Hey everyone,
Just wanted to post about my experiences with this stuff. I’ve been on some form of stimulant (Adderall, Ritalin, Vyvanse) for several years. I started law school recently and all of the negative side effects from these medications came to a peak a few months into my first year. Here are some of the side effects I had put up with over the years:
extreme difficulty getting to sleep and diminished sleep quality, which in turns impairs focus, memory, willpower, nutritional decision making
worsened social anxiety
inconsistent focus - I would get a few hours of euphoric focus in the mornings, but could hardly focus at all in the evenings
ED and reduced sex drive - I’m healthy and in my mid-20s, so this should not be happening
feelings of dullness and emotional unavailability
more easily frustrated and overwhelmed
Over time I had come to believe that my ability to perform and keep up all my responsibilities was dependent on my taking these medications. I had excelled as an undergraduate student, both academically and as a varsity athlete, and felt that I could not have done so without stimulants. This is because every time I tried to stop, I’d never make it last the few weeks of lethargy.
I quit 4 months ago and I’m thrilled to say that everything seems to have turned around. It was very challenging, and I feel like I had to re-learn how to study, but it was so worth it. I’m not longer able to sit and read robotically for hours without breaks, but now I am actually digesting the material, drawing connections and understanding it on a deeper level. My memory is better. I’m no longer simply regurgitating information on tests. I’m way less stressed out about my future, now that I know my skills weren’t dependent on medication. I’m far less anxious socially and I’m better able to connect with people. It takes a bit more effort to focus, but with practice it has become far more consistent and sustained. I feel more emotionally available and the sexual issues have gone away completely.
Needless to say, I definitely recommend quitting if your situation sounds similar to mine. I’m happy to answer any questions about my experience. Hope you’re all staying healthy.