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  1. I was having real anxiety about interviews writing this. Yes the doctor was out of control on the prescription but he also knew how tired I was and didn’t know what else to do because all tests he gave came back normal. I have finally found a doctor that is both an MD and holistic doctor. He knows a lot about gut health and brain chemistry and unfortunately it’s going to take time to heal that. I never took more than 60mg before pregnancy. I had a life threatening childbirth that really messed up my gut. That’s when I wasn’t able to get out of bed from fatigue. The adderall was all I had to make it from day to day. I definitely can never go through this last year again so will be giving this a shot for another year, I feel more positive things will change. Thanks for the encouragement.
  2. I agree with you - I have come this far and this year was hell. I don’t want to start at square one again. That’s really interesting about going back and needing the same amount as when you stopped. I do feel good when I exercise, I just need to make myself because like I mentioned, I have no motivation to do anything. Thanks for your response.
  3. I’d like to share the symptoms I’m having a year after going off adderall and want to see if anyone feels the same. A little back ground on my use. I took adderall for 11 years. During that time I had an awesome life and a successful career at a large company. After having a child, I started to get extreme fatigue. My doctor prescribed me 120mg a day to manage. Working a high stress corporate job, dealing with a bad marriage, having a newborn, and dealing with health issues really started to make life too much. I felt like my adderall stopped working. For the first time, I began to take more than my prescription. I didn’t like the person I was becoming so I quit my job and went for a month to inpatient rehab. I was fortunate to be able to take off a year to deal with the extreme depression. I feel better after a year but the depression still weighs on me. I need to go back to work but I feel like I just don’t care. I don’t care about my weight, my career, and I could just sit back and be a total loser. I have problems concentrating on building a resume. If I am able to get back my awesome job, I’m afraid I can’t do it. All I want to do is sleep. Since I’ve gone off adderall, I’ve had extremely short term memory and even can’t finish my sentences. Ive gained 15 lbs. I’ve been put on 3 prescriptions to manage my anxiety and depression to replace my one prescription of adderall. Antidepressants have weird side effects too. My mind is so foggy. I’m wondering if things would be different now that I’m out of a toxic marriage given I only abused one year. I want my life back. If it continues to make life miserable and I have to continue on like this - I will go back on at a low dose. I feel a lot worse than when I was on adderall. I’m so frustrated because I’m worried that life could be so much easier.
  4. What are your experiences with rehab centers?

    Going to rehab was the best thing I ever did. It’s like a month of self improvement and counseling.