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  1. Quick 17month update

    Thank you for the feedback! It means a lot to me. It's a little less scary when another person has been through the same situation. I know I am on the right track. Hope you have a nice day.
  2. Quick 17month update

    I think I am around 17 months. I have noticed a few changes I thought I would share. I am now able to watch and follow the plot on tv shows. I am not as timid and unsure of my actions. My ability to tell between right and wrong is becoming more clear. I have been drinking a lot of sparkling water in cans and have to crush them to save space in recycling. The act of crushing the can with my foot somehow is helping my confidence. Don't ask me how or why. I still have days of moodiness and what feels like being completely depleted, like after having the flu or a hangover, but my ability to pay attention and use reasoning are improving. I'm thinking with more depth and clarity, but still have issues with confusion, grammar, confidence, and mood. I have brain damage, so I might not be the same as everyone else.
  3. Wife still showing lots of psychological damage after 3 years off

    Why did she stop taking adderall? Has she replaced adderall with a new medication? It sounds like her attention and memory problems from childhood have returned. If you can't pay attention it is had to remember what you were supposed to be paying attention to. As as for the mood swings and low energy.. I started to become a bit less fatigued around the 1 year mark. I think I am at 17 months now. I still have days where I become grumpy. I am having to relearn to control my temper and emotions. Adderall took away almost all of my emotions. Some people say it makes them robotic. Now my emotions are back in full force and there are days I feel like a toddler throwing temper tantrums. I am slowly regaining my ability to reason and use logic. Does she goto a Dr for ADD/ADHD? Is she opposed to meds? Would she be into supplements? I have brain damage and went through neuropsych testing and then to cognitive pathologist to retrain my brain to focus and read. Maybe something like his might help her. I hope I am recovered by 3 years off adderall. Best of luck to her and you.
  4. On Ughhh Days..

    It helps me to read that others are struggling on days. Thank you for adding where you are in your recovery.
  5. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    I looked into it. I'm a veg head. Maybe I can do intermittent fasting with MCT. I'm glad it's working for you.
  6. Try to remember that your brain is chemically imbalanced. The 1st year post adderall withdrawal is beak. If you can, try to suspend judgment. Now is not the time to make big life decisions. One foot in front of the other and day to day. If you feel suicidal then go to the Dr and get a Rx. Frank said that welbutrian helped him. I'm taking memantine. St. John's wort (perika) may help. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I wish there was something I could do to help.
  7. I don't know if I have a brain thiamine deficiency or what, but I started taking sulbutiamine because it is supposed to upregulate dolamine receptors. It gives me mental energy and increases my motivation. What I've read says to cycle it so the benefits don't wear out. Thought I would share.
  8. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    You will have to let us know how it goes. Does it alleviate PaWS symptoms? Depression, anxiety, cognitive issues, sleep disturbances,.. ?
  9. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    It's great to hear you are having good days. I have a few here and there and then get sucked back under. One day we will be done with all of this. I have a countdown timer to my two year mark. Time moves more quickly now than it did at the start of this process, it was slow as molasses. Now a few days can pass where I don't think much about withdrawal. I will be great once this is over. Hang in there!
  10. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    How far along are you? I think I am at 15 months.
  11. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    Don't know if this has been posted, but the animated gifs say it all. 13 signs you are experiencing PAWS https://www.pbinstitute.com/signs-paws/ I'm feeling it.
  12. St. John's wort round 2

    I saw your recommendation and decided to give it a try. It is supposed to upregulate serotonin receptors. I am on curcumin mervia 3x, memantine 20mg, p21, noopept, and aniracetam. It gave me an immediate mood lift. I'm taking 1 perika St. John's wort 300mg tablet. Do these immediate effects last? I just have a better feeling of well being. Less afraid feeling. More optimistic maybe. I hope I continue to see these benefits. Does St. John's wort increase the rate Wellbutrin flushes through the system .. Making it less effective?
  13. 1 year

    Thank you everyone. It gives me a warm fuzzy feeling.
  14. 1 year

    Thank you! It's good to know it can take 2 years. I thought it was going to take a month when I quit. Well, here's to our recovery. I wish you the best!
  15. 1 year

    I made it to the 1 year mark! The post acute withdrawal symptoms aren't gone for me. I am having to learn how to control my emotions. PAWS for me is an emotional roller coaster. If I hadn't been through extensive neuropsych testing and psych evals because of TBI I would think I had a mental disorder. It is a fearful state with little emotional control. It is anxious and slightly psychotic. I've felt like I was a bad person. I have had problems with my ability to reason, pay attention, and remember. I have had dissociation. This is serious stuff! It isn't a cakewalk. Here is is what has helped. Bpc-157 and memantine. I added noopept when memantine's anxiolytic and anti-depressive properties started to wear off. I found a a group on reddit called r/nootropics where they experiment with nootropics for every condition under the sun. Things have gotten better overall, but it isn't over. I also have brain damage, so that might be part of the equation. Reading about other peoples miseries has helped me to know I was on the right track. I thought I would share and maybe help others. I wish there was more research on paws. It really makes one feel insane. I'll do my best to spread the word about adderall post withdrawal. Oh. Meditation has also been big in my recovery. Sometimes it is my own thoughts that cause misery. Maybe all of the time it is my thoughts that cause misery! I can't think of anything else. Im sending all of you my compassion and feelings of love. Holefully paws goes away sooner rather than later for all of us.