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me too!omg im terrified of weight gain and falling asleep at work/on the train ride. I quit for like two months and it was great feeling like myself again and my husband loved it, but I got so fat and sloppy. I started back on addreall....same thing what you said is what im feeling

Good luck lady, I hope you do it!

Erin, So touching, I can't keep from crying

oh hunny, i've flushed my pills once! i understand just how you feel too. But after I flashed them, in a few months I was on them again. It is scary and I am so lost. I don't know which way to turn. Rehab is not an option for me right now,but i wish i wish I had that luxyry

Hey, I took Wellbutrine before, it is really nothing like Adderall. It is so milde and never stimulated me much. But I was also on a cocktail of meds at the time:: Lexapro, wellbutrine, xanex, ambien, Adderall,and some other antidepressant/antipsychotic i forgot the name,but i dropped it fast.. Basically,I asked my doc for wellbutrine hopeing it would work as a stimulant and I could stay awake in times when I ran out of my prescription of adderall sooner than I should have, but it didn't really work like that. Lexapro and wellbutrine both helped with my depression, but you know what? i stopped taking them after a year or so because I felt like a total vegetable emotionally. So with and SSRI drug (wellbutrine), my advice, is Do not even start takin it! It's really hard to quit and I had terrible headaches when I was weaning off of those drugs, I mean unless you really really need it for depression don't get on those meds. I hate all these pscyh meds now.

Hey! I feel you on that. Honestly, I stopped going out a long time ago, at first it was so fun to sociolize while on Adderall, but the I got too paranoid to even really be with people, they made me nervous. So I stayed home,and cleaned or whatever... But once I quite addies for a while, I was normal again,yet the desire to go out didn't really return, I am always tired, so I just stay home and I picked up a habbit of drinking beer alone, at home. So sad. Good luck with your dilemma though, I hope you get thru it. I think maybe it just takes a long time, for the desire to go out and do stuff to return. xoxo Anna

[/f;'ont] Hey there! I'm Anna from Brooklyn, NY (also Russia). Late 20's. And I want to share with you guys my story, which is sure to be very similar to other stories on here. Let me just start by saying that I am on Adderall prescribed by my doctor for the last two years,or so.. I loved it at first and then it turned on me blah blah you know the deal. Got very thin very fast (loved it!) felt like I was on top of the world and had it in control. Yet I ruined my three year relationship with a bf, who was an ok guy, jumped into a marriage with another guy, whome I loved but who was totally a bad bad choice,and he is in court mandated rehab right now, just 7 months into our marriage. And I am all alone, well with my pit bull Eli Manning. But let me back up a little bit, to let you know why I fell in love with speed. At 21 I was a dancer in a club and did lots of coke in the bathroom, naturally. However,THAT got boring quick, well in around four to six months of binging on that and standing on balconies/rooftops, contemplating my next move, I still haven;t jumped yet. So one night, this girl "Dirty Diana" tells me (in the club bathroom) if I wanted to try something new, (*meth) fondly known as tina where im from. Anyhowoo One bump i fell in love. After that needless to say I was hooked, crystal addict, active on and off, I stumbled half drunk thru my twenties, managing to lose more than I gained. Eventually, I quit,kind of. And developed an aqute anxiety and a little depression, Ithought atthe time. I guess it's impossible to live thru crazy addiction and come out of it normal, in the head. I also got addicted to pain killers after platic surgery at 22... Now I am on two mg of suboxone.. to keep living. Anyways, I went to this swanky manhattan shrink, complaining of anxiety and paranoia and he interupts me and says you have ADD. I go' no I don't Adderall = he says, I go OK/ So the rest is history. I \already got off (in december)) lexapro 20 MG and wellbutrine, but I am still strugling with Adderall. Like we all know it numbs our feelings, so when Iam with my husband itis a bad idea for me to be all tweaked out and distant, but now that he is gone, I started popping pills again, since March 1st, because Iam so lonely! it's crazy. I want to stop and I know I can, but I want support and some people that won't judge me and who UNDERSTAND what it's like. So here Iam Hope we can be friends lol Anna