HinduHammer

Hello all, I will reply to this thread in order to supplement my story. As you all may know, my motivation and urge to share my story is still not great as I am just getting off addy from (this time) about 2 years of chronic use, using anywhere from 30-100+mg/day; average = 50mg/day mix of IR, XR, both, etc. Swallowing, chewing up capsules, insuffalating occasionally. I got a new job selling medical software and had to move to Phoenix. I was in a hellish place emotionally and life-wise with my old job; and I used the addy to apply so hard and present myself well and get a new job. However, I knew that with my continued adderall use I would have the emotional/temperment/communication problems and would appear aggressive or detached, or worse too aware of what I was appearing like. Anyway, I told myself I would quit all this $hit on Jan 1. My new job started on Jan 3. I continued using. I was fired on Feb 3. I took this as a sign from the powers that be, that this is my chance now. Before I was working for my family member and was in college; my first job that I got for myself, I lost due to my own substance abuse. This was a sign that I needed to get clean and now. I told my parents who were viising me here in PHX to help get set up, on Sunday. On Monday Feb 13, I had an interview and took my last dose of addy, chewed up most of a 30mg XR. Gave my dad the rest of my bottle and scripts before he left Sunday. So far, I feel very tired, depressed, and I want to use so bad. However, I know that the vision I Have of using will not be what it's like. The high I crave I have never really had in the past few years, just tempting shadows of it with adderall, always chasing the feeling. Anyway, Friday night, quit adderall. This time for good. ALso, I smoke pot and ciggarrettes. I realize that was my first addiction *pot*, which probably led me to addy, and now I need to get off that too. Please let me know if you have any tips for me. Thanks, HH