jimithang96

Hi there! Wow...um, I really hope people still read these because I need all the help I can get! LOL! My name is Kristin, I'm 28. I have no kids and I'm not married but I do live with a GREAT guy! I call him "my toddler" because he's 4 years younger than I am. Yep! Call me a cradle robber, I'm cool with it. Anyway, I'll keep this short and sweet...I conned a stupid doctor into prescribing adderall to me about 4 years ago because I wanted to lose weight. Little did I know...I was the idiot. I'm an ex-theatre major and a helluva good time...or at least I used to be. I don't really remember now. I've taken WAY more than my actual "prescribed" dosage and I've hurt my sister and myself because of this stupid dependency. I want to find me again but I'm terrified. I'm terrified that I'll gain a shit ton of weight and I can't handle being overweight AND lazy. I'm terrified that I'll start confronting some things about my life that I've hidden from for so long, thanks to addy...and when I do, I'll fall into a depression. I guess my first question is...what are some tips for the first week? I'm 4 days in and I just realized that my 30-day ends on my kitten's one year birthday which is really kinda cool. I need help trying to avoid the 2 major problems that WILL CAUSE me to get back on this evil medication: Weight gain and lack of motivation. I know, I know...it's normal coming off of adderall. What I'm trying to tell you is that if I can't at least soften the blow, I know I'll revert back to my old ways. I have over a month until I can get anymore adderall and I would love nothing more than to be done with this stuff. I've neglected my closest family, my friends and myself for long enough. This HAS to stop.