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  1. Sitting in the waiting room

    Thanks for the congrats, but unfortunately I did get back on my script. I feel like I learned quite a bit about myself during the past month though. If I can establish some productive habits (like following a schedule), my next attempt at quitting might be more successful
  2. Sitting in the waiting room

    After 7 years of Adderall I managed to survive for one month without it. I slept until I couldn't and I've eaten everything in sight. I gained 15 lbs. My clothes no longer fit and I can't stand to look in the mirror. I lose everything I touch. My working memory doesn't exist and I feel selfish for all the failure that has come as a result. Right now, I'm waiting to be called back so I can confess my failure to my GP (whom I highly respect) and score more speed. Spilling all these words onto the forum is making me feel less wretched, so thank you for that opportunity.
  3. I’m hopeful

    That’s awesome!!
  4. Going back to work...

    Thank you so much for these words! I survived! It wasn’t one bit of fun, but I made it!
  5. Going back to work...

    I’ve been off adderall for 3 weeks now and was fortunate to be able to take off work. Today is my first day back and I’m SO anxious. I want so badly to call my doctor, schedule an appointment, and refill my prescription. Any words of advice and/or encouragement would be greatly appreciated!!
  6. Started off great, recovery now getting harder

    You’re so right. I might actually get off the couch and do a chore or two this morning. Thanks for the motivation!!
  7. Quitting adderall podcasts?

    I’ve searched and haven’t found any :/
  8. Finally Ready To Quit, But Terrified

    We have quite a bit in common! I'm 32, single, and NEED to quit. My useage started getting out of control in grad school and it's still out of control now that I'm working. Be careful with Wellbutrin. I tried it and it made things worse for me. If you want a friend to check in with, feel free to message me and I'll give you my contact info ❤️
  9. Losing Touch with Reality....Again

    That's a really good point. I imagine I could even fake some sort of event to give me an excuse for slacking. I wish we weren't in this situation, but it's really helpful to know I'm not alone. It's encouraging to know that I'm not the only one who takes stupid amounts and cant, under any circumstances, completely fall apart. Maybe if we keep in contact, even if just to complain, we'll have better luck.
  10. Losing Touch with Reality....Again

    This is me, almost identically. I finished a master's program recently and I'm stuck in the same cycle. I'm just now realized how out of control it is. I can't just quit, my career doesn't allow for that kind of crash. As I get down to the final 3.5 pills I come back to this predictable. I'm afraid.
  11. Work = My new unfavorite thing

    Yes! I have those exact same thoughts. Anytime a task requires much thought and/or effort I crave it and doubt that I'll ever be able to do it. I see people who are very productive and efficient and I'm convinced they must be on's like I've completely lost faith in human willpower.
  12. I think I misplaced my spine

    Yes!!! I feel the same way. Every single thing I do is a task to get through and when I'm doing one task, I'm thinking bout other things I could/should be doing instead. I'm finally getting serious about quitting...I hope.
  13. Snorting ~150mg Adderall every day that I can

    You are not alone. I definitely have similar problems, especially the lack of self-respect.
  14. From abuse, to therapeutic use, to quitting?

    Long story short, I'm in a situation similar to your's. I'm just now reaching the point where I'm can acknowledge the effects of Adderall on my personality and identify that bad feeling that surrounds quitting as fear. I started kind of setting up my environment for when I'm going to HAVE to break out my chameleon skills and blend in with daily life enough to pass for 'normal.' I would love to have a support type group. As much as I avoid human interaction now, knowing that I'm not the only person to feel this way keeps me hopeful.