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It's frightening! Hell I could sit down for 6-8 hours straight playing MW2 or zombies or really any video game. It seems as if after Adderall, I just can't anymore. It's awful as even things I love like video games and movies just seem like they'll take so much effort and that I am incapable of playing them, yet I had no problem doing that until this past year.

You're so right! Whenever I'm backed against a wall with a deadline for anything, I'm able to get it done without an issue, even if I've procrastinated for weeks. I guess I really need to bite the bullet and harness the inner motivation I know that I have to apply it in a way that I don't need to be in those situations. I'm gonna stop being soft and push myself to go to the gym every single day, no matter how tired or unmotivated I am. I thank you for the words of motivation. Once I show myself that it's not impossible, I hope it'll put me on a much better track.

That's what I really hope to be my man. I want to build up self-control and mindfulness to be able build myself a much better study/homework plan for next year so that I don't have to take meds at all. It started off fine, I've been on them for about four years and didn't really have a problem until I started seeing that I was taking my meds and telling myself I had all this work to do. In reality, the workload wasn't awful and I shouldn't have needed them, but I started to get to a point where my baseline mood and motivation was being on these pills and after that it just became the only thing that could push me to do anything.

So I went cold turkey off Adderall, Vyvanse, and Mydayis after a brutal finals week brought me to my worst physical and mental state. It’s been a little over three weeks and I haven’t touched anything. I wasn’t as tired as I thought I’d be upon returning home for the summer, was fine hanging out with friends and all that. It seems that in the past week or so, even after 10-11 hours of sleep, my energy seems to “deplete” around 2-3pm leaving me with no choice other than to lay in bed and then fall asleep for a few hours. I’m still able to sleep at night regardless of the naps too. I’m taking vitamins and eating great too. I’ve started to drink coffee (although i’m iffy on caffeine based on my history with stimulants especially caffeine itself) to keep me at a somewhat normal energy level through the afternoons. Other than that, my interest/motivation levels SUCK, which is what is the hardest part and edging me closer to taking my meds again. Unless I’m with friends I sit around and do nothing, I don’t even have motivation to go downstairs and play Xbox or pursue things that I want. Does anyone have ANY tips to help me with this?? It’s unbearable you know? That feeling where you want to do so much but just can’t and it’s awful that I know stimulants were that tool to just lock me into anything and make me enjoy it no matter what it was. Thank you guys