Adam NC

I agree with Corey, I've been with my gf for 6 months now and she is a psych major. Which I am thankful for, bc if she wasn't she may not have understood why I am quitting. I remember doing the same thing... Saying to my gf that I hate that I need this. I wish I could move on without it. Not worry about where my bottle is... Or freak out if I accidentally left my meds at home. I really hope he is ready and I know you will be there to support him, just remember that it will get worse before it gets better so be ready for some mood swings.. I hope everything works out and if you need anything, advice, someone to chat with about it. You know where to go. :-)

My name is Adam and I live in Raleigh Nc. I've been on adderall for about 15 years. Before that it was Ritalin. I've been going through some tough times just getting my life started. I feel like my brain was being pulled in so many different directions that I never actually got my life started, never had goals until now. I have had enough. And though I am in tears writing this I feel so happy and determined. Anyways here's my story. I was diagnosed at an early age ADHD. I was 7. Went through highschool I'm guessing like everyone on here doing well but my add still took its toll at home, Never doing my homework, procrastination. Squeaked by with a 3.9. Got in trouble my senior year ( hanging out with the wrong crowd). I fixed that. I've always ate horribly. I've always had decent health and haven't been sick in 10 years until recently I've been dealing with stress and working 2 jobs. I've had bowel issues. This led me to go online and pretty much made me a hypochondriac. I'm sure taking adderall for 15 years at 2-20mg IRS each day has a lil bit to so with that. Obsessing about what I might have. It somewhat led me to this site and I must say I am grateful for that. I have so much in common with everyone on here it is amazing the inspiring words I read everyday. I'm in bed watching the movie hook right now. I haven't taken my meds for 2 days now and the cold night sweats and hot flashes have already started. Along with a constant mild to moderate nausea, moderate depression has started as well. It's hard to even concentrate on writing this. I know I can do it. With the help of this site and my friends and family. I will find myself and do what God meant for me to do here. Help people. Adderall helped make me selfish and arrogant and cocky. That isn't me. I know it... Deep down. I am more. Last week is really what kicked me in the face telling me this isn't right. I ran out of my meds. ( I have a suspicion someone took some). Which made me have to have a few days without it. It was horrible. I bitched out my best friends. Had serious anger issues. I was at a beach music festival that was a little bit crowded. I had my fists ready to punch someone if they even remotely said something rude. I had to leave my friends and girlfriend there just to have some sanity. Something was very very wrong. I made the excuse to everyone that I didn't have my meds. But that really isn't an excuse is it. So I finally got my bottle filled and I was back to "normal". But then I realized. This whole thing isn't normal. I am so happy to finally have direction in my life. And I'm not goin to use adderall as a crutch. I want my life back. So to quote the movie Hook, " so your adventures are over" " oh no, to live, to live will be an awefully big adventure"!!!!! Until next time. Pray for me :-)