JF99

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  1. 311 days off of Adderall.. My depression doesn’t seem to be getting better so I have an appointment with a therapist next week. What medications have you used post Adderall that worked for depression? I’d like to have some sort of plan going in so I don’t ask for Adderall. I tried WellButrin for a month earlier this year and didn’t really like it.
  2. Three Years Free

    Needed this today. I’m 11 months in and I want to go back on Adderall. Thank you.
  3. Unexpected Triggers and Coping

    Today was a huge trigger for me. So crazy you posted about this right now. The last time I was in the classroom teaching I had Adderall. Today was the first day EVER that I’ve been teaching in a classroom without it. I wasn’t expecting the trigger, but it sucks...
  4. 15 Months (457 Days) Clean

    I’m 9 months into recovery and feeling like crap. Your post brings me hope. Thank you!
  5. Good luck! I think it’s a good idea you are taking a month off. I was on the drug for about a decade as well. The first month detoxing isn’t pretty. I was bedridden for at least a month. I could barely shower those days. The second month started to get better. Soldier through that first month and power on!!
  6. What motivates you to stay clean?

    On days I was taking 100mg of Adderall, my blood pressure was at emergency room levels - really, really high. As much as I am still struggling right now, having to worry about having a stroke or heart attack isn’t high up on my list anymore like it was when I was poppin.
  7. I tried tapering. It lasted about two weeks before I was forced to go cold turkey because my pdoc quit without notice. I don’t know if I would have been able to taper down for months. My self control isn’t the best...
  8. Tiredofit

    Take that step, baby!!!!
  9. Finally quitting after 4 years

    There’s good news: You were only on Adderall for 4 years, so you may have a quicker time adjusting to life without it than I am. I was on it for over a decade and I’m almost 5 months clean. It stinks, but taking 100mg of Adderall a day was completely destroying me - and killing me. Good for you for taking action now!
  10. Relapsed after more than four months

    All I have to say is this could be me. I am between the 4 and 5 month mark and I could easily go down the same path. I’ve had a tough week and I’m craving so badly. My only saving grace is that I’m a f*cking loner and don’t know anyone that would give me pills. Last night I dreamt of buckets of orange Adderall pills being given to me by some guy on a college campus. This wasn’t a nightmare for me. It was f*cking heaven. It’s bad how much I still romanticize over something that has been slowly destroying my life for years. I encourage you to write more. It’s helpful for all of us.
  11. Great post and great reminders. Thank you for sharing!
  12. 23 months clean on my birthday

    Happy birthday!
  13. Good thread starter. As an alcoholic, I can show up to any number of AA meetings and get the support I need. Adderall addiction is on the other end of the spectrum. These past four months have been lonely as hell. I think most of the NA meetings around here cater to opoid addicts. Stimulant addiction is barely talked about because the focus is all on opoids. The only real support I’ve found has been this forum.
  14. Feeling Lonely

    Hey Drew, You are so very young at 27! My friends are all far away with kids, so I don’t have many friends here either. Everyone is too busy. It would be nice to have more people to talk to. I will be your friend!
  15. I tore my entire bathroom apart thinking there were cameras in the sockets (and everywhere else in the house). My husband came home and had to fix it all. I told him to never speak of it again...because days later, I knew that was a full blown psychotic episode.
  16. New day, same results.

    I will say one thing: I understand that addiction affects everyone, but unless you are an addict yourself, you will NEVER, and I mean NEVER, understand our daily struggles.
  17. Experience smoking meth

    I’m right there with you. I should probably avoid bars, but I have a passion for music...and guess where most of that takes place? Bars.
  18. Experience smoking meth

    It’s only one day, Sean. I hope you’re back to a clean break, today. I’ve always been curious how meth compares to Adderall. Thanks for sharing this.
  19. Loss of smell/taste?

    I’m almost 4 months in withdrawal and I was thinking to myself that all the Triscuit flavors I’ve been having taste the same.
  20. Clavicula, I completely feel your pain. Some of the timelines that people give out are truly discouraging. It’s been three months for me and I don’t know how much more of this sloth status I can take. You sound like an intelligent individual. The first few days coming off a drug is always the toughest. Once you get past that, you can join me in the slightly unbearable sloth status category.
  21. LiberatedMind, I feel for you. I am 3 months into recovery and the anhedonia is absolutely crippling. Occasionally a day will be presented to me where I’m not so miserable. All we can hope for is more days like this to come...
  22. Way to go, Jason. Happy to see this news!
  23. Three years down

    3 years!! What an accomplishment! Thank you for sharing. I was needing this today after stuffing my 6th post Adderall cupcake in my face.
  24. I really need to keep reminding myself of this. ^^^ The last couple years of my Adderall use involved taking 60mg or so just to get up and shower. How pathetic! ..and 80 of the last 83 days of abstinence have at one point involved me saying “I miss Adderall.”
  25. I’m on day 80 and I still have a ravenous appetite. It really sucks.