Thank you for your reply Aj. It helps me a ton to be able to relate to someone else out there. This website is so helpful. And yes, it feels amazing to finally have my natural motivation back. That's not to say that I don't drink a latte on a daily basis, but I know I've made progress because a latte used to have absolutely no effect on me during the time I was freshly coming off of Adderall but now I can actually feel it and notice it. I also relate to what you said about Adderall making you feel weird...it made me so socially awkward sometimes. I was prescribed the Adderall because of my ADD/ADHD...but in all honesty, I think the Adderall made me even more "ADD" by the end...I couldn't sit still or even follow and hold a conversation sometimes. I was such a robot. With the amount of Adderall I was being prescribed (80 mg), my psychiatrist said you could have made me focus on a blade of grass for four hours; that part made me laugh.
If anyone out there is needing/wanting to get off of Adderall, I hope you know that you are not alone in your struggle and that this isn't happening to only you.
The first month or two were really hard, but it gets so much better so DON'T GIVE UP. Don't waste the precious years of your life. Having your authentic self back outweighs everything that Adderall has to offer.
My other advice for helpful recovery, which I found on this website, was to exercise. I absolutely despise running, but I made myself do it just so that I would have energy...and it works. The more you exercise, the faster you will get better and back to your normal self again.
My psychiatrist also recommended to me that I drink caffeine, which I found weird at first because I wondered if I would just be replacing one habit (Adderall) with another (the caffeine) - but he swore it was fine. In my first 2 months, I was at the gas station filling up sodas 2-3 times a day. The people who worked there definitely began to recognize me. Not my proudest moments. I would recommend coffee instead...I make my own Iced Lattes now...all that soda made my face break out.