Hello all,
I've got kind of a conundrum. So I'm in law school right now, a place that leaves me crawling with a desire to take vyvanse. I have been off the drug for a little over a year and a half, not counting a one month long relapse where I got another script. Vyvanse was so good to me for the first 6 months or so when I first started taking it, and then I became slowly used to the high I got from it. It helped me most with my social anxiety and overall confidence. After the 6 month honeymoon though, the ups became less frequent and the downs became more common and went deeper than I was comfortable with. I became slightly standoffish with friends (definitely not like my docile personality), and went from social butterfly to a slightly erratic patchwork of fun and outgoing and just plain mean and unpleasant. Now that I think about it I can't be sure if it really did make me worse off than before because it has been so long since I knew what life was like before I met vyvanse.
I never needed vyvanse for academics, I had always been a straight A student, and done well on standardized tests etc. I just took it once from a friend, and loved how it made me think so clear and crisp, like I finally figured out how I was supposed to think. Do I need vyvanse? No. Do I want to have it for how amazing it made me feel once upon a time? Yes.
Anyways... I adjusted decently to post-vyvanse life: my first semester I've done very well academically, but I'm struggling to find the motivation to look for a summer internship (a very big deal). I've got a appointment in 2 days to see my psych (which I scheduled so I could get back on v). What should I do???
Sincerely,
R