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About Once_Again_a_Dreamer

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  1. On Ughhh Days..

    I can definitely relate to your experience. I'm only 2-3 months clean (but I never really used more than 40-60mg per day--100mg one time landed me in the ER--so maybe I'm having a more ok time with withdrawal than some others that were I to 100+ daily) but the fatigue is unmistakable. Do do you ever wonder if it's just in our heads, though? For some people with ADD, 60mg daily is a normal dose, and they manage to go off of it to have kids, take a break, retire, whatever...and I doubt they struggle with debilitating fatigue for years afterwards, or else they wouldn't do it. Maybe it's just our lasting memory of being like Superman, occasional wistful adderall thoughts, that dupe us into reading too deeply into occasional tiredness? This is certainly not to minimize your (and my) struggle with those ugh days. They're plenty real!
  2. That weighted down sloth like feeling

    When exciting things are happening, like on the weekends, I seem normal and energized. I sleep excessively during the week. Wake up at 7am with husband, but then when he goes to work I'll be back in bed sleeping again until 11 (luckily since I work in education I have the summer off.) It's only been 2 months. I hope this doesn't last a year...
  3. 64 days

    Good for you! I'm at around the same point--2ish months clean. The only problem I'm having is STILL sleeping 12 hours a day. Even with caffeine. I don't know when I'll get back to normal energy levels.
  4. Strange habits after quitting? Nail biting

    Hey everyone, I was wondering if anyone else has a similar experience: my entire life I bit my fingernails without being able to ever kick the habit (tried really hard too!), then during my adderall/Ritalin years I stopped biting completely without even realizing it. On adderall, I never had the urge to bite them. It's always about 1-2 weeks after taking my last pill that the nail biting starts again. And obviously it's not as easy as just saying "hey self, don't bite your nails" otherwise nobody would bite their nails in the first place. Have you had similar quirks or habits? Any advice for how to not start biting my nails again this time around? So far I'm just on a general will power/ rewards system (there's a manicure in my future.) And anyone know why this is? This compulsive habit magically stops on adderall, but adderall isn't a good solution. Thanks!
  5. constipation?

    Drink a lot of water. Morning coffee should help too. The fruits and veggies part is probably pretty true. I've been vegetarian for years and I'm ok after quitting, I still go every day. I do drink lots of water though.
  6. Will the drive ever come back?

    (Once I have kids. ;-)
  7. Will the drive ever come back?

    That's so sad that even kids with ADD, prescribed this drug since childhood, can still end up getting addicted. Wow, your story was eye-opening for me. I have two sisters who were prescribed adderall since they were 7 or 8. My mom took their pills a few times and liked the feeling, then got her own script and gave me some pills when I was in college and I liked it, then got my own script. Two of us prescribed since childhood, two of us who could just fake symptoms as adults. I think of my older sister who's still on it, who doesn't really seem any better off after all these years, and wonder if she too struggles with the urge to take some extra pills every now and then, and with the fear of developing addiction. To a substance a doctor gave her when she was 8. I guess I thought people with obvious ADD just don't get addicted to this stuff like my mom and I did. They always say it doesn't make them feel good. Well, I'd never let my kids go on it.
  8. 7 weeks in, feeling sluggish still but looking younger?

    This is good to know! I just quit last week and my wedding is in 2 months. Maybe I'll really like the pictures :-D
  9. France ADHD treatment for children

    I live in France. I was the ONLY customer of my pharmacy (so, the entire highly populated city neighborhood) with a Ritalin prescription. Adderall doesn't exist here. I always had to drop it off and wait until the next day for the pills. Crazy, huh? No kids on ADHD pills, never mind adults. The psych only prescribed it because I said I was American and I'd had it for years at home. The pharmacists treated me a little bit like a whack job or a criminal sometimes.
  10. Excessive fatigue

    Agreed. Lower your expectations for yourself. Each time I've taken an extended break from pills (this time I hope to make it lasting!) if I find myself chastising myself for laying around all day I say "hey, laying around daydreaming sober is still better than being active and taking drugs." It's 12:30pm here and I'm not dressed for the day yet. Spending time with friends helps me a lot. I forget about being in withdrawal when I start laughing :-)
  11. Dopa Mucuna 15% L-Dopa

    Really? I have a bottle sitting on my shelf but it didn't seem that effective. Does it work right away or do you need to try it a few days in a row to see any effect?
  12. Holy Shit! 9 Months!

    Congratulations! I'm only on day 6. Thanks for sharing your experience.
  13. Adderall quitting body cleanse?!

    I don't think cleanses really work. Maybe just eat healthy, take a multivitamin, and drink a lot of water. Otherwise I like making herbal teas and tinctures from burdock root or milk thistle. They're supposedly cleansing too. I've never felt a difference but I like the taste.
  14. macca

    I take Maca daily in hopes of getting pregnant in the next few months! A Peruvian girl I know swears it works that way :-D no, I get no kind of energy or focus from it at all. It's just a root vegetable, after all.
  15. Quitting before a deadline

    The thesis defense went fine and my paper was a lot better than passing. I realize now I really would've been fine without drugging myself all year. In fact, my thinking processes on stimulants probably aren't the best for writing. I think this stuff inhibits creativity. You end up running really fast and huffing and puffing and getting...not very far.