Coming on this forum is the first time I've ever actually talked about my problem. We can do this! Let's quit together. We got this.
  9. Please help me quit for good

    Yes, I am aware of that. It's a vicious cycle. I know that the Adderall only ends up hurting me more in the end, and it doesn't actually provide me the "relief" that I think it does. I don't know how I got here. I never used to be able to understand addiction before I started taking Adderall. I never understood why someone couldn't "just stop" when addicted to something. And well... here I am. I am so ashamed to have found myself in this position.
  10. Please help me quit for good

    Both. I feel like I'm addicted. I want to stop but I feel like I can't fully commit. It's ruining my life