Frank B

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  1. Coping with Boredom?

    ‘Countin' flowers on the wall, that don't bother me at all Playin' solitaire 'til dawn, with a deck of fifty-one Smokin' cigarettes and watchin' Captain Kangaroo Now don't tell me I've nothin' to do’ Boredom = motavtion to do something. I’d say if your feeling bored that’s a good thing. For most of my recovery doing absolutely nothing was just fine with me.
  2. Sort of a bitter sweet task finally have motivation to tackle. I have piles of misc electronics and parts I collect during my addy days. So many hours spent in this area buzzed out of my mind on addy, Oxy and alcohol. Even recall one night being all screwed up having fun messing with some project “Boy this will really be a motherfucker quitting I’m so addicted.” I was right been very hard but glad I did it. I’ve sort of avoided this place for the last two years. Many things I toss away knowing it’s taking up space still other things keep thinking I still may do something with it, but prob won’t lol. Just crazy how I took so many things apart during those days.
  3. Take it or Tough it out?

    What the real problem is the risk are played down by doctors. You buy this medication and read the warning labels it straight up tells you all the possible risk. So why do doctors just shrug off those side effect warnings? Well they are in the buisness of selling them. They basically told me that those side effects are very rare you should be fine. Truth is it’s not that rare and they are misinforming patients. Leslie your not being paranoid questioning your doctor. You are past the point of being a lab rat of Big pharma you know the side effects of medication you should have never been given. Just like the doctor claims you shouldn’t have withdrawal from your dosage of addy she would probably say the same for any bad symptoms from a SSRI. The best thing is diet, talking to a therapist and plenty of sunlight. Also trying supplements one I mentioned and many more others have had listed on here. If you feel you absolutely must be on a medication like Sean said try Wellbutrin a non SSRI antidepressant. I was on it myself awhile seemed to help some and had little problem stopping it.
  4. Take it or Tough it out?

    Eric you did have something to lose taking a SSRI. I don’t feel it’s a last resort option for anyone considering suicide it’s just too fucking dangerous. Thinking and doing are completely different for many it pushes them over that edge. You were lucky many are not and it ruins life’s yet doctors do not fully explain the real risk. I’ll be honest two years clean I’d go back to being a fuck up addy junkie before resorting to trying a SSRI again for depression because it literally made me want to stab myself, it was just the most fucked up thing I’ve ever felt. I know it did not have that effect on you or does everyone but my case is not that rare see video link. Nothing against what your saying Eric know your trying to help but I just stand my ground on this subject.
  5. Take it or Tough it out?

    I’m not a professional but my opinion from experience, Fuck No! Why would you take a medication to help depression when one of the side effects can be worse depression and suicidal or homicidal thoughts? It’s a fucking joke go look up how SSRI’s we’re passed swifitly by the FDA. I read a book about it been awhile back but it’s disgusting. By the way not only will it prob make you feel worse but must likely also have no sexual desire “limp dick”, no real appetite, heartburn and possible psychotic episodes (for me was like a horrible anxiety attack almost like bad acid trip) . This shit will not make you happy it makes you at best numb feel no joy or sadness. It’s a crime this shit is given out doctors are fucking blind to the truth or don’t care. Try supplements again preaching this on here people probbably get sick of it but try Lithium Orotate I wrote up in the supplement section and have a link. At worse it doesn’t work and you waste $8 compared to what can happen on a SSRI it’s a no brainer. Side note my 14 yr old niece 3 weeks ago went to the er for trying to off herself with pills. Thankfully it was just some max strength aspirin but took the entire bottle. She is ok thankfully but a week prior she started a SSRI because she was feeling a little sad. You know what they said at the hospital? “Yes we see this a lot when patients start a new antidepressant.” What really upset me was I told my sister my thoughts on this shit long ago.
  6. Just need to vent

    Good luck really hope it benefits u and others on here much as it has me. Any questions feel free to message me. I know sound like some spokesman selling some bs but it really has made a noticeable difference in my case hope it continues.
  7. Just need to vent

    I felt like that understand completely. I hate to push something I haven’t given 30 days but this Lithium Orotate supplement I started about 2 weeks ago has really started to turn things around for me. I’m a few months ahead of you but honestly did not feel different until I started taking it. I actually put up Xmas lights on my house , rearranged my bedroom, really organizing my office finally after two years. Started selling or throwing away crap I don’t need. I still take breaks etc not like some addy binge but I finally have motivation to do more than the bare minimum during a day. Of course sticking to a good diet and exercise regrually know that helps also. Just google it see what you think long as your not taking some form of antidepressant be perfectly safe to try.
  8. About to lose it all

    They key to a massive heart attack is taking adderall and running long distances. I work out way more now vs on addy but whenever I did felt my heart about to explode. My kids were one of the main reasons I quit even though on addy many times I’d be up all night like a mad scientist making some crazy electronic thing for them to play with. But overall they needed me vs some stupid gadget I created staying up all night building that was my thing on addy my shop lights never shut off. But I had a lot of regrets many weekends I’d skip going to the park with them over working in my shop and did that for several years. You may feel after stopping your a worse parent for awhile but don’t let that burden you. Yes you’ll be struggling awhile but in the long run it will benefit you and your kids in so many ways. Good luck visit this site often.
  9. 2 yrs and counting.

    Thanks sometimes I wonder if my post help or hurt I don’t filter a lot of my emotions on here just let it go sort of like our president on Twitter lol.
  10. Eyesight After Quitting

    Blessed with great eyesight never felt my addiction impaired my vision after quitting. Maybe you just got a little older time to get them checked out?
  11. There are 4.6 mg of elemental lithium in most 120mg tablet. The brand I bought is Weyland it has 5 mg of element per pill. I’ve been doing two in the morning also. Tried one in the afternoon also but seems to keep me up. So far been the most impactful supplement I’ve ever tried really feel its making a difference. I’m usually not one to fall for placebo effect because I’m sort of a negative person but lately been feeling unusually positive. But before I jump ahead of myself give it a few more weeks for a verdict.
  12. I’ve been taking vitamin d, sea grass, fish oil all I think make me healthy but have not really improved my mood. When I started I did take 5-htp did nothing also took tyrosine helped a little of energy but think I grew a tolerance to it very quickly. I’m hoping this lithium does what many claim. Sort of feel everyone is different and certain supplements can be very beneficial to some others not so much. What dosage of Lithium are you taking?
  13. I’ve yet to see any talk of lithium orotate on here maybe overlooked it or maybe it’s never been discussed. You may hear the word lithium and discussion over. Before you jump to conclusions do your research. This is completely different than the prescription lithium. The possible benefits to post adderall users are many. It’s sad not one doctor in my life has suggested giving this supplement a try with my lifelong low level depression issues. But of course why would a doctor suggest a non-prescription they can never benefit from. It’s not expensive can be ordered off amazon and may help improve your long road of adderall recovery. I’ve taken it for a few days myself and can already feel some improvement. I will follow up in 30 days or so to determine if this is a placebo effect or not. But given all the possible benefits felt it was worth posting now.
  14. 2 yrs and counting.

    So I still have my video saved from me putting my prescriptions in the paper shredder on this day. Hard to believe 2 yrs in some ways I’m very pleased at my progress other times disappointed. I know many people have used list of task to complete things post addy. I’ve just never been that kind of person but know I really should. I’m more of it comes time I get things done problem is post addy you don’t have that spike of motivation to complete task out of nowhere so more things get pushed to the side. One of my goals this next year into recovery is to force myself to have a daily list of task to complete. Another one is stopping wasting so much time on social media I tell myself it’s important for my buisness but that’s a lie. I find myself scrolling down non stop clicking on stupid crap all the time wasting countless hours. But even with all my faults I’ve come so far completely out of debt and financially doing pretty good. I hope all of you have a great Thanksgiving and some can use my story of quitting as inspiration.
  15. depression Life ruined?

    It gets better just very slow process. Honestly it’s hard to judge what my six months was like feels so long ago I guess could look back on my post but know I’m in a far better place personally. Far as happiness no I’m not the happiest person but then again this can’t all be blamed on stopping addy. Stuck in a bad relationship I can only imagine a better place could be in now with a true partner who helps me vs holding me back. We have nothing in common she is not supportive in my diet choices etc just together for a child that’s it. Probably why I’m on here all the time really can’t share much with her.