JustDance

@Krax, I wasn't taking a higher dosage than I was prescribed, but I guess I was abusing it in the sense that I went to my doctor with the intention of getting an adderall prescription, and if I ever needed a higher dose I would just say it's not as affective anymore. @zoog I'm about to be in the same boat as you. I'm going to try quitting for the 3rd time. I didn't have it in me to flush my remaining pills down the toilet... that was really courageous of you. I am down to my last pill though, and I'm hoping it will be the last one I take. I can tell you from experience though, renewing your prescription "just to have them" is only going to lead to relapse. Last time I tried to quit I wanted to keep some just to have, and I wrapped the bottle up in a million layers of paper and tape and locked it in a box and hid it out of sight, hoping if I ever craved it I wouldn't want to go through all the trouble to dig the bottle back out. Of course, less than a week after that the only thing I could get motivated for was unwrapping the giant wad of paper I made with the nice adderally center

I was in a very similar situation. I didn't start until sophomore year of college, and by senior year I couldn't imagine life without it. I felt like I was at my worst though about 6 months after I graduated. I think the transition from college to being part of the "real world" can be one of the hardest times of a person's life. I moved to a new city as well, and I was not prepared for how long and stressful searching for a job was going to be. I also felt really depressed because I never saw my friends anymore, who I used to see everyday while in college. Because I was at such an unstable time in my life, I felt more dependent on adderall than ever, but I didn't know that the adderall was most likely making my depression even worse. The following summer I went on vacation with my family, and I decided to take that opportunity to try to not take any adderall. It wasn't easy at first, but I was in an environment where I didn't feel the pressure of job hunting, and didn't feel guilty about spending a lot of time resting. After that I stayed off adderall for almost a year, and felt great about it. Unfortunately, I have relapsed, but I'm at a point where I only take it a few times a week, and since I know I'm capable of quitting I don't have that fear that I won't be able to function without it. My story is probably not the most helpful, but I guess my point is that you're not alone, and you're at an especially difficult time in your life, so try not to be too hard on yourself. If you have a few days where you don't have anything planned, maybe try seeing what happens if you don't take any adderall. Also, don't worry too much about not being able to hold a job without being on adderall. I have found that it's actually easier for me to get through the day without adderall if I'm working, but on the weekends I have nothing motivating me to get out of bed (which is why I relapsed).