BenLinus

Thank you for your story, Kev. I just started thinking that I need to quit Adderall, and I wanted to see if other people were having the same effects from the drug that I am. Your story really rings true for me. Too often, I'm too antisocial, too irritable, too spaced out (or hyper focused, and thus aloof). I've lost my passions and I, too, feel like I've become a tremendous asshole to those around me. Sometimes I feel like I'm a narcissist. My professional life has collapsed. FWIW, I'm a rapid-cycling cyclothymic (bipolar light). For a year or two, the Adderall took away the depressive side of my cycles, but left me with the energetic ones. No more. Now I feel like an agitated automaton most of the time. I can tell you this much: I think these symptoms get significantly better once off the drug. have had a few periods of being Adderall free in the past year. These were not due to some desire to quit, but just because I ran out, was waiting on a new script, or insurance, or whatever. After a few days of being exhausted, I could feel the human in myself. My mind was present in conversations or social situations along with my body. I felt a creative spark again. I don't think it makes sense for someone like you or me to go completely off of all drugs. The right combination CAN be corrective, and being untreated, unmedicated bipolar is no fun. But I think this is one that's not doing me any good. And it sounds like it's not for you, either.