hyper_critical

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  1. 35 days clean-just curious

    MASSIVE upside on all those fronts. No BS. Took me a while tbh but I'm at a level far beyond where I ever was on Adderall. Sleep and exercise are critical, even if it's just a long walk every day or two. I work several x better in the first four hours of the day. So also have to calibrate and learn how to work effectively without stimulants. Keep after it.
  2. Drug-Addicted Future MD

    And see: this is the lie. It's very likely instead of being a drug-addicted doctor, you'll fail miserably and never reach your goals. It wouldn't be fair to sugar coat it to you. You're a junkie in the grips of addiction. All this talk about a difficult break up and demands of school...you have to TAKE RESPONSIBILITY. It's going to get worse, never better. Don't believe me? Read the relapse posts on this forum. If AA worked for you at one point but you feel like you can't be open about your struggles, find a new sponsor. I get along just fine in there. I don't make it a blanket recommendation on here to do 12 step: many people on these forums get and stay clean off Adderall without it. But many people also blame it for their inability to stay clean which is a joke. The vast majority of people on here I've come across who criticize 12 step end up having problems with other substances down the road, or end up relapsing on Adderall. The ones who don't need it and life is going well don't feel the need to criticize it. Getting and staying off Adderall has to be priority #1. Hit me up in PM's if you want to talk more. Good luck.
  3. Fed up spouse

    Sorry to hear that. You may get a lot out of going to an Al-Anon meeting. Just go and share where you're at and I'm sure people with similar experience will come up to you and offer their suggestions. Good luck.
  4. After 3 years away from this site...

    MFA and LT! Ha wow. Just checked into this site for the first time in a WHILE and saw you two getting after it. A-mazing! Live in the Middle East now and am pretty busy. Hope everyone's doing great. I'm like...a full fledged adult and have been clean longer than I used Adderall. Whoa.
  5. Update from a long timer

    You can kick it. Lot of crossover between alcoholism and Adderall addiction, although not all Adderallics are alcoholics (though far more of them than realize it, in my experience). AA's worked for me. Clean from all of it 6.5 years. Life has never been better. Not even close. Hit me up if you want to talk. Or just show up at a meeting and honestly share about where you're at. Nothing worse than being in that state of "can't live with it, can't live without it." Hugs and (no) drugs.
  6. A Call For Help: I'm Crippled by this Addiction

    And, because you had the courage to come on here and share your story, you deserve for people to be honest with you: This will always get worse, and never better, the longer it goes on. Good luck.
  7. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    You're going to want to punch me in the (*&^ for saying this, but I'm going on the record: You're on the verge of a major breakout. Stick with it, one day at a time. This thread is amazing btw.
  8. This comes up a lot on these forums...so a search would probably yield some results. The bottom line from my perspective? It's gonna suck. And you can either spend hundreds/thousands of dollars on things that don't really work but give you the illusion of control, or you can save the money and just embrace it. Do it right, and this can be the last time you have to go through Adderall withdrawal. Exercise, eat right, give yourself a serious break early on. And if you still feel horrible after a few months, consider seeking some professional guidance. Good luck and stay close!!
  9. New day, same results.

    Rewind the clock to when you were approaching two years, Frank. My advice is basically the same based on my own experience: You're on the verge of a major breakout. You've felt hopeless before. That was a delusion. Know that intellectually and try to feel it emotionally. This too shall pass. And if your experience is anything like mine, after year 3 you're going to be on a whole new level. Good luck. I'm around and at the same # if you want to talk.
  10. After a Decade on Adderall, I’m 30 Days Clean

    "This too shall pass." And when it does, you can look back and begin to know, without a shadow of a doubt, that those feelings of hopelessness are a lie. Sorry to hear it's been tough. Just hang on.
  11. Couch to 5k

    “I don’t even know what’s going on...” I’ve been lifting for a couple years now, but have been completely unwilling/unable to get consistent cardio going outside training to hike Mt Washington back in winter 2014. FINALLY downloaded the Couch to 5k app. What a beautiful program, that incorporates something about sustainable change it took me a while to learn off Adderall in other parts of my life. Program’s structured so you bite off less than you can chew initially, instead of going HAM from jump street and quickly burning out. Just finished week two of my 3x/week walk-jogs, and I feel great and hungry for more. Not going to pound on the table and suggest downloading it unless/until I complete the program and run a 5k in May. Then I’ll come back here and rant incessantly about it. Wish me luck!
  12. Couch to 5k

    For serious! Had been lifting heavy for about 18 months before I started running, but zero cardio. I started at the beginning with Couch to 5k. That was hard stuff. I also have had terrible problems with shin splints. That's basically why I gave up the first time when I tried it in May. Got them on and off when training for the 10k as well. I bought compression socks. Not sure if they help or not. Think the issue for me is actually calf flexibility. So stretching and building up very, very slowly how much you're running is probably the prescription. I also had a prescription for Diclofanec...basically suped up Advil, that I used occasionally when I could feel them coming. If you figure it out, let me know!
  13. Shifting Teeth?!

    Exact same thing happened to me.
  14. Couch to 5k

    Finished the 10K in 1:03:19. Not bad for a guy who couldn't jog more than a few minutes six months ago. Aaaaaaand just signed up for a half marathon in April. Time to re-listen to Goggins... Life off Adderall just keeps getting better and better.
  15. Couch to 5k

    "Frank" that's crazy. I literally just finished the audiobook this morning. I'm all jacked up as well.
  16. Couch to 5k

    Absolutely, SA. After a false start due to injury, I actually did the full Couch to 5K starting in July. Done 3 5K's now, and am doing my first 10K New Year's Day. Dropped from 230-235 down to 180 the last six months. Running and keto. Great stuff. Yea still putting in 50 hr weeks. I find I'm not very productive if I work much more. But first thing's truly first: getting and staying off Adderall one day at a time. I honestly don't regret the weight gain in my first year. Was my way of getting some comfort...my absolute 100% priority was getting clean. All the rest of the "Self-actualization" has come in due time.
  17. OKcupid, Tinder, Relapsing & Adderall?

    This really helped snap things into focus for me...
  18. Relapse

    Sorry to hear, Sean. Thanks for sharing. I went through a brutal internal struggle 18-24 months in, and I know I'm not the only one. Tremendous growth was just around the corner. Get back on the horse. One day at a time.
  19. My Story So Far, 191 Days Clean

    Awesome to hear, Frank. And well done, Drew and Sean. Great to see!
  20. Stages of adderall recovery

    - At one year I thought I was a little shaky, but on the right path. I took solace in the fact that people on here said that it got even better in the second year. - At two years, I was on my feet and doing well, but still pretty volatile emotionally. Occasionally, I'd flirt with the idea that I could go back on it. That idea had to be SMASHED. - I spent my third anniversary in London after hiking the West Highland Way. Towards the end of my using, I couldn't bend an appendage without joint pain and muscle soreness. - At four years, I KNOW, without a shadow of a doubt, even in my worst moments, that I can't use Adderall "as prescribed" for any real length of time. I'm on the right path. I've recovered from the hopeless state of mind and body it put me in. My intellectual faculties are at all time highs. I've got 30 pounds to lose, but have been lifting regularly for some time and am making sustainable progress on that front. I enjoy helping others recover, on here and IRL. I pray and meditate. Daily. I have a sense of purpose. I've rekindled relationships with friends and family. I trust that if I stay off Adderall and keep giving it my best, or at least a decent shot, one day at a time, things will work out. They have so far.
  21. IMPORTANT SITE INFORMATION - Please Read

    Just e-mailed Mike. Thanks for the heads up.
  22. Doctor appointment today

    Good for you. Lot of relapse stories on here start with Phentermine. Consider keto for a few months. Jump started me and I dropped 40 pounds in a couple months and kept it off. https://www.reddit.com/r/keto/
  23. A year off adderall and in a bit of a slump

    Maybe. These boards are littered with people who rationalized their way back into trying it again and had terrible results. What a gift. Get after it. Everyone has problems. I guarantee you'll still have problems. Life is about the quality of your problems. The only quote I have posted up at my office comes from Felix Adler: "The purpose of man's life is not happiness but worthiness." Find something meaningful and work at it. Great job getting this far. Keep on truckin'!
  24. Long-term quitters: Any lingering issues?

    Update: The revelatory "high" after getting out wore off (Pink Cloud 2.0), I experienced some agita, and now I think I'm in a period of synthesis where I am growing and becoming an even better version of myself than I could have hoped for in early recovery. Keto/Carnivore for weeks now, at my lowest weight in two years. Business on fire. Operating at a new level cognitively. By this, I don't mean getting off talking at people. I mean processing and articulating ideas with equanimity in an effective way. Big fan of Jordan Peterson's new book. Getting off and staying off Adderall is SO hard. But if you can stick it out through those first couple years, tremendous growth is possible.