Thanks everyone for your replies! I tried wellbutrin and loved it at first. But I decided to just quit pills altogether. I've been a month sober, and despite the crazy weight gain I feel fantastic. I'm so happy I decided to quit, I feel so much more alive and human. I look forward to sleeping again, I can actually have decent conversations now. Sometimes I feel depressed but it goes away. And I can definitely deal with that. Im now working on eating healthy and working out. Any idea when my metabolism will be back to normal? Ive read it can take a while. Anywho...thanks again for replying I really appreciate it. Much love to you all.