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  1. When will I be normal again?

    Welcome to the forums! Both @SleepyStupid and @Sunbeams_findyou have shared some really good advice. If you quit for your baby's heath while you were pregnant and nursing, you should maintain that Quit so you can be fully present for your developing child as you are raising him. Post-partum depression, coupled with post adderall depression (you are still in your first year) is a double whammy so I can see why you are looking for some relief in the form of a familiar pill. You have already got the hardest part of your adderall recovery behind you. Perhaps you were not quite ready to quit when you became pregnant, but here you are, with almost a year off the drug. Seize that opportunity for a better life.
  2. Why, exactly, does tapering "not work"?

    Don't be shy about starting a new topic. If you have information or experience with adderall tolerance post it in this forum or over in the "tell your story" forum.
  3. Congratulations for your first year of freedom! One year is a huge milestone for so many things, and especially for kicking the addie habit. I wish you the best of luck living in Arizona. I share your wonderment of how I survived that awful addiction with my life and health intact, especially as an older user - I was 48 when I quit nine years ago.
  4. My New Puppy

    Her name is Penney and I got her last week:
  5. Starting the Journey

    Gordon, Congratulations on your decision to Quit. I wish you well. I have one question: What are the consequences of failure?
  6. New Administrators

    I am happy to announce that @sleepystupid and @EricP have joined the administrators team! Thanks to both of you for volunteering and helping to control the spam and keeping this great forum dedicated to helping people quit and stay quit. Please continue to report the spam and we will do our best to contain it. Also, I would like to acknowledge Mike for paying the server bills and keeping up the website he started 12 years ago, without any advertising. Mike is currently finishing up his PhD in Psychology. Thanks, @Mike!
  7. Spam taking over our sanctuary

    I think I have deleted all of it, let me know if you find any more. I've been out in the wilderness backpacking for the last few days. I could sure use some help moderating. If anybody is interested, let me know and I will contact Mike to get that ball rolling, as well as renewing the Word Press account so the spammers have a more difficult time registering.
  8. Anyway to get Email Notification?

    Go to your profile page and check your notification settings. You should be able to adjust them to your liking. I think you have to follow a person or a topic in order to get an email notification when somebody responds. You should also be able to get an email when somebody quotes you or tags your username with the @DelaneyJuliette .
  9. On Adderall + extreme fatigue and exhaustion

    Check your vitamin B12 levels or just try a sublingual supplement. Sometimes B12 and iron defeciencies go together.
  10. Welcome to the forum. I was about ten years behind you - I started around age 40 and quit before I was 50. I'm 57 now. I have been on this forum since quitting nine years ago, and I have read several stories about people using only as prescribed and having a difficult time with withdrawal. I completely agree with you that one can't take it for the rest of their lifetime. That was one of the big reasons that I quit, in addition to realizing that it was an unsustainable addiction. The physical side effects of adderall abuse also caught up with me. Adderall made me feel like an old man in the later years of my addiction. It does take a long time to recover from this drug. I started feeling somewhat better about nine months after quitting, although it took about three years to feel mostly normal, and another three years or so before the bouts of depression finally abated. Congratulations for quitting. I wish you the best of luck in your journey through recovery.
  11. Nine Plus Nine

    After using Adderall for nine years, I quit on June 3, 2011. Nine years later and I'm still speed-free. Life is certainly better and easier in abstinence rather that chasing those silly orange and blue pills, and dealing with the awful side effects of the addiction and uncontrollable overconsumption. This forum was essential for my quitting success and I am grateful for its existence.
  12. Dexedrine - The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

    So do you have a plan for quitting? or are you just waiting it out until the next script can be filled. What will be different when the time to refill comes along? It sounds like taking speed is an inconvenient addiction, at worst. The psychotic break does sound scarry. Are you sure you are ready to quit now?
  13. Stiff and Cracking Joints

    I have been unable to enjoy sugar since quitting adderall nine years ago. Regarding the OP at the top of this thread, my joints were so stiff and achy by the time I quit, I felt like an old man. The good news is that yoga and exercise has reversed that problem. Actually, my joints felt better after quitting and before I started exercising.
  14. or put another way, by some wise QA member many years ago: ".....become a human being instead of a human doing"
  15. Seven Years

    Great to hear from you, HC! I was thinking of you when everyone was trying to fly home from abroad. Did you make it back or are you still in the middle east?
  16. Welcome to the forum. You have a tough situation that I can relate to. When I quit, I was determined to keep my friends. I would even let them use hard drugs in my home a few times. But, I had to step away from them. One friend, whom I have known since we were 13, kept using adderall then meth for several more years. He eventually quit his addictions about a year ago and we are still good friends and hang out together often. I didn't see him very often when he was still using, mostly by his choice. My other friend continued using all drugs, and eventually went homeless and I have lost track of him. What I'm trying to say is that I get how important your friends can be and I don't think you have to abandon friendships to successfully quit, especially if there is more than drugs holding those friendhips together. I also think that your occasional use of adderall and xanax is both risky and foolish. It doesn't take much to reactivate a speed addiction. You didn't elaborate on the reasons for quitting adderall, and I suggest putting those thoughts in writing so you can be reminded how awful and insidious this addiction was, can become again.
  17. 5 Worst Things Adderall Did To You?

    I don't like to acknowledge some of the good things that drug did for me, but the coping mechanism was one of the biggest plusses. I guess that when you are high all the time you can cope with just about anything. I was taking care of my aging and failing mother, as well as a new puppy ten years ago, at the time I said it gave me incredible patience. Now that I have another new puppy, I must acknowledge that remarkable coping mechanism. It takes all the patience I have not to strike this precious puppy, for just acting like a normal puppy requiring care and monitoring 24/7. It was easier being high on adderall, although I know I didn't give the last puppy the quality training this one is receiving.
  18. 5 Worst Things Adderall Did To You?

    Just these:
  19. 5 Worst Things Adderall Did To You?

    That gave me a good laugh as well. I certainly moved a lot of big rocks that didn't need to be moved, but at least I owned the rocks and the land and I can still look at them and shake my head. I grew more gray hair in a short amount of time on adderall as well. After quitting, the gray hair turned back to brown for a few more years. I feel really lucky that I slithered out of that addiction without any significant long term health problems, despite plenty of side effects while using the shit.
  20. Successfully tapered down, last pill 24 hrs ago

    Welcome to the forum and congrats on finally quitting. Since you have been preparing for this moment for the last nine months, I have no doubt you will succeed especially if you stick with your plan, the workouts, and not drinking.
  21. I am a strong believer it total abstinence from adderall and all other stimulant drugs. I also kicked cigarettes when I quit adderall because I felt they were horribly linked, somehow, and I needed to quit nicotine for my health anyway. But alcohol, coffee, and weed? I still use them all, almost daily. The key word is use but not abuse them. This is why I believe in total abstinence from Adderall (and nicotine). I know if I take even one drag from a cigarette, I will seek future opportunities to sneak a smoke again, so I use all the willpower I have not to take that first toke. Just the other day, I had a social "non-smoke" with my friend and I went through all the motions of smoking with an unlit cig in hand and I kind of enjoyed it. That same friend is meth recovery and he is also an alcoholic. He absolutely knows that he cannot get drunk because it causes meth cravings he cannot control.
  22. I tried......

    Bullshit!. What's your alternative...to stay on Adderall the rest of your life??
  23. I can't believe it's me...

    I just read about you losing your dog. I'm really sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is the hardest kind of loss to take. My 11 year old German Shepherd died last November and I have had bouts of depression come and go all winter long. I've started looking at puppies on the web and it won't be long until I have a new pet. @sleepystupid is right about the exercise. I have a home workout program that I do at least twice per week for about an hour each time. It helps keep my mood stable. You don't need Adderall in your life anymore. Just fight the good fight and before you know it, it will be spring and things will start looking up.
  24. Inflammation and digestion relief?

    @Andyd2 I didn't find any supplements that helped my stomach, rather the lack to regularly taking any pills (supplements) seemed to do me some good. Sometimes I go for a month or so at a time without taking anything. I usually feel better and sleep better when I don't take any supplements. And when I do take them, I only take fish oil, vitamins C, D, and B. Come to think of it, once I took a multivitamin with minerals that messed with my stomach. Digestive recovery is like the rest of recovery, with gradual improvement and periodic setbacks. Even now, I will get reflux if I eat or drink the wrong foods too late at night, but only sometimes. During the day, my normal diet agrees with my digestive system almost all the time. Most of the big improvements in my recovery were noted during the first two years.
  25. Inflammation and digestion relief?

    Besides changing my diet, I avoided sleeping on my right side. One bout of severe gastric reflux can do some lasting damage to your esophagus. I also tried to drink plenty of water and not too much beer. I have gradually cut out diet coke and taking supplements as well. My stomach symptoms were bouts of heartburn and gastric reflux after eating processed carbs - especially white bread and tortillas and pasta. After milk, My stomach felt unsettled so I only drink almond milk now. Some foods gave me excessive gas and bloating, foods which I can easily eat now. Actually, I can eat just about whatever I like now, but I don't like things that are overly sweet or starchy. Oh, and I can't (don't like to?) drink alcohol after dinner anymore, either. Honestly, it was about five years after quitting that my stomach returned to "normal" and I was really relieved that it did. I had always thought I had a "cast iron stomach" and could eat or drink just about anything with no ill effects. I do remember that Adderall was fucking with my stomach while I was still using - like I could not tolerate an empty stomach for very long. Normally, I don't eat anything until noon but I couldn't do that while using Adderall. I was worried that Adderall had fucked up my nerves and digestive system...and other organs and systems. Nine years after quitting and things are pretty good. Recovery takes a long time! By the way, if you use this site's search feature with critical key words - like "bloating" - you will find some interesting topics and posts related to health.