DelaneyJuliette

Oh my goodness! I was feeling a bit vulnerable when no one had responded, (which is TOTALLY okay) but I just logged on and saw your response! (For some reason new responses don't consistently pop up in my email.) So I am definitely interested... sleepysober.... you may be the only one who has said they definitely want to! Should we go forward anyway? What format do we want? Do we want to agree on a day and time? We could always try it and have a meeting to iron out the details with those who are interested...

This is very inspiring to read. Thank you. I know it will happen for me. I've been there. I just have to get back there again.

By "a letter to AA GSO" that would be to the general service office of alcoholics anonymous which could be a first step in getting a new 12 step fellowship for adderall officially formed. However, I'd need to do some research, b/c I don't actually know that all the other "A" groups have gone through AA... like, I think CA and SA etc. formed on their own and formed ultimately their own main offices. But I'm just going from memory, I could be wrong. Anyway, I'm not opposed to going the official route as Sleepy was mentioning (whatever the official route turns out to be) but I am also interested in forming a tribe faster than I believe a formal organization could form. We could follow the literature of NA (or another program) if we wanted but just know that we are all in the same boat. Just thoughts.

Wow, this This is exactly what I was posting when I posted the thread "I wish for more connection" the other day! I felt embarrassed after I posted it b/c since only one person responded about trying 12 steps (thanks LuLamb!!) I told myself the story that no one really seemed to share the sentiment (which I realize that you articulated much more articulately!) I too have been to AA, NA, OA, ACA, Al-Anon, EA, EDA, and CODA. I was sober in AA for 8 years. But I am also jealous b/c alcohol isn't my thing. My thing has always been adderall. When I said I wish for more connection, I meant that I wanted to be able to talk directly about the actual stuff I'm dealing with instead of talking around it like you mentioned so as to not disrupt their singleness of purpose. I've tried Smart Recovery which I like, but there are no local meetings for me. I recently found a group I've been participating in via zoom called Recovery Dharma that I've been really enjoying - it is comprised of people from all different programs who come together. It is buddhist based but you don't have to be buddhist. (It's a breakoff from Refuge Recovery.) I am unaware of any actual Adderalics Anonymous meetings - LuLamb I thought u were joking before when you mentioned that. However, right before I read this post, I actually made a new post in the "Location" tab where I put "Zoom Meeting" because I wanted to gauge interest in whether or not anyone was interested in meeting up via zoom. I have formed a small book study with the Dharma Recovery group and it's very powerful (but again, no one is talking about the actual same issue as me.) I am up for a letter to AA GSO, but I feel like that is a more long term endeavor... I'm wondering if anyone wants to make that connection happen now, perhaps as we pursue that route (or not.) We could do a zoom meeting and pick a text to follow. Like... it could be 12 step based or not. I am an addiction therapist so i have a gazillion really great books on different themes and topics that could be good to go through together... I'd be open to so many things... I'd just love the ability to talk out loud to people struggling with this same actual issue. I feel a bit vulnerable putting this out there (perhaps it is the anonymonity of this forum that draws most people to it and a zoom meeting would feel too invasive...) I don't know, I just long for some structure of a program focused on my actual drug of choice and I feel like we could do it formally, yet "unofficially" in the begginning. (Unofficially meaning not through AA's General Service Office.) I'm rambling. Done.

I've been having great success with using zoom for other meetings during COVID, and since there doesn't happen to be anyone in my local area anyway, I had the idea that maybe one or two or a few of you would be interested in meeting up via zoom. Let me know if there's any interest!

I love this. I want so desperately to simplify my life. But... i love learning, i have a fear of missing out, i have trouble making decisions and I have difficulty saying no.

Thanks for this. I was in AA for 8 years and just got kinda burnt out. I recently joined Recovery Dharma and have been liking that a lot. I did a zoom NA the other day and that was good. I appreciate the connection.

I want to watch that. I "know" all of those things but I need to be reminded. I googled "NOVA documentary addiction" but I came up with more than one thing. Would you be able to tell me which specific one you watched? Is it just through youtube? I see that through amazon prime (which I have) I can get "NOVA: Addiction - Season 1" Is that it? 53 min long?

Yes. Day 2 of it locked up.

I wish for more connection specifically with dealing with quitting adderall... I love this forum... I wish it had meetings or something attached to it. I go to other meetings but there is something that feels so calming about being with other people who are in the same boat. Just saying. I am struggling.

So, I am having my true journey in baby steps. I have come to recognize (duh) but everytime I take a temazpem (to chill out and not fee so anxious, that will eneviablley lead to me snorting adderall. So my first commitment, that I am making publicly, with my therapist, and out loud in a small support group. So tonight was a big deal. i shared ky smaill bookie study and have accountability. We shall see.

I was hit hard today by PAWS too... but I gave in. I was so close to not to, but for some reason... I wasn't able to make my intention strong enough to overcome my self-destructive tendencies. I am frustrated, but posting on here, so that is a positive.

This.

wow... i am in private practice and have been coming into the office to do the telehealth b/c i have 4 kids at home, but i have been having fantasies of not seeing people in person again. i need to really think about how i want to handle the transition back... i just keep not thinking about it assuming i have time (adderall daze) but i would benefit from thinking about it.

I like that description "Adderall DAZE" - the thing that helps everything get so much clearer... until it doesn't and everything blurs together and hours turn to days and days to weeks and weeks to months and months to years... thank you for this post, it is inspiring for me. I am on Day 2 of my taper.