Tom23Jones

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About Tom23Jones

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  1. How did you quit adderall taper or cold turkey?

    Cold turkey. Once my mind was FOR REAL made up that my adderall abuse was not sustainable, I knew I had to quit and never look back.... I knew it was going to suck and be the hardest thing I'd ever done but there is no way I could've slowly tapered off. I tried controlling my using for years so why the fuck would I think I'd be able to control tapering off. Plus I feel like cold turkey is getting a jump on your recovery. Letting your brain start the healing/rewiring process.
  2. I was thinking the same thing about Chris Davis's slump, his amphetamine honeymoon stage is over and now he can't fucking focus
  3. Feeling Lonely

    yeah dude, definitely give yoga a whirl. I've only done it at home on dvds but the people I know that go to hot yoga or any yoga classes say its changed their life. I also recommend jiu jitsu to everyone. Male or female, its incredible. The bond you develop with people doing a martial art together is incredible. It happens quick and you almost instantly feel like family.
  4. New day, same results.

    @Frank B We all have times where it gets extra tough, or things get extra dark and gloomy. Just stay patient man, adderall is definitely not the answer which I think you fucking know that man. They say change happens when the pain of staying the same gets greater than the pain of change... It seems like your at a point where its time to change things up. I've always said massive action is the cure all. You are already doing so much right but it seems like its time for a few more radical changes. It could be anything that'll spark a positive mindset shift. Join jiu jitsu and get your kids into it too, cut out alcohol 100% and never drink again, go to a bunch of NA meetings, start a gratitude journal, take up yoga and/or meditation, sign up for a marathon or tough mudder and start training.... any or all of those things could be the turnaround you need. Can't hurt right? your mood and motivation is already shit right now. Go get after it buddy, your life and your kids lives depend on it
  5. 7 Month Struggles

    Hey TL Things have gotten significantly better. I'm finally beyond the obsessed feeling that my heart is damaged. I had an EKG several months ago and some other tests and all came back normal. I have some anxiety and depersonalization but its very fleeting. I've become obsessed with lifting weights, practicing jiu jitsu (recommend to everyone) and meditation. I 100% believe daily meditation helps with the anxiety, depression, and depersonalization. Without meditation I would latch on to every negative thought or feeling and obsess over it until I spiral into a full blow panic attack. Meditation has taught me to see the anxiety, recognize it for what it is and kind of detach, if that makes sense. Anyways, yeah things are much better. My marriage and family relationships are 1000 times better, I'm open and honest with everyone and no longer have to walk around carrying all the lies that had while in active addiction. Just not having to ever lie offers such a peace of mind! I also still regularly attend NA meetings. I've been going for about 3 years now. I don't work the program by the book but I attend meetings on the reg and I've stayed sober so it works for me Peace! -TJ
  6. 3 years!!!

    Hey brother, please don't do anything drastic. One things for sure, we've all felt similar hopeless feelings like you mention here and even when you think theres no fucking chance it'll get better, it fucking can man. Just one day at a time, keep doing the next right thing and eventually you can pull yourself from hopeless to hopeful. Get to a narcotics anonymous meeting and either listen or pour your heart out on how your feeling. You'll be met with love and open arms there
  7. Sounds like your already on the right track with a multivitamin and magnesium. Maybe also add in some vitamin D. I never really found any supplements that made a profound difference. One of the best things you could do is make it to the gym and do some cardio and weights. The thing is, your not going to feel like it when your irritable and having mood swings but if you can force yourself there, I think the fog starts to lift much quicker.
  8. Things better than a high?

    I used to pop adderall and play tennis or pickup football but I felt so robotic and analytical about the game. Every point was like match point at a major championship. Adderall caused me to treat those pickup games with such intensity that there was no camaraderie with the people I was playing with. But intense exercise while sober is fucking awesome. I love Jiu Jitsu, (recommend it to all) weight lifting, basketball, any cardio really. You never feel more present than when practicing jiu jitsu. I mean you and another person are trying to choke or armbar one another while defending against the same. Its kind of hard to worry about anything else in life while doing that. And then you shake hands afterwards and build a bond like no other.
  9. Letting Go Completely

    Don't even try to trick yourself into knowing what you'll be doing a few years down the road. Its okay to say "I'm not sure where I'll be in a few years" but for today, I don't have to use adderall. I don't think too much about adderall anymore, and I firmly believe I'll never put that shit in my body again....But I do occasionally romanticize alcohol/drinking and when I start obsessing about drinking at some future hypothetical event, I just tell myself, I'm not sure if will or won't but I know I don't have to drink TODAY. Seems to help close the loop of those obsessive thoughts
  10. Sober November

    cool man, I always love following Joe Rogan and those other guys doing their Sober October bets. Keep us posted, I'm curious to see how much better you feel after a month off boos. I gave it up over a year ago and feel awesome. I know you've already cut back on sugar and processed foods so this should make you feel even healthier
  11. Hi Tom,

    Thanks for taking the time to read my post. It was not an easy thing to write so I appreciate the encouragement.

    Michael

  12. One Word Status Update

    DEADLIFTS!
  13. I finally need to tell my doctor

    I wouldn't make up any lies. I'd be 100% honest with him. There are patient/doctor confidentiality laws that prevent him from running to CPS or anything like that. As far as I know, he can't flag your name in any system that would prevent you from getting pain pills for a toothache. I think you'd feel better about it if you told the doc your completely dependent on stimulants and there is no way possible they will ever be beneficial for you anymore. Most of the time the thing that seems the hardest to do is the thing that needs to be done.
  14. Doctor appointment today

    you definitely made the right decision. Phentermine is super close to adderall but its a nastier/harsher stimulant. I hated it and still abused while on adderall and for a short time after I kicked adderall.... you don't want to go down that road. I agree hyper critical that a low carb/ high fat & protein diet would be worth a shot. And try to get to the gym with some type of weight lifting and cardio routine.