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  1. Anhedonia and Depression (coming up on 4 months)

    Nootropics https://www.reddit.com/r/StackAdvice/comments/3nntcm/best_nootropic_andor_supplement_stacks_to_help/ You might need to search for amphetamines, stimulants, withdrawal, Stims ... Here are some I can remember aniracetam lions mane bpc-157 phenylpiracetam memantine bacopa melatonin ashwaganda na semax selank black seed oil st johns wort (perika) noopept p21 sulbutamine b12 b6 uridine I had a countdown and count up timer. It showed me how many days I made it through and how many were left. Yes, set for 2 years.
  2. Anhedonia and Depression (coming up on 4 months)

    4 months is still early in recovery. It takes about 2 years. I started feeling a bit a bit better around 10 months and at 20 months I felt like socializing. Still, there are days when I drag. Motivation is still a problem at around 22 months. My mood is fine now and sleep is normal but motivation and confidence is lagging. Some days are better than others. Look up post acute withdrawals or PAWS. Search nootropics (reddit) and supplements. I used a countdown timer which helped.
  3. Kicked the door

    I am around 18 months. The past few days I could feel anger nagging at me. I was feeling uncomfortable and aggravated. Today I was thinking about a friend that I felt treated me unfairly, when all of the sudden I snapped and kicked a door! It's like my brain short circuits and I turn into a rabid dog. I took a bunch of supplements and feel calmer now. I guess I am learning to notice the little warning anger rage feelings days before it gets insane and I should just take something or do something to get out from under it. Does anyone have tips on dealing with flash pan anger?
  4. Quick 17month update

    I have traumatic brain injury from an auto accident, and post traumatic temporal lobe epilepsy. I think PAWS makes me worry that the symptoms I am experiencing from PAWS are going to be lifelong issues. It really helps me to have all of you talking about your symptoms. I was hoping the 1 year mark would resolve everything.. Now I am hoping the 2 yr mark will. Keep us updated opn how you are doing!
  5. Quick 17month update

    Thank you for the feedback! It means a lot to me. It's a little less scary when another person has been through the same situation. I know I am on the right track. Hope you have a nice day.
  6. Quick 17month update

    I think I am around 17 months. I have noticed a few changes I thought I would share. I am now able to watch and follow the plot on tv shows. I am not as timid and unsure of my actions. My ability to tell between right and wrong is becoming more clear. I have been drinking a lot of sparkling water in cans and have to crush them to save space in recycling. The act of crushing the can with my foot somehow is helping my confidence. Don't ask me how or why. I still have days of moodiness and what feels like being completely depleted, like after having the flu or a hangover, but my ability to pay attention and use reasoning are improving. I'm thinking with more depth and clarity, but still have issues with confusion, grammar, confidence, and mood. I have brain damage, so I might not be the same as everyone else.
  7. Wife still showing lots of psychological damage after 3 years off

    Why did she stop taking adderall? Has she replaced adderall with a new medication? It sounds like her attention and memory problems from childhood have returned. If you can't pay attention it is had to remember what you were supposed to be paying attention to. As as for the mood swings and low energy.. I started to become a bit less fatigued around the 1 year mark. I think I am at 17 months now. I still have days where I become grumpy. I am having to relearn to control my temper and emotions. Adderall took away almost all of my emotions. Some people say it makes them robotic. Now my emotions are back in full force and there are days I feel like a toddler throwing temper tantrums. I am slowly regaining my ability to reason and use logic. Does she goto a Dr for ADD/ADHD? Is she opposed to meds? Would she be into supplements? I have brain damage and went through neuropsych testing and then to cognitive pathologist to retrain my brain to focus and read. Maybe something like his might help her. I hope I am recovered by 3 years off adderall. Best of luck to her and you.
  8. On Ughhh Days..

    It helps me to read that others are struggling on days. Thank you for adding where you are in your recovery.
  9. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    I looked into it. I'm a veg head. Maybe I can do intermittent fasting with MCT. I'm glad it's working for you.
  10. Try to remember that your brain is chemically imbalanced. The 1st year post adderall withdrawal is beak. If you can, try to suspend judgment. Now is not the time to make big life decisions. One foot in front of the other and day to day. If you feel suicidal then go to the Dr and get a Rx. Frank said that welbutrian helped him. I'm taking memantine. St. John's wort (perika) may help. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I wish there was something I could do to help.
  11. I don't know if I have a brain thiamine deficiency or what, but I started taking sulbutiamine because it is supposed to upregulate dolamine receptors. It gives me mental energy and increases my motivation. What I've read says to cycle it so the benefits don't wear out. Thought I would share.
  12. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    You will have to let us know how it goes. Does it alleviate PaWS symptoms? Depression, anxiety, cognitive issues, sleep disturbances,.. ?
  13. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    It's great to hear you are having good days. I have a few here and there and then get sucked back under. One day we will be done with all of this. I have a countdown timer to my two year mark. Time moves more quickly now than it did at the start of this process, it was slow as molasses. Now a few days can pass where I don't think much about withdrawal. I will be great once this is over. Hang in there!
  14. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    How far along are you? I think I am at 15 months.
  15. Dunn Dun (jaws theme) PAWS!

    Don't know if this has been posted, but the animated gifs say it all. 13 signs you are experiencing PAWS https://www.pbinstitute.com/signs-paws/ I'm feeling it.