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  1. Update from a long timer

    You can kick it. Lot of crossover between alcoholism and Adderall addiction, although not all Adderallics are alcoholics (though far more of them than realize it, in my experience). AA's worked for me. Clean from all of it 6.5 years. Life has never been better. Not even close. Hit me up if you want to talk. Or just show up at a meeting and honestly share about where you're at. Nothing worse than being in that state of "can't live with it, can't live without it." Hugs and (no) drugs.
  2. A Call For Help: I'm Crippled by this Addiction

    And, because you had the courage to come on here and share your story, you deserve for people to be honest with you: This will always get worse, and never better, the longer it goes on. Good luck.
  3. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    You're going to want to punch me in the (*&^ for saying this, but I'm going on the record: You're on the verge of a major breakout. Stick with it, one day at a time. This thread is amazing btw.
  4. This comes up a lot on these forums...so a search would probably yield some results. The bottom line from my perspective? It's gonna suck. And you can either spend hundreds/thousands of dollars on things that don't really work but give you the illusion of control, or you can save the money and just embrace it. Do it right, and this can be the last time you have to go through Adderall withdrawal. Exercise, eat right, give yourself a serious break early on. And if you still feel horrible after a few months, consider seeking some professional guidance. Good luck and stay close!!
  5. New day, same results.

    Rewind the clock to when you were approaching two years, Frank. My advice is basically the same based on my own experience: You're on the verge of a major breakout. You've felt hopeless before. That was a delusion. Know that intellectually and try to feel it emotionally. This too shall pass. And if your experience is anything like mine, after year 3 you're going to be on a whole new level. Good luck. I'm around and at the same # if you want to talk.
  6. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    "This too shall pass." And when it does, you can look back and begin to know, without a shadow of a doubt, that those feelings of hopelessness are a lie. Sorry to hear it's been tough. Just hang on.
  7. Couch to 5k

    For serious! Had been lifting heavy for about 18 months before I started running, but zero cardio. I started at the beginning with Couch to 5k. That was hard stuff. I also have had terrible problems with shin splints. That's basically why I gave up the first time when I tried it in May. Got them on and off when training for the 10k as well. I bought compression socks. Not sure if they help or not. Think the issue for me is actually calf flexibility. So stretching and building up very, very slowly how much you're running is probably the prescription. I also had a prescription for Diclofanec...basically suped up Advil, that I used occasionally when I could feel them coming. If you figure it out, let me know!
  8. Shifting Teeth?!

    Exact same thing happened to me.
  9. Couch to 5k

    Finished the 10K in 1:03:19. Not bad for a guy who couldn't jog more than a few minutes six months ago. Aaaaaaand just signed up for a half marathon in April. Time to re-listen to Goggins... Life off Adderall just keeps getting better and better.
  10. Couch to 5k

    "Frank" that's crazy. I literally just finished the audiobook this morning. I'm all jacked up as well.
  11. Couch to 5k

    Absolutely, SA. After a false start due to injury, I actually did the full Couch to 5K starting in July. Done 3 5K's now, and am doing my first 10K New Year's Day. Dropped from 230-235 down to 180 the last six months. Running and keto. Great stuff. Yea still putting in 50 hr weeks. I find I'm not very productive if I work much more. But first thing's truly first: getting and staying off Adderall one day at a time. I honestly don't regret the weight gain in my first year. Was my way of getting some comfort...my absolute 100% priority was getting clean. All the rest of the "Self-actualization" has come in due time.
  12. OKcupid, Tinder, Relapsing & Adderall?

    This really helped snap things into focus for me...
  13. Relapse

    Sorry to hear, Sean. Thanks for sharing. I went through a brutal internal struggle 18-24 months in, and I know I'm not the only one. Tremendous growth was just around the corner. Get back on the horse. One day at a time.
  14. My Story So Far, 191 Days Clean

    Awesome to hear, Frank. And well done, Drew and Sean. Great to see!
  15. Stages of adderall recovery

    - At one year I thought I was a little shaky, but on the right path. I took solace in the fact that people on here said that it got even better in the second year. - At two years, I was on my feet and doing well, but still pretty volatile emotionally. Occasionally, I'd flirt with the idea that I could go back on it. That idea had to be SMASHED. - I spent my third anniversary in London after hiking the West Highland Way. Towards the end of my using, I couldn't bend an appendage without joint pain and muscle soreness. - At four years, I KNOW, without a shadow of a doubt, even in my worst moments, that I can't use Adderall "as prescribed" for any real length of time. I'm on the right path. I've recovered from the hopeless state of mind and body it put me in. My intellectual faculties are at all time highs. I've got 30 pounds to lose, but have been lifting regularly for some time and am making sustainable progress on that front. I enjoy helping others recover, on here and IRL. I pray and meditate. Daily. I have a sense of purpose. I've rekindled relationships with friends and family. I trust that if I stay off Adderall and keep giving it my best, or at least a decent shot, one day at a time, things will work out. They have so far.