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Any update on the zoom meeting?

I have seen the topic of lion's mane discussed a few times before. Hopefully, this article will be helpful. http://wakeup-world.com/2014/10/07/lions-mane-a-smart-mushroom-choice-for-memory-mood-and-clarity/

I don't miss the horrible GERD that was so bad that I considered nissen fundoplication surgery. I took all sorts of medications and went to specialists. I was just so deep in denial I couldn't make the connection between it. Now I only have normal heartburn occasionally. My positive observation is I just had a delicious cup of espresso with out worrying about GERD or over analyzing how it might impact the strength of my last or next adderall dose.

How are you holding up dangerbean? I can relate to everything your saying. I don't have much advice tonight, but offering some support and encouragement.

http://www.theonion.com/articles/adderall-receives-honorary-degree-from-harvard,17527/?fb_action_ids=10152423614747742&fb_action_types=og.shares

In my prayers. I am so sorry:(

The author of the Verge article seems to be still in the delusional phase of adderall addiction. I am sure others can relate(I know I did more times than like to admit) when you allow yourself to relapse because think your just going to use adderall as a tool and not get addicted this time. I really hope it works out that way for him, but from my experiences it doesn't usually work out that way.

Comparing netflix to speed?

I know! It really is disturbing!

http://thoughtcatalog.com/matt-powers/2014/07/the-5-most-socially-acceptable-addictions/

It is working now:)

In the spirit of fairness this also came from that site. http://elitedaily.com/life/how-pharmaceutical-corporations-are-strategically-drugging-america/

Sorry I should have put them all in one post. This is actually supposed to be a fun about going out entitled "19 Internal Debates A Girl Has When Deciding If She Should Stay In Or Go Out". Here is number 12 from the list: "12. If you ate a weed edible earlier in the day, you’re staying in; if you took Adderall instead of your vitamins, you’re going out. http://elitedaily.com/women/19-internal-debates-a-girl-has-when-deciding-if-she-should-stay-in-or-go-out/605579/ This is form a popular site that claims to be "The Voice of Generation-Y".

I think that is a great idea Sweet Caroline! It surprises me how frequently I see articles involving adderall. Unfortunately, the majority are misinformed or trying to put a comic slant on the increasing use this drug and the side effects. Funny the stigma and reaction would be very different if many of these type of articles were written about opiate or any other narcotic abuse. Maybe it is a start at least getting out there in the public. The knowledge and resources for people with addiction to pain medications has vastly increased in the last ten years and we all know that addiction has been around far longer than that. I invite other members to share links here when they see any articles involving stimulants or other related topics even if there not geared to addiction. I can often relate to some part of it even if I do not overall agree and occasionally have a laugh or gain some new insight. Here are two more that have popped up in my news feed: http://elitedaily.com/humor/generation-why-we-put-the-add-in-adderall/ http://elitedaily.co...derall-college/

Where do we go to donate? Is there a place to use a credit card or an address to mail a check? This site has given me so much it would be the least I could do.

Welcome!! Keep checking in with your progress. How is it going?

Cat Marnell has wrote extensively about adderall and addiction in a very honest way. Tragically, I think she currently is back in relapse. Thanks for sharing the links. I find reading these articles and knowing now after it comes full circle what it is really like helps on my trigger days.

This is a link to a random funny article someone posted on Facebook from a site that is supposed to be progressive Gen Y. The shocking part is how casual abusing adderall is that it made #12 and completely put out there in a casual comical way. It is scary how prevalent it actually is, but how little in comparison is out there about the dangers and lives it has ruined. It is speed yet treated like it is nothing. I just saw this and figured I would share quick if anyone else might also find interesting. I am curious how often and prevalent the topic of adderall is in your daily lives? Sweet Dreams made it through another day:) http://elitedaily.com/women/19-internal-debates-a-girl-has-when-deciding-if-she-should-stay-in-or-go-out/605579/

L-Tryosine. Check out that section of this forum. Some very good posts filled with info what your asking. Welcome to the forum.

I have too Ally. Sometimes back when I was really bad in my addiction I would not sleep even with 1-2 ambien. Which now seems crazy.

I have been reading some very positive things on this forum about lions mane. Can anybody who has experience with this please recommend a reputable brand, dose, and is there anything that should or should not be taken with it? Thanks!

Is there a particular brand of Mag supplement that you found that worked best?

I seriously can't explain how much it touches me and what it makes me feel that my health and recovery mean that much to you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I am trying to search for my old post that I wrote when I first joined. I think it will help remind me of where I was and why it is critical I not go back to that place. I can only seem to get back to a year or so. I guess I am doing it wrong. If anyone could tell me how to find my original post I would really apperciate it. Thanks!

Thanks so much for sharing. I knew it can be a side effect, but had never actually heard anyone else personally experience it even on this forum when at certain times I would be on here daily. I actually just started this year with the seizures and had been off for awhile then gone back because my test is less than a month away, but on a much lower dose. I used to take crazy high amounts of it and not be able to even get out of bed without it a couple of years back, but never had a seizure during that time. I think it was just some weird fear that made me think I needed to use it again just "this last time" to study for the boards. It is that weird ridiculous adderall mind-set that kicks in some times. Being addicted for so long really messed with my head it is like a mental block that creeps in and tells me I won't be able to study without it and I freak myself out. I have gone back off it and since have not had another seizure. All of my other tests came back negative, thus I believe had to be some how related to going back on the adderall. I can not be sure, but I strongly feel was related. My primary care doctor actually told me he had an 'issue' with adderall which was surprising because most medical professionals I find to be either very judgmental or not take adderall addiction seriously. I do have a more friendly relationship with him than usual and was surprised as he used be a big supporter of the benefits of it. He recommended a supplement ZenRx and it has been very beneficial for me except giving me some GERD. When I used adderall in the past my GERD was to the point that I had esophageal erosions, but I convinced myself was not the stimulates. It was most definitely related and in hindsight seems obvious, but denial can be very strong. Hopefully, the medical community is starting to realize that this drug is dangerous and effects multiple health issues. I still get anxiety about studying and taking the test without the adderall which I know sounds ridiculous after what it did to me in the past. I am back to taking life one day at a time. Having quit and gone back it really showed me that so much of my issues both health and personal came from my addiction. It is scary how quickly can slip back into it without realizing what is happening. The social anxiety was back full force though already does seem to be improving again(staying in and attempting to study not exactly condusive to helping this issue either) There are times now I actually need xanax to combat this problem. It sucks I stupidly messed with my brain and cognitive function so close to the test. I am disgusted with myself, but I realize all I can is just move forward and not dwell on it. The withdrawl is no where close to the pure hell it was before when I was abusing and then quit. Though I am super emotional off it again the opposite of the way I am on it. It is just so crazy that I still have these days where I freak out and feel I need it or will fail and then end up regretting it all over again. I know at this point it is mainly a mental battle. Studying off adderall just feels so strange and unnatural to me in a way that I can't explain. I have no choice so I am doing it and can just hope that I will do ok without it. I am terrified I have ruined my life and not going to be able to fix it and then go for the very thing that caused the problem to try to solve the problem. It is so counter productive and dumb. Please forgive the grammar and run on sentences I am writing this using my mobile phone on the train.