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  1. Welcome mcmc. Smart move on the FMLA. Def see if your doctor will back you working from home for a month too. Good plan. I’m also an IT Analyst and also took for over ten years. I’ve been off for two years now. I kept my job but my reputation suffered because of my slower job performance. I don’t enjoy my job but it does pay decent so I stay. I’m curious if you leave your job what will you do? To answer your question, Wellbutrin seems to help people come off adderall because there is a bit of a stimulant effect with it. I’m excited for you to rediscover true connections with people again! You’re doing the right thing by quitting. Please keep us posted on your journey!
  2. Cocoa powder in coffee

    Frank are you still doing this? I think I may try this. Do you notice any difference from the MCT?
  3. Tired of Being Tired

    Thanks for your response. I haven’t always been this tired in my recovery so that is the good news. You’re right I’m probably just In a rut. And it makes a lot of sense what you say about how when you find something you are passionate about it lights up that inner drive. I hadn’t thought of that. You have some really good ideas. Adderall made me feel excited about things artificially. So off of adderall I’m no longer interested in what I was interested in while I was on and I feel lost. I’m going to work on finding things I’m passionate about naturally and see if I can’t break myself out of this. Good job on being off addy and I hope you break out of your rut too.
  4. Tired of Being Tired

    Guess I just need to vent because I know there is no solution to being tired all the time. If you know a magic recipe to naturally increasing energy I am desperate to try anything. I’m much older now than before I got hooked. But I have been off for 2 years and 3 months and I feel tired all the time and all I want to do when I have spare time is rest. Is this normal or could I still be experiencing the aftermath of being on adderall for 12 years? Maybe this is the way people who were never addicted to adderall feel at age 44? maybe it’s hormonal? For the past two years I have allowed myself to be as lazy as I wanted. But I’m beginning to wonder if I am ever going to feel natural energy again. Is it all downhill from here?
  5. 1 Year Free!!!

    Congrats on all your hard work! I know it feels good to have this accomplishment. Way to go!
  6. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    BK you have things you want to do and that sounds promising. You can do those things later when your physical body catches up with your ambition. Looking back on my recovery I have a different perspective. I think that recovering from long term adderall use is similar to being in a bad car accident and should be treated as such. When I first got hooked on adderall my addiction was so strong I decided I would take it until death. But I was forced to quit because of the physical side effects. Sometimes I think about what it would be like to get back on. But after reading people’s relapse experiences on this forum I know that’s a bad idea. I don’t ever want to have to quit this stuff ever again. You have made it so far. You should be patting yourself on the back.
  7. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    BK I’m so sorry you are in the midst of this. Give yourself permission to feel the way you do because it’s part of the recovery process and you are doing the right thing staying off of adderall. I was where you are at too at one time and it feels like it will be like this forever but it will get better. After about twelve years of use, I’ve been off for 2 years and 3 months I can finally say that I’ve turned a corner in my recovery. And you will too. It just takes a long time. I’m over here pulling for you. It’s okay to rest. You need it. Hang in there. You can do this.
  8. Is it worth visiting a Neurologist?

    I hear ya. I thought about going to one too. Here is why I haven’t: no matter what they say I am staying off any prescription mind altering drugs. Also the tests that they would have to run to diagnose anything are too expensive out of pocket (My mom has Alzheimer’s and to diagnose her it took 4 different tests, one of them cost $2,500 out of pocket luckily she has Medicare). And I will bet you a million dollars that insurance won’t pay for those tests just because we took adderall for a decade and “suspect we have brain damage”. Maybe in a country with universal healthcare It might be different I don’t know. I just don’t see the value in it. I have a strong suspicion that if I went and said “hey doc I took adderall for 12 years and my Mom has Alzheimer’s and I’m worried I will get it too. What can you do for me?” I bet they can’t do a darn thing. But then I could be wrong. If you decide to go please share your experience with us.
  9. What's the craziest thing you did on Adderall?

    There is so much because I was on it for such a long time. The most recent nutty thing i remember toward the end of my use was that I was convinced that the United States was about to be hit by an EMP while I was at work. So I packed hiking boots, water, and an emergency bug out back pack with city street maps, food etc. and kept it in my car. I wanted to make sure I had proper shoes to get me to the daycare to pick up my son when it happened. Because the EMP was going to fry my car. I pictured myself hiking across the dark city and freeways of fried cars to get my son. I considered bringing my bike with me to work everyday but I couldn’t figure out how to do it practically without it getting stolen.
  10. Adderall Recovery Guide

    That site works. Thanks.
  11. Adderall Recovery Guide

    I tried to go to that website, but I suspect that website Is blocked in America. I get a dns error.. Here in America there is a cold medication with that same name and it contains speed. At least that is what I found just now when I googled it.
  12. Adderall Recovery Guide

    Isn’t that just a super mild form of speed?
  13. New day, same results.

    I don’t have the answer but I know it’s not Adderall. I sometimes feel the same way as you. I took for 12 years been off 2 years. I am so lazy I lounge any chance I get. Energy is so low I think it has to be partly a result of getting older too. Younger people seem to have more resilience when it comes to getting off Adderall. You know going back to Adderall is gonna be - they say all your side effects come back right away and you don’t get the honey moon again. So basically you would just be picking up where you left off in your use. Which was a place that was so bad it made you want to quit. And you’d be back to square one but have to go through withdrawals all over again. Just skip all that pain and stay off.
  14. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    Yes I probably gained about ten pounds in the first three months. I gained approx 15 pounds total but then lost five after my appetite went back to normal. I think it took about a year or so but it’s different for everybody.
  15. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    It will pass. I remember being in the stage you are in. your appetite will go back to normal slowly the longer you stay away from the drug. It just takes time. That’s why you should not go back. You don’t want to have to go through this all over again. You’re doing great. Working out everyday is a major accomplishment. you should be proud. Keep it up. It will pay off. I gained total of about 10-12 lbs net since I quit. I’ve been off for two years now after taking them for twelve.. I’m not super skinny anymore. I have to watch my weight like regular non addy people now. But My appetite is not out of control anymore. a little bit of weight gain is worth it to have an adderall free life. So keep doing what you are doing. And remember that some people gain weight at first and then lose it all after being off for a while. (Btw one thing that helped me when I was super hungry all the time was to eat a lot of high fiber foods because it helps you stay full longer because of all the bulk. Like prunes, oatmeal, veggies and stuff like that.)