This is my third day of being off of adderall, and I have been on and off of it for about five years. I tried quitting a couple times but returned to it because of how conveniently it masked my loneliness. I thought I was able to "work through" my problems by taking a pill, but in reality it was just distancing me further from them while giving me a little pat on the back for acheivements that I could not confidently call my own. It also made me see life with a nauseating clarity that somehow made things less clear. I am not very productive now but I feel more grounded and serene.