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  1. A Future Worth Traveling To

    A Future Worth Traveling To is Reserved for those who have the Capacity and or willingness to plan for it....... The defeating thought that I keep having as I struggle with the ability to recognize which action to take next. This executive functioning/adulting seems almost unattainable. Feel like I have the mind of a child.
  2. Saying Goodbye to My Charisma Candy

    Very thoughtful, well written Post. You have a gift. Can you relate to the 8 stages of amphetamine abuse?
  3. Books about adderall addiction: Any Suggestions

    Great Book:
  4. Article: Scariest Drug

    Cheerio, I definitely had this experience. It was Ritalin though. I was First Prescribed end of 10th grade in 1988. (Yes, I went to High School with Jesus) I used to give more of my prescription away than I actually took myself. I distinctly remember complaining to my folks that the medication Vulcanized me and I didn't like it. I also remember the 'well it's like a diabetic who needs insulin' mantra being thrown back at me. Adderall reared its ugly head in my life about 12 years later and it was love at first bite.
  5. I did it!

    Shambo, You are an inspiration. Thank You for sharing your strength with us!
  6. The truth about psych meds

    Dr. Kelly Brogan is interviewed by Joe Rogan. *This is an excerpt from a much longer interview that is also fascinating. Heads Up: there is some rough language.....
  7. Article: Scariest Drug

    Yah it seems to be something about how Adderall is so wrapped up in goal achievement and success as it relates to day to day living that makes it so evil.
  8. Article: Scariest Drug

    Why Adderall is the only drug that scares me:
  9. Great Post LiLTex! Thank You
  10. Their is a book called Ball Four which is an autobiography by professional pitcher Jim Bouton written in 1970. Dextroamphetamine which at the time were referred to on the street as Greenies and pretty much identical to Adderall.....were used far and wide by professional athletes. Here is a quote from that Book. "some of the guys have to take one just to get their hearts to start beating. I've taken Greenies but the trouble with them is that they make you feel so great that you think you're really smoking the ball even when you're not. They give you a false sense of security. The result is is that you get gay, throw it down the middle and get clobbered."
  11. Must Read Book

    Anyone who wants a better "deep dive" understanding of this Insidious drug needs to read "ON SPEED THE MANY LIVES OF AMPHETAMINE" By Nicolas Rasmussen. Goes into depth of the history/discovery and how it was marketed and sold to the masses. It was used extensively on both sides during World War II and was the first anti depressant. If you think their is an Adderall epidemic now you will be shocked to learn it was alot worse......
  12. Relapse Damage

    Onsomething, thank you for having the courage to come on the forum and share your experiences. I think most would agree that the more time this drug is out of our systems the more clearly we can see how damaging it was to our lives.....Your right, Adderall really is like a devil out to ruin our lives.....
  13. Relapse Damage

    I think some people think that if you can successfully stay within the parameters of your prescribed amount that somehow that doesn't constitute abuse. If you take speed on a consistent basis for several months and or years on end that is abuse in my view. I don't think just because you stick to the MG amount as deemed appropriate by your Dealer in the white coat that this changes. I have known a 6 year old girl who was prescribed 80 MG of IR a day! I was 30 Year Old and 180 LB's and prescribed 40 MG of IR a day. Both abuse in my book. The length of time you take this drug may be more dangeous than the amount you take (within reason). Is 80 or 100 MG a day for a year worse than 40 MG for a decade? If I follow the advice if my Meth Dealer and don't exceed the recommended dosing schedule a is it abuse? On Something, thank you for sharing your relapse story with us, stay strong, many of us have relapsed. Perhaps it is a blessing that you didn't stick to the prescribed dosing schedule, that may have turned out much worse.....
  14. What do you think?

    I really didn't like the way I felt the few times I exceeded the 40 MG of IR Per Day. I felt like I was going to grind my teeth right out of my head..........but 40 MG a day of speed every day for a decade was clearly abuse and it abused me. It completely warped my perception of the world and caused me to make bad decisions very efficiently. Getting off of it was the hardest thing I have ever done. Even the most mundane tasks like making a phone call or brushing my teeth felt like a monumental undertaking.......
  15. What do you think?

    I don't remember exceeding 40 MG of IR a day. 2 x 20 IR a day. I think I may have taken an extra 10MG by cutting them in half if I had had a really late night of drinking to much. Exceeding 40mg was rare. A big problem for me was that Adderall accelerated my use of alcohol and nicotine to an extreme degree. *I would argue that 40 MG of Speed every day for years on end is abuse in itself regardless if it was following the parameters of a prescription or not....