Thank you all. Its been 90 days now. Doing well. Only missed it once and that was on vacation. Probably as it was my first vacation without adderall in 11 years. Sun sand kids not a good combo....but I made it through. I really dont miss it as I know it brought voices and a mental ward...so alipping up does not sound like a fun option. I did make it 6 weeks off my antiphychotic....wanted to get off due to how those affect your metabolism. Voices came back with a vengence. Strangly enough its the neighbors voices I hear in my head. Judging me, picking on me, and bothering me. Not sure if adderall caused my brain to break or if it woupd have happened anyway. So back on antiphychotic. A lower dose, but still a little bummed going off did not work. Im 20Lbs or so heavier and that is hard to choke down. None of my clothes fit....had to go out and buy all new clothes. Hoping I can lose some by starting a low carb diet. Oyherwise Im happy and feel God led me here. I am free from addiction now and theres a whole lot to be said for that.
Luv to all. I can finally say I sinned but I beat it in heaven. Im looking forward to that moment.....it could have been different.