Hopeful&determimed

I did number 1 on this list (cutting off your doctor) November 2016 and had my husband with me for accountability and to make sure I went thru with it. I was coming up on a year clean and took on a 2nd job that I felt I would not be able to perform without help so I went to another doctor that within 15 minutes into the appointment, I was walking out with a prescription. The dr even asked me, “how many milligrams do you think you will need?” I was blown away. But of course I told myself I would only use it when I was at my 2nd only. That lasted for 1 week. I flushed the rest of the script and felt hopeful. Then a week afterwards, started counting down to when I could get my next script filled. We all know how the story goes from there. I am now just scared to tell my hubby but feel like he will have to come with me to this next doctor and tell them not to prescribe this med to me. One of the major drawbacks for me is that I’m in the health field and really hate for my addiction to be in records because I hold a license.... feels good to just share.

So glad I found this site. It’s so nice to read and know I’m not alone. Thanks for sharing it really gives me HOPE.