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He says he does. He's pushed away or screwed over everyone who loved him. Sometimes I will look in the web history and there will be some links to adderall addiction sites so he knows it is time. It has been since Thursday since he took is last pill. A very long and sad couple of days. I miss someone who is laying right across the room. I see him shifting and turning and kicking the sheets. I wish I could take the pain away.. I am really scared this time though because his dad won't let him stay there and the rage and violence will start by Monday at the latest.

I am trying to help my boyfriend beat his adderall addiction. He has been taking it daily for 5 years slowly adding more to scary levels. He went through 60 20's in five days this week. I don't even recognize him. Gone is the confidence, sarcastic humor, passion. A natural born salesman, he was bringing home 250k a year. Now he has not worked in 5 years and doesn't have any interest in a career anymore. He crashes bad at least twice a month. He does nothing but sleep, eat and get mad. during two of his crashes he assaulted me and destroyed property. i didn't know that man existed. i never know what it is going to be that sets him off on a rampage so i cater to his every food craving and i have to avoid touching him or talking to him at all. Once i bumped one of feet while he was in the reciliner. i was just trying to get by him. he jumped up picked me up and threw me to the floor. he lifted a heavy coffee table and through it across the room. he has smashed electronics, broken full glasses of alcohol by throwing them at the wal, ripped a mirror down and shattered it all over the room. He alienated his friends and replaced mature, kind and loyal friends with a group full of drug addicts who will do almost anything to get their hands on drugs except get a job. When he's on his addy's he parties with then 5-7 days in a row without sleep or food. The morning he takes the last pill, he comes here to crash. Today is one of those depressing days. I've barely spoken to him and he glares at me if I ask him a question and rolls over. His family has disowned him and his new friends have all turned their backs on him because we almost bankrupt and they can't count on me paying for addys in between prescriptions just so the person I love won't hurt so badly. This time I can't afford it and I sit here with my dogs wondering when or how the rage will start. I can't make any noise. So we just sit here depressed. I am glad that I have found this site because he has to quit now. There is no money left. I just wonder if he ever makes it and gets off of them if the same man I met a long time ago will return or someone else.

Will the clever, extroverted confident man return to our relationship if he quits adderall ?