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  1. Great things about not taking adderall

    Laughing and a return of a sense of humor! Didn't even know it had gone!
  2. depression Life ruined?

    Yup. Agree with you 100%. I'm just at 3 months after being on for 17 years. Unbelievable really. And what I just realized after reading your post is that I felt like Adderall made me like or enjoy myself and being by myself, now being by myself...I am really BY MY SELF and it does feel really really alone...lonely. But don't have energy or motivation to do anything about it... Definitely good and bad days. Physically I can't imagine taking that stuff again...that's the part I have to remember when feeling like this...good luck to all of us.
  3. I'm curious what made other people quit or think about quitting Adderall. Why? It's hard to find Dr's or medical info that demonize it and so much info hails it, so what made you feel you needed to quit or want to quit? AND, if you quit, did quitting rectify your issue or problem?
  4. Testosterone boosters?

    I adored Suicidal Tendencies...been a long while since I've heard them mention...haha great memories
  5. Wholly crap. I'm sorry you went through that, glad your off.
  6. 100 and 10% agree with you. I was suicidial on birth control...hmm doctors NEVER mention this when telling you to take, same with Effexor when trying to get off (10000x worse than getting off Adderall). I'm now 100% prescription drug free. I was a pharmaceutical rep and believe most docs are money hungry ignorant pricks...glad you have a friend that isn't! Keep him!
  7. Hitting One Month w No Adderall

    Sorry, internet connection at my house is ridiculously nonexistent and lately zero motivation to even attempt to get online. Now feels like nothing is working, plus husband was home during Irma (usually he's out of town) and we ate worse and drank, and I stopped walking the dog as much. Walked 3 miles yesterday, but been a rough spell. And I know it has 100% to do with food and drink I am or am not putting in my body AND exercising, easy to get off track and then feel defeated, which is a bad place to be. Wanting to want to start working out! And toyed with getting on an antidepressant again, took myself off Wellbutrin 4 years ago ....Who knows , hope you are doing well.
  8. I hear ya. I was in high end medical sales, always looked good for my age, fit. Not even sure how or why I got an rx over 10 years ago, but just quit a month ago today. FYI I found out the hard way it really messes with hormones
  9. Finally Ready To Quit, But Terrified

    Yes it is scary. It's scary as shit. It's only been 1 month for me, and I've been on it for over 10+ years. Everything you think Adderall is making better in your life is a facade. I didn't know this but my husband reminds me because I like to "glamourize" my adderall self...apparently my adderall self was not as spectacular as I thought....and I'm actually ok w/o...hard to stomach or believe. AND. It will mess up your hormones big time...
  10. Hitting One Month w No Adderall

    CONGRATS. It's been 1 month for me today also! The book someone recommended The Mood Cure help me a lot explaining whys, what to try etc. I took L-Tyrosine for first 2 weeks then felt like it stopped, switched to SAM-e and today switch back to both. I try to not concentrate on weight gain, but I also don't let myself have any crap food in the house, so when I snack or graze all night it is on grapes, nuts, raisins...otherwise I know eating crappy would make me feel worse. I also quit drink the same time, because I know if I drank, I'd feel like crap in am and want to get adderall to get me out of hard to have quit both and I definitely miss adderall 100 times more than alcohol.... Getting outside and my dog help through the crappy days...yesterday was hell. Today was fabulous! Guess that's part of it.
  11. Difficult Day

    Good for you on month 2. I just finish week 2 and feels like every hour is a mood change. And yes the tight clothes can always get me. I've got to start working out...never had to before, but would probably help with more than weight ... good luck to you also.
  12. Ears ringing

    Hmmm....something else to add to the growing list of Adderall side effects I didn't know about... I've had tinnitus for a while. It is constantly with me....I guess I've actually gotten used to it. Didn't know this was Adderall too... 2 week quit and still ringing...
  13. Whoever recommended the book The Mood Cure, thank you! First of all it has been 7 days since I decided to quit and had my last Adderall 8 days ago...after never even considering the idea a year ago. ( been on for 17 years) I know it ain't even close to being over and may never be over, HOWEVER...for me setting myself up to succeed was crucial. I knew if I continued to drink alcohol every night and eat like crap, that I'd feel like crap and that would be all I would need for an excuse to "just get back on Adderall". So for me it was paramount to make my new obsession only eating good for me stuff and not drinking alcohol. In a week, which feels like forever, it's been ups and downs, and like someone else also said on here...Adderall masked any of the "downs" and getting used to self motivating. But right now, (and yes, I know I'm still honeymooning-yesterday sucked) Just feeling a little bit better AND the feeling of accomplishment of doing it for one week, feels really good. I HATE having something control me and me getting mad at adderall AND being armed with the vitamins, etc from the Mood Cure book I feel I am setting myself up for success. Seriously a good read book! And I thought I'd never be able to read without Adderall! HA!...obviously today is a good day.
  14. I've been attempting to quit for a couple of months. Down to 20-30 mg /day. Does anyone think Adderall causes thyroid and/or adrenal problems? I have over researched this to the point of confusion and am afraid from what I've read that I can make it worse. My neck/throat area sometimes feels like it has a pulsing heartbeat and is really sore when I wake up, plus my body is always really hot, but feet and hands sometime cold. Like temperature gauge is off. 1. If stop Adderall cold turkey can this possible cause irreparable damage? 2. Any books or website suggestions for a SIMPLE TO FOLLOW, step by step on how to safely heal, help and/or repair any thyroid and/or adrenal problems. Like I said I have over bombarded myself with information and feel stuck. This really is the pits. Tired of Adderall totally taking up my life...whether obsessing about not using it, then if I take it, obsessing and beat myself up for succumbing, then off to obsessively clean house and do more research! I've killed 100's of trees with all my printed info on this crap..
  15. Yup. I told my new functional medicine doctor that has taken over my rx that my plan was to get off of it...I just wasn't sure when or how it was going to play out for me. The day before it was to be filled, of course, I was already out and...low and behold all day no "thyroid-y, adrenal" feelings. Adderall was physically making me feel really bad and wrecking havoc on my hormones. And not that there may not be flare up in the future, but cause and effect was definitely there and all fingers pointed to adderall, I just wasn't ready to see it. I'm pretty hard headed and determined when I want to be. I'm not mad at any one other than myself for not really seeing it sooner and mad enough that I don't want this shit to own another day of my life. Yup we'll see in a month, 2 months, 6 months, a year...but today I'm 100% done. Husband, family and friends know, so got some accountability with them too.
  16. So at 12:30pm today I tore up my rx that was to be filled tomorrow. Screw Adderall. Screw doctors. Screw taking the last 17 years of my life. I am done with you Adderall. I will not be owned by you any more.
  17. Using Wellbutrin to help quit

    Ugh...that's what I'm going to see about getting. Just had genesight done to see what meds I can use with little or less side effects, to help me get off Adderall. I've been on 17 year and know it ain't gonna be easy....never seems like a good time.
  18. That's one of the problems...I'm on Doctor #3 that I've told about this and no one is concerned. I've stopped taking supplements so I get an accurate reading and am going to order blood test on my own. How long, on average, has anyone been off adderall and started to see and feel an improvement in their health? I know the depression will be difficult, but just wondering about our bodies ability to rebound from this shit.
  19. This is the first day I have admitted I want to stop taking Adderall. I wouldn't be able to read this site, much less post without the 10mg I took this am. I have a prescription for 40mg for last 6 months, been on 20-30mg for 15+ years. It didn't feel like it became an issue until last 2-3 yrs with continued unresolved health issues. I've tried to address everything else that could be wrong, NEVER willing to look at Adderall or even let it be considered. I just never thought other people also had a problem even doing the basics without Adderall. When I run out which is every time, I can't won't even answer the phone and severely isolate. Thank God I have a huge dog that has to be walked, so I'm getting 2-3 miles a day. I petrified to tell my husband I am considering getting off this stuff for fear he'll hold me to it or be disappointed if I don't. Fortunately I have zero responsibilities (excluding the DOG!) and no excuses not to stop. I have started addressing nutritional health to combat hormonal issues, so I'm hoping this will help....I'm guessing we'll see.
  20. Told husband, also asked prescriber to take rx down to 30mg. I started going to a functional medicine dr. For help with hormone imbalance and she wanted to change me to Vyvance, which I knew nothing about until looking up afterwards... it does amaze me even the " healthy" medical community has NO IDEA how horrid this stuff is ...looked like Vyvance would just be a different version of the same. Not easy to try to get off when no one I've seen in the medical community thinks there is anything wrong with adderall.
  21. How Can This Possibly Be 8 Years Later?

    Wow. Articulated well...
  22. Hope you doing ok. I got through 5 days and caved. I am taking less than I was and am aware, which it sounds like you are as well. The thing that hit me about your post is when you said you feel more outgoing, sillier and laughing off the adderall. I didn't know Adderall would/could take that part away.... I definitely feel like my personality, "fun-ness". Is gone...I just never thought to blame it on adderall. It is encouraging to hear that you are getting some positives from quitting. I'm gonna try to set myself up to quit, again when my husband leaves in a week.....
  23. Day!

    What sucks is this is how I was pre-Adderall. Zero motivation, always tired, looking for next nap, always felt like my brain wasn't getting enough oxygen, foggy. And why Adderall seemed like a life saver. I don't want to go back to being a walking zombie, but don't like the seemingly recent side effects of Adderall I've been experiencing and petrified of the long term side effects I never let myself read about... Question? Is low dose (10mg) safer as far as long term side effects? And if you take breaks? Or is there a safer alternative? I've never taken anything but Adderall for ADD and have decided I am NOT going to be a slave to any drug. Adderall is the last prescription medication I am on. Took myself off everything else doctors have put me on years ago. Any comments on what's worked, hadn't worked, etc.
  24. Day!

    Thanks all and sorry, my non adderall brain did not pick up on title of this particular forum and just mindlessly posted. I suspect just about every problem I am having can be attributed to adderall...It would certainly be "nice" if those problems would magically disappear to confirm that going through the horrid experience of quitting is a means to an end. Just some wishful thinking. I sooooo do not trust that Dr's really have a clue or else they would never rx this stuff. I'm gonna make an appt to see about getting rx for 10mg instead of 20mg. I did notice when first started 20mg I felt really "off".
  25. Day!

    Yes Subtracterall...age....I'm turning 50 this year, which in itself is extremely depressing. And yes, hormone issues that I've been trying to address with Bioidentical Hormones, which supposedly work wonders for just more side effects. Started eating better which helps, except in the 4 days that I've quit I have reverted back to crap. It was the vanity stuff that 1st had me look at Adderall as a possible culprit. Funny....never heard of oxidative stress, but in looking at my face, that's what comes to mind. My face looks much older than women of my same age, not my body. I feel old and worn out. Even though shouldn't kids, no real stress,... Some stupid song keeps repeating in my head today..."How do I live without you? I want to know" Vomit. How sad too, Doctors are really scary. I've told all that I take Adderall and never any suggestion to look at it... Sorry kind of all over the place, and just on sofa today...