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I am not court ordered to take stimulant medicine I apologize for writing like a 5 year old lol.I am court ordered via plea bargain to go to a psychiatrist for mental health services regularly.My officer regulary checks psychiatrist office to make sure I went to my past appointments.She also asks me for prescrription labels and keeps a copy of every medicine I got filled during her office visits I must go to.My doctor also drug tests his patients who are prescribed scheduled medicine to make sure they are taking the medicine regularly and of course to check if they're doing recreational drugs.I might have a plan.I'm going to ask doctor next appointment about nuvigil as safer and less addictive.I've heard good reviews about it and tried it just once before. If he doesn't want to prescribe it I will just ask for a non-stimulant to deal with withdrawal from adderall. Now for smoking I also have a vape.I really want to become a non-smoker(someone who doesn't use nicotine at all and has removed brainwashing of smoking from their mind).I read Allen Carr's "Easyway to stop smoking".Which is a very good read if you want to quit easy and make it enjoyable.I've relapsed when I am taking adderall.It is hard for me not to not want to smoke or vape on than medicine even if I've gone weeks or months free from nicotine.I am a believer than nicotine is a gateway drug.Anywho feel free to reply.Thanks for reading.

How does one quit an addiction to both adderall and cigarettes when they're court ordered to see a shrink and take meds regularly?The probation is suppose to end April next year.I don't want to wait that long to stop getting amphetamines prescribed.

I took adderall and smoke cigarettes on tuesday up until now for the first time since the first week of June.My smoking worsened since adderall.I can quit smoking without adderall but Its mandatory to get medication for probation.How do I stop this?

Has anyone ever had a seizure that was related to stimulants like adderall? How would I know the difference between seizures and anxiety/panic attacks? I'm sure its been discussed here before or you've heard. What are your opinions and observations of me taking modfanil/armodafinil to replace zenzedi(dextroamphetamine) or at least use it on top of zenzedi so I could use less zenzedi till I quit the damn thing once and for all since I'm tired of this ish.Im a junior in college and really need to graduate because I'm 23 and have failed/dropped out of so many classes I can't even turn it into a joke anymore when people ask if Ive graduated.I really want to quit this insidious drug but I do need something at least moderate to use for focusing at school and work so I can concentrate on my studies and work and take 4+ classes/semester till I graduate If you're in college did any of you students' grades decline or climb when you took adderall? Mine have declined because therapeutic doses were never good enough to focus long because I either built up tolerance too fast on my own without telling doctor and chain smoking cigarettes was heavily craved while on adderall-more important than studying and being responsible-and I payed for it. This has nothing to do with the devil's drug but I use to be a really smart kid as I was 17 when I became a sophomore at the University with high hopes and dreams of becoming a petroleum engineer.I never took adderall in my life and didnt even for the next 4 years.But when I was 18,19,20,21 my grades and other life hindered for some reason. How the hell did I go from focused to unfocused? Do cigarettes play a huge roll in concentrating?I also got addicted to the internet,micro-managing others,masturbing too although I quit that habit since,sugary/salty high carbs,soda,coffee,insomnia,etc.. I also don't have relationships as much since 18 so does confidence or lonliness have anything to do with it? Any thoughts? Oh I prioritized hanging with friends than studying..damn I wish I didn't get addicted to always wanting to talk to girls and having a good time with the boys.

Yea looking back I sort of thought I was above anyone my age going to school just because I have "that study pill" that happens to be a "legal amphetamine". I still can't believe I made the ignorant decision to try prescription drugs this habit forming I feel like a such a loser now hahah. People say on this site you can't quit until your ready. I think, I've had many times I believed I bottomed out in my mind during excessive use and told myself its not worth it anymore. Yet when its time for the next appointment or script I go in acting as if I'm a studious student who is functioning better with the meds. COMPLETE LIE! Although I did quit for 4-5 months but I didn't take the initiative to balance my life and eventually resorted to it again. You got any advice?

This is gonna be a crazy intro! I just turned 23 and still haven't graduated college due to my addiction and love affair(I'm a guy I can't believe I just wrote that) with my various adhd medications first prescribed exactly 2 years ago.I'm almost a senior at a University in Texas. Unlike many adderall users who took their prescription starting at the age of 5, I somehow decided to go to a doctor when I was 21 to get checked for ADHD. I had some trouble with focus my whole life but never thought twice about ever going to a shrink for it,probably because my parents were and still are against Psychiatric drugs. I graduated high school 1 year early purposefully and had almost 1 year of college credits before the first day of University. I was 17 starting my "sophomore year". I started to struggle probably because that extra year of non-high school still had me a bit immature. This was my chance to go to a shrink, although they denied it because I had gotten off recently from a 6 month weed binge(I never went back to weed after that,its odd telling people the only time I smoked weed in my life was literally 4-5x a week for 6 months with my old friends I knew since high school most likely due to the panic attacks it was causing me). Long story short my GPA sucks its a 2.0 5 years later and I've only completed not even 2 years of college credits since than(no drugs or alcohol or medicine abuse just pure laziness and lethargy my passion for cigarettes was causing me) So I waited 3 years to manipulate a doctor to finally get my hands on some adderalls that I tried probably 3 or 4 times before for exams and cramming. I was excited i would "change my life" like I saw others post online on other forums. Could it be that I always had ADHD and my anxiety the last few years is a result of not being treated for 21 years? I really don't know but thats the story I used to self-diagnose myself to the doctor. Anyways i basically upped my dose the first 4 months on my own to numb myself from work and school stress and to amp me up at my banquet hall job so I could be confident in front of 300 people every friday-sunday while maybe scoring a little After the first 4 months I stopped adderall for almost 6 months but had gained so much weight approximately 45lbs and had completely lost interest in hanging out,school,gym,you name it! Now the last 12 months its basically become a habit again to use stimulants as a confident booster,motivation fire starter,weight loss tool to basically get through my daily functioning. I go to school and work, barely hang out or work out and everyday feels miserable. I haven't felt this disconnected with life since 5 years ago when I had a mental breakdown caused by the weed panic attacks. I don't even know what anxiety is anymore because I think I might have developed schizophrenic symptoms maybe I'm not sure but I've started to believe everyone in my life excluding my immediate family constantly gossips that I fell off or became a low life. I take 5mgx2 a day of Zenzedi(dextroamphetamine) right now after being on adderall,ritalin,adderall again,vyvanse,adderall for the third time, and now d-amphetamine since adderall obviously made me like I was on crack of something. This is pretty embarassing I don't even think I'm suppose to write this much on a hello post but yall are the only ones I tell this too,I can't keep hiding my addiction because this dual life is driving me insane its about time I came on here as I've been browsing this site and other random addiction amphetamine searches on google the last 2 years without actually posting anything. To anyone who read the whole thing I appreciate it. Peace.